Title: The Next Cup of Coffee
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon, slight!Donghae/Yoona. Side: Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Eeteuk.
Rating: G
Word Count: 3,780
Summary: It’s already fifth cup of coffee. Walking through time. Memory within the black aroma, it touches my hardened tongue but not my heart. The cup that once held my habit, Became a drawer of memory that unfolds like a photo album, and drifted away like leaves.
A/N: I didn't forget about this actually, but something'd come up and I didn't have enough courage to continue this. Don't know if people still read this,,sorry because, yeah, 'words' left me. :p Enjoy! ^o^
Third Cup: A Daily Routine
I miss the warm lips, so I drink a cup of coffee
Alcohol is hard on my body, so I drink second cup of coffee
To keep my empty hands warm, I drink third cup of coffee
Coffee became part of a daily routine.
Walking through time.
Memories of wandering through long dark night might be painful,
so I poured another cup of coffee.
May 17, Seoul
There’s a big difference of coffee and alcohol, eventhough those liquids could keep you warm, but the effect to your mind would be different. They said that if you want to get rid of your problems, just drink alcohol and it would go temporarily. But Donghae didn’t want that, did he? He didn’t want the problem to just go and then come the next morning the effect of alcohol vanished. There’s nothing could make the problem go away but coffee. Eventhough the coffee itself stored a millions of memory, at least it could make you stay a little far away from the memory that always seemed to come when the nights come and you’re alone. For the problem itself was those memories and nothing else.
Donghae was still in his study room, in front of his computer with a cup of coffee on his hand. His eyes were scanning the file on the computer screen but it wouldn’t come to his mind, the concentration he always had seemed to lose itself in the deepest part of his heart where the love seemed to take a lead.
He’s thinking about Hyukjae, about how he could approach him someday, when the time permitted him to do so. Donghae couldn’t help his longing anymore, he wanted to meet Hyukjae so bad, it hurts. Because no matter how he tried to meet face to face with Hyukjae, he couldn’t do that. Not when everyone know that he’s going to meet him. Then he thought about the possibility to do that stealthily. Yeah, he would do that, as long as he could meet his Hyukjae even only for a minute, but enough to just say ‘I love you’, for it was the last sentence he didn’t tell Hyukjae before he went for good and not coming back until now.
***
May 18, New York
He saw Daniel leaning on the wall at the train station, wearing black as usual. It was still fifteen to two and Eunhyuk thought he would be late so he prepared early, but apparently Daniel was earlier, made him felt like he always late in any kind of occasion.
Finally Daniel waved as he approached him, “ready?” he asked still grinning.
Eunhyuk replied with a smile and nodded slightly. Then without any more words, Daniel led them to the half full subway and found a seat for them both soon after. They didn’t chat much, just enjoying each other’s companion was comfortable enough. Eventhough Eunhyuk kept wandering, how a rapper could be this quiet, he thought they even a blabbermouth, but it was fair enough. Because although they just met for a couple of days, they seemed to have this silent agreement to not involve too much in each other’s world or privacy, but the result was far from that without Eunhyuk realizing it, he was the one who gave Daniel a way to slip in. Drop by drop Daniel had come into his untouched world what he himself ignored years ago. Daniel seemed know where exactly the entrance was more than anyone else, without had to presume Hyukjae from his cover, and Hyukjae thought, is it safe to be like that? Because he had used to people read him like an open book, and this Daniel, was he really couldn’t read Hyukjae?
“Ah! Eunhyuk, I have to tell you this!” Daniel exclaimed suddenly. Hyukjae gave him a side glance first before turning completely to him.
“What?”
“My friends there, don’t call me Daniel. They know me as Tablo, so... try to call me by that name,” Tablo asked then waiting for Eunhyuk to say it.
Eunhyuk thought a little before managing to hold his laughter and Daniel frowned when he heard Eunhyuk chuckled lightly and let out a soft laugh after since he couldn’t hold it any longer. Daniel didn’t know what the other’s thinking and just chuckled from Eunhyuk’s cuteness.
“What’s wrong?”
Eunhyuk stopped his laughter and turned to Daniel, “no, it’s just... I thought, would that name feel funny in my mouth?” he said, smiling, and then come that stare again. The one that made Eunhyuk’s heartbeat went faster than necessary and his face red as tomato.
“Why you always stare at me like—“ he managed to say but was cut off when he felt a warm lips on his cheek, just a few inches from his own lips. Eunhyuk widened his eyes in shock even after Daniel pulled away 2 seconds later. He couldn’t find a word to say because he could still feel Daniel’s hot breath on his skin and it made him as if a flame had burned his body, the feeling he hadn’t got in years and it’s enough to made his mouth dry.
But Daniel suddenly asked – in his face didn’t show any regret or something like sorry-i-had-kissed-you-without-permission – “try say my name,” he smiled as he kept a firm gaze to Eunhyuk’s eyes.
Eunhyuk, as if hypnotized, just do what Daniel said, “Da-Daniel...”
“No, the other one!”
“T-Tablo...?”
Daniel smiled even wider, “now... was that funny?” and pulled his gaze away.
“Eh??” Eunhyuk finally could managed to stand on his right mind again. He mumbled “Tablo...”once again and seconds later, the both of them burst into laughter, and Eunhyuk never felt this light in years.
***
The place looked like an abandoned garage with pilox writing allover the wall, but not dirty at all. There’s seemed to be no one living in that place, but as soon as you went in then you’d surrounded by a crowd. People were dancing everywhere, boys and girls, with perfect choreography, not just grinding each other’s body like you always see in the club. There was also live hip-hop music on the stage by this chubby guy with brown blazer and a black cap.
“That’s Mithra.” Daniel said right beside his ear because the music was too loud.
However Eunhyuk didn’t pay much attention to the hiphopper on the stage but the people dancing around him. He admitted it, he’s really tempted by all of their moves. The desire to dance again like the old him kept bugging his mind right now. Daniel saw it. He saw everything in those dark orbs, hard for him to not notice what was inside the beautiful eyes he’s got drowned to. But from the first time Daniel got to see them, something was missing, something like a half of his soul was somewhere and he got lost because of it. Then Daniel decided that he would do whatever it was to bring that thing to Eunhyuk again.
“You wanna dance?” Daniel asked Eunhyuk who still absorbed into the dancers.
Eunhyuk turned to him with a smile, “yeah, I would love to, but how...?”
Daniel brought Eunhyuk to the side of the dancefloor and made him met someone, “this is Sol... Sol, this is Eunhyuk,” Sol offered a hand to Eunhyuk to shake. The mohawked hair boy that shorter than Eunhyuk smiled with his little eyes, but you could see that he had muscles everywhere despite his cute face.
“Oh, hi Sol!” Eunhyuk greeted cheerfully.
They soon became close. Even when Daniel off to his so called ‘office’, they could chat comfortably, although Eunhyuk had to reminisce some of terms Sol use about dance in their conversation, because it’s been a really long time since Eunhyuk heard those. Sol brought him to the crew that consist of 20 peoples or so and they started their routine. Eunhyuk left to watch but Sol said that he could join anytime. So he just stood between an afro-america girl and this fat guy with hoody who started screaming when the music change and Sol stepped forward to show his skills. The music was live, by the way, this Mithra guy that Daniel mentioned still singing and rapping with 2 other guys and 1 girl, plus the DJ which also kept playing in the background.
Eventhough Eunhyuk still awkward with the place, soon he started to sway with the music and found himself smiling watching everyone dance. It was like finding his old self and it was great actually. Suddenly, Sol beckoned him to try the dancefloor and he found it hard to refuse, so with one confidence left, Eunhyuk stepped forward and started to move his body, do some popping or hiphop dance, jump to the air or spin on the ground, and he felt as if he was the lightest person in the world.
Eunhyuk didn’t know that Daniel had been watching him this entire time. Standing in the corner as he sipped on his black coffee, staring at Eunhyuk with such intensity and drowning into his happiness as always. He didn’t know why he always taken along by this boy’s expressions. Eunhyuk always had his expression easy to read, he notice that. Whenever he sad despite his smile, Daniel always knew it all and couldn’t help but sucked up into those.
“Looks like you got lost,” someone stated beside Daniel. He knew who it was, because the guy had been his friend for 10 years, “got the fresh one?”
“He’s Korean, Mithra,” Daniel said as he took another sip from the paper cup.
Mithra ‘tsk’ by the answer and shook his head, “just go to that country if you’re so obsessed!” he offered and laugh right after.
Daniel only smiled to himself, “I knew it’s silly of me.”
“Good. Just so you know, this guy looks innocent yet tough, don’t do stupid things,” Mithra said as he ready to leave.
“I know, right,” Daniel answered, “we’ll see...” he finished his coffee hurriedly and walked towards Eunhyuk when Mithra just shook his head with an amused smile.
***
May 18, Seoul
A knock was heard when Donghae just started scanning the fourth document that day in his office. He said come in without bothering to look up who’s coming inside, until his secretary spoke to him.
“Sir, here is the information you wanted,”
Donghae looked up from his work, “whose you got?”
“I can’t find the detail about Lee Sungmin, but I found an almost complete information about Jo Kyuhyun,” she answered as she handed over the document.
“...and who is this guy?” Donghae asked as he flipped through the document, he found the photo of this Kyuhyun guy.
“He happens to be close to Lee Sungmin, perhaps, I’m not sure,”
Donghae dismiss her and then sighed heavily as he slumped down on his leather chair. When he told his secretary to find any information about Lee Hyukjae who live in New York, he got no results at all. How come Eeteuk and Kangin found out about him was still a mystery to him. But in whatever circumstances, Donghae would never asked Eeteuk about it or he would be scolded for not being true with himself, again.
Donghae even came to a conclusion that Eeteuk was lying when he told about Hyukjae was in New York, but then he remembered Sungmin from their highschool, Hyukjae was very close to him whenever Donghae wasn’t around. So he started to search for Lee Sungmin but it turned out that Sungmin was also in New York. Was it coincidence or Lee Sungmin had something to do with Hyukjae being in New York? Donghae was so frustated, because he couldn’t even contact Hyukjae’s family because they had argument years ago concerning Hyukjae’s departure and they blamed him for it. They sure wouldn’t let Donghae know where their son was.
But this Jo Kyuhyun, he hope this was the last clue for him to find his love and the most accurate one, for he’s already tired of all this and if he didn’t get anything, he sure would go alone without any information whatsoever to New York and search for Hyukjae by himself.
***
“Donghae, your coffee!” he heard Yoona called from outside his study room that night. It was already 10 pm in Seoul city.
He still busy with works in front of him, so without tore his eyes from it, he answered Yoona, “yes, just bring it here.”
Yoona came in and sighed first before approaching his husband’s desk. She had to admit it, that she kind of tired about Donghae’s attitude this past week. She had no strange feeling to Donghae’s coldness, for it had been like that since the first time they meet, and he only kind towards her just as friend, or if they had to be intimate that’s just because of demand. Donghae and Yoona were the first and only heir to their parents, so she, as a fillial daughter she used to be, just accept when her father forced her to marry their choice, and it turned out to be Donghae, her idol, since she always saw him in the magazine where his father would be. There was no love between them, or so Donghae thought, but Yoona had her own feeling.
Being together in the same house for 2 years, doing what a spouse should did, how come you couldn’t grow some feeling. However, Yoona couldn’t be sure whether Donghae felt the same or not. He’s kind for sure, despite the coldness and how ignorance he is to Yoona, but she had been told that Donghae was like that indeed even to his family, as long as Donghae didn’t harsh to her and show to her face that he didn’t like her. But that’s the thing now, Donghae’s ignorance had been out of limit. They barely talk, Donghae never sleep in their room again, and the most annoying one was he never had breakfast in the morning. He just busied himself with work, in the office or even at home, and Yoona, as his wife, got suspicious about it.
Putting the red cup on the desk beside a pile of documents, Yoona then sat on the couch and cleaned the table with books in it, “oppa...” she started, and Donghae just hummed in acknowledgement that she’s there. Yoona, sensing that his husband didn’t want to be disturbed more, just continued talking without expecting for any response, “I got an offer from entertaintment industry,” she said as she put the books on the right place, “they want me to model again.”
Yoona waited for what Donghae’s answer would be. He ever said that he didn’t like exposure, despite he’s always being in magazine for a long time now as a succcessful excecutive, and because Yoona knew that, she left modelling before marrying Donghae. Now she just wanna know how Donghae would response.
“That’s good,” he said, and Yoona was sure about her suspicion. With that she left the room after said thank you to her husband.
Believe it or not, Yoona never knew about Donghae’s detail in life. She only knew about it all from his parents, but it wasn’t corcerning Donghae himself. She never knew if Donghae had girlfriend before. Yes, that’s what going on in her mind. Donghae had been in this behavior because of someone, she was sure of that. Did Donghae cheated on her with another woman, or he found his old girlfriend? She had to know about her husband eventhough not from her husband himself.
***
May 20, New York
Eunhyuk buried his head in the soft pillow, annoyed by the sound of bell ringing in this early morning. The person didn’t stop even when Eunhyuk decided to ignore it for 15 minutes already. Grumbling, he sat upright before walking to the door, and he didn’t surprise when the person entered his apartment was Sungmin. After letting Sungmin in, he walked back to his room and continued his slumber.
He could hear Sungmin sighed and almost saw the shook of his head, “wake up, you lazy bum!” Sungmin yelled.
“Let me sleep, Min!” he said as he pulled the cover over his head.
“I know it would be like this!” Sungmin walked towards Eunhyuk’s bed and sat beside him, “wake up, will ya! I wanna talk with you!” he groaned in frustation.
“Talk.” Eunhyuk answered lowly, still tried to sleep again.
“Where have you been in two days?” Sungmin asked.
Eunhyuk sighed, “that’s not talking, that’s asking,” he pinpointed.
“Yah Lee Hyukjae! Why are you like this? are you ‘drunk’ with coffee again?!” Sungmin pulled the cover off Eunhyuk’s body in annoyance, “you promised me!”
Eunhyuk sat on his bed, his back on the headboard, lips pouting, “are you here early in the morning just to scold me?”
“It’s not my fault that you born only to be scolded everyday!” Sungmin huffed, “anyway, you’re not answering my questions.”
“I don’t drink coffee 10 cups a day anymore, Min, believe me!”
“Not that question! That I do believe, anyway. But where have you been yesterday and the day before that? I couldn’t contact you at all,” Sungmin said in a worried expression.
Eunhyuk opened up his eyes to that question and thought about what he should say to his bestfriend, he never lied to Sungmin, but this thing could become a twist in his live and he didn’t know whether that could be healthy or not to suddenly involve in something you tried so hard to avoid.
“I’ve been with a friend.” Eunhyuk finally answered as he get up from his bed and walked to the bathroom to wash his face. He could heard Sungmin’s gasp from behind and sighed softly before grabbing his toothbrush.
The next thing he knew Sungmin was leaning in his bathroom doorway, watching him with a frown, “is it that girl I saw with you in my shop?”
“No! it’s a guy.” Eunhyuk stated and then being answered by Sungmin’s shriek.
“WOW! You’ve finally got yourself a guy!!” he said, Eunhyuk just rolled his eyes, “..and you’re not even denying it.” Sungmin’s smirk got wider as he stared at his best friend through the mirror, “I’m going to tell Kyuhyun that our lovely Hyukjae got himself a boyfriend already.”
“Yah,Minnie! Don’t do that, I didn’t get a boyfriend!” he explained after washing his face and before Sungmin could hold his cellphone.
“So... care to tell me who this guy is?” pestered Sungmin.
“Can we talk this over breakfast? I’m starving, and since I’ve lost my job, you better feed me.” Eunhyuk said as he put on some t-shirt and a pair of jeans.
“Let’s go to my shop, so we can talk about your ‘boyfriend’ with Kyu also!”
“I don’t have a boyfriend!” Eunhyuk stomped his foot as he grabbed his coat.
“Okay, as you wish.” Sungmin stated in the end, but didn’t leave the grin plastered on his face because of Eunhyuk’s red face this entire time.
***
So Eunhyuk actually told them about Daniel and where they usually hang out. He also told them about his feeling towards Daniel. He smiled, that’s the very important thing to tell, because two of his bestfriend here always told him about Eunhyuk never smile despite the thought that he always smile whenever he met people.
“You smile everytime, but not this kind of smile..” Kyuhyun stated just as Eunhyuk sipped at his latte.
Eunhyuk put his cup and frowned at Kyuhyun, “what smile are you talking about, really? Because Daniel said the same thing too.”
“Great that he’s also realized it, it proves that he could see the real you.” Sungmin said, carrying a plate of fettucini for Eunhyuk.
Eunhyuk sighed after receiving the pasta for his breakfast, “didn’t everyone can easily to see the real me?”
“I think it’s that something inside your eyes that if someone sees them, they could see through your soul or something like that.” Kyuhyun said before sipping his coffee. Eunhyuk stared at him for seconds and then to the cup he just put. Black coffee. Tempting.
“Why does it sounds romantic to me,” Sungmin stated, glaring at Kyuhyun who cringed at his boyfriend’s tone, that showed that he’s jealous over something, but Sungmin averted his gaze to Eunhyuk quickly, “hey, Hyuk, do you plan to always seeing this man?”
Eunhyuk jerked from his trance before turning his head toward Sungmin, “eh, ehmm, maybe.. he always come to that coffee shop under my apartment though in the evening, and we always talked and I know where he’s always hang out, and I like that place, I can dance there...”
“You dance again?!” Sungmin widened his eyes in surprise, Eunhyuk nodded, “wow! This guy changes you a lot. It’s a good thing, though.”
Eunhyuk smiled wider, the situation seemed got a lot better. His heart felt healed eventhough it wasn’t whole yet, but he should accept this feeling once again if he really wanted to move on. After more than 3 years scared about killing his own heart, maybe this time was finally the moment it would come, his life, his reason to really breathe again.
***
May 23, Airport
He told Yoona he wouldn’t be home for 2 weeks yesterday. Made work as an excuse. He caught a flight to New York at 3 am in the morning, leaving his wife still fast asleep in their bedroom. Gone with a little information he had to get a chance to see his beloved person. Just to see and said ‘I love you’ because he still was. He didn’t even know if the other still remember him or not, still love him or not, but it didn’t matter, as long as he could see that face again, could touch that cheek again, and mouthing those three words in front of him. Then he’ll do everything the other wanted him to do, even went to hell because he has been asked to by the one he hurt the heart of. We wouldn’t regret anything anymore if this really happen, but he worried about something. What if he couldn’t take his eyes away from him after this, what if the thought of runaway with him come to his mind and he couldn’t chase that away, and what if he wanted more than just what he intended to. Maybe it really better if Hyukjae did forget about him after all. Eventhough he couldn’t, wouldn’t forget him. Never.
“Hyukjae, please let me find you...” he looked at the grey sky as he stepped out from the airport, grabbed a cab and go to .
Fourth Cup: Meeting Face to Face
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2012/01/24
2011/03/22
[CF02] The Next Cup of Coffee
Title: The Next Cup Of Coffee
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,661
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
It’s too early for us to fall asleep.
Please stay up a little longer.
Please, don’t miss out on the cup of eternity.
You and me.
Me and my coffee
Hyukjae was a bright and cheerful kid, but also very polite if it come to older people. He liked to dance everywhere he go since 7 and it sometimes made his mom embarassed but also proud. She never forbad Hyukjae to dance so when he was 14, his mom take him to a dance course although he didn’t ask for it. There, he met this adorable boy named Lee Donghae. The name felt funny in his mouth so he often said it to the other. They became good friends soon because everyday Hyukjae will make fun of him and he chase Hyukjae until they reached Hyukjae’s house.
Eventhough their house wasn’t close from each other, they always picked up each other to go to the course in the evening after school. Their school didn’t close either, so they only had course time to be together. Hyukjae and Donghae confessed to each other that they never had a friend who had the same interest and could understand them. So they made a promise to go to the same college.
From: Hae^^
Hyuk… today you go to campus by yourself, okay ? I got a thing to do first..
One day, Hyukjae got those text messages in an early morning before he went to shower. It’s strange to know that Donghae had something important beside him but he shrugged it off right then. He got his breakfast then walked alone to the college. He arrived at his class first, it was weird since the class would start in ten minutes. When he got boring with this quiet class, he heard a loud commotion come from the school backyard. Hyukjae went to the window far from the door and looked down – his class in 4th story – and his eyes widened.
There, in the middle of the yard, a big banner made from pieces with each piece held by one person and it made a love sign. Then the person tiped it over to the other side and it made two words, Hyuk – Hae. Hyukjae gasped in surprise. As he still shocked from it, he got a text message from Donghae again.
From: Hae^^
Be my boyfriend… go to a date with me… I Love You.
They soon became lovers. More or less there’s a change between them. One of them was which Donghae always kissed his lips before Hyukjae went inside his house after a long walk just because they wanted to spend more time together. Sometimes Donghae would slide his hand onto Hyukjae’s waist on the street beside just hold hands just so everyone would know that they are lovers now, not just bestfriends.
A year later Donghae got his own apartment. He once told Hyukjae to move in with him, but Hyukjae didn’t ready yet, but he came to his apartment almost everyday. He actually didn’t put a quite attention to how it would become. He, at first didn’t know that Donghae’s love was really pure for him, but when he knew it made him go crazy for this one man, only for him. After that, never Hyukjae left his side. Always on his sight 24/7.
Donghae worked a part-time job in one of the famous coffee shop on their town, not because he needed the money since he was rich, but he always liked coffee especially the smell of it. He would take more time to smell the scent of one cup of hot coffee before taking a sip of it. In comparison, Hyukjae loved ice cream, especially with strawberry for the topping. It wasn’t like he didn’t like to drink coffee, but he never been that addicted like Donghae. Once he got jealous for that stupid coffee, because Donghae rather went for a cup of coffee after he woke up, not to him.
It’s ridiculous though, how he managed to get used to Donghae being addicted to coffee, and then he slowly loved it when after Donghae drank a cup of hot coffee and kissed him, it had a different warm to his lips and mouth, it made him addicted too. Not to the coffee but to Donghae’s kiss.
It maybe because Eunhyuk can’t have those kisses again, everyday he will drink coffee. It has been two years since coffee became his dailly routine. From the moment he starts his day until the time he has to close his eyes – as if he can – yes, Eunhyuk never had a night worth of sleep since 3 years ago.
May 15, New York
“You’re late!” Bryan stated the obvious, “again!” he added, then sighed, “if you don’t want this job anymore, then tell me!” he said again as he massaged his own nape.
Eunhyuk gasped when he heard that, “how?—sir?!” he was in a panic state. Bryan never said it to him eventhough he always late, just a small scolding and then he would let Eunhyuk work again immediately.
Bryan huffed, “I don’t know what got into you, and I thought I could accustomed to it, but then again you prove that I’m wrong, you never change!” he kept his voice still down, but Eunhyuk knew that bryan was dead serious with this. He had been working for him for almost 3 years now.
“Bryan, s-sir, give me a second chance, please!!” Eunhyuk pleaded, he really didn’t know what would he do if he lost his only job, his only source of life in this foreign country.
“I don’t know Hyuk! But I’ll think of it... after you change yourself!” Bryan smiled was short after giving Eunhyuk a side glance, “I’m sorry, Eunhyuk... but I don’t think I can accept you if you still like this, as much as I like it when you around and of course helped, I have to be consistent with my job and dicipline with my time if I want to be a profesional!”
Eunhyuk bowed his head down, this was his consequent, he knew it would happen sooner or later, but still he could never get out of his habit eventhough the consequent could risk his life. “I’m sorry, sir.” Eunhyuk bowed to his boss. He knew that sorry would get him nowhere, Bryan looked really firm with his decision and Eunhyuk knew he was the one who dissapointing him. Bryan took him when he had no one to run to, to continue his life, he even taught him to do something that would help him, and to know that he was dissapointed because of Eunhyuk’s stupid habit, he really ashamed of what he had done.
“You can comeback anytime, but make sure that you have really made up your mind, I know something is bothering you all this time.” Bryan explained, even after what Eunhyuk did to him, Bryan always understood his condition.
“Thank you, Bryan, for everything, if it wasn’t you then I don’t know how to continue my life. I’m sorry!” Eunhyuk was in the verge of tears now, but he held it in.
Bryan nodded at Eunhyuk, “it’s hard for me also, but I’ve been thinking over it, that what you need to continue with your life wasn’t a job, but something else.” He said sincerely.
Eunhyuk tried to disgest what Bryan had said and realization hit him. It’s happening again, wasn’t it? People always easily saw through him like an open book, was he too obvious with his feelings, could he just once keep his sentiment inside and covered it with a closed cage so no one couldn’t notice it.
“I know...” Eunhyuk managed to say, suddenly the desire to be alone again barged into his soul, to be away from people “...I think I’ll get going now, if you excuse me!” and he left, but before he could turned the doorknow, he heard Bryan spoke.
“Just don’t forget you can comeback some other time!”
Eunhyuk then left with burden on his two shoulder, he thought of where to go this time, of where he would hang his life now, he surely wouldn’t back to his parents again eventhough he was sure that his parents wouldn’t neglect him, but he had chosen to leave back then and promise to live alone without worrying them. He sighed loudly, luckily there was no one on the elevator that would take him to the ground floor, and slided down the wall. He couldn’t take this anymore, he needed to be alone, with no one else to interfere with his life, without knowing that everyone in this world knew what on his heart. He wished that he just drowned in the sea or swallowed by the ground right here right now. He didn’t want to be ‘seen’ anymore.
Eunhyuk was in the middle of thinking how to hide himself when the elevator door opened and someone walked in without Eunhyuk noticing it and kept sitting on the elevator floor. “Eunhyuk?” the girl’s voice suddenly filled the silent air of Eunhyuk. He looked up just to see Hyoyeon smiled widely at him, “what are you doing, sitting down inside the elevator? And don’t you have a photo session with Bryan today?”
Eunhyuk stood up and fixed his mailbag on his shoulder, “Hyo, that—I get fired, just now,” he said and then smiled a sad smile.
“What?!!!” Hyoyeon screamed, shocked all written on her face.
“Yeah, I always late and I think I deserve that. It’s just about time..” Eunhyuk sighed and then chuckled to himself of how ironic his life was.
Hyoyeon just kept silent, didn’t know what to say anymore, if Bryan had made a decision, he would make sure that he did that. The problem was, how could he fire Eunhyuk who’d been with him since he treaded on photography world. The biggest thing of it all, Hyoyeon would never meet Eunhyuk again since she didn’t know anything about him except what he did in the office.
“Oh.. we’re here!” Eunhyuk said as the elevator dinged at the ground floor, “I’ll get going then, thank you, Hyo!” he smiled at her still sad expression.
“Can I ride you home?” Hyoyeon suddenly ask.
Eunhyuk frowned, “don’t you have work today? Beside I think I won’t be home yet now.” He could see Hyoyeon’s pout slightly, but ignored it, “bye, Hyo!” he turned from her.
“Eunhyuk...”
Eunhyuk turned back again to face Hyoyeon, “can I... umm, can we... meet again?” Eunhyuk tilted his head in confusion, why his co-worker acted like this, he never saw Hyoyeon in a sad condition before, she always had a bright and warm smile for everyone. Was it because he meant a lot to her? He thought he wasn’t important for anyone. “I mean... I didn’t have your number and I... didn’t know your house too, so... I thought it would be hard to...” she trailed off and smiled awkwardly.
Eunhyuk silent for a moment, but said “right, sorry for that...” he come closer to Hyoyeon and took out his cellphone, gave her his number and his address. “that’s it, Hyo! Of course we’ll meet again, I have to go now!” and he left before Hyoyeon could speak again.
He wandered on New York’s street, with no particular destination. He planned to just being alone today in a place where many people wouldn’t come and stay there until night. So, maybe Kyuhyun’s shop’s rooftop would be a nice place at this moment, and also tell the couple that their friend now was jobless.
***
May 16, Seoul
“Yoona, where is my coffee?” Donghae asked as he stil fixed his tie on the kitchen door, looking at his wife’s frame from behind and then returned to fix the tie again.
Yoona turned to his husband and smiled her most beautiful smile, but it vanished again as he saw Donghae didn’t even looking at her and just busy with his red tie, “it’s on the dining table, Hae!”
He walked to the said table and drank his black and bitter coffee to keep him awake when suddenly Yoona grabbed his hand that had been holding his unfinished stupid tie and fix it for him, “you’ve been sleep late lately, don’t you?” she asked softly.
“Yeah, I was working.” Donghae simply answered. It was the truth but also not actually true. The truth was he wasn’t sleeping at all – at night – this past 3 days. He’s working, right, but work wouldn’t take much of his time. Something haunted him, made him couldn’t even close his eyes, because it would come when it was dark around him, eventhough it was light that come, it was still miserable.
“Don’t overwork yourself, it’s not healthy.” Yoona said as she rub her palm on Donghae’s chest.
Donghae finished his coffee quickly, because first it’s been 7.10 in the morning and second he wasn’t comfortable with Yoona’s hand on his body, “I have to go..” he said before kissing her forehead and leave, “bye.”
After Donghae settled himself on his car, he sighed and glanced over their house. He knew that Yoona knew what he felt, they’d been living together for almost 3 years now as a spouse and they’d revealed what on each other’s mind from the start, that they didn’t love each other. It had been fine for the first year, they could understand each other and tried to keep their own side from the other. But then the demand kept compulsing from here and there and although Donghae want to keep it like the way it used to be, Yoona couldn’t do that anymore. She tried to enter Donghae’s side until Donghae couldn’t help but let her be, for the sake of his and her family. It didn’t run smoothly, instead Donghae made more barrier on his side without even he realize it. The thing was he felt guilty toward her.
In the office, Donghae always been busy with his work for the company. He was the heir to this company so that’s why he’d been forced to listen to what the elder said with no objection. He had to take care of this company to continue what his father had built. At 12.30 pm, just as Donghae finished his lunch, the phone on his office rang and he press the button so his secretary could speak, “sir, there’s a Kim Kangin on the phone.” She said. Donghae’s eyes widened from what he heard, did he hear right? Is this that Kangin she’s talking about?
“Put him on the line!” he ordered.
“Donghae?” the Kangin spoke.
“Hyung?!! Is this really you?” Donghae asked with enthusiasm, he’d been waiting for this call for months.
“Ya!! Who else, idiot!!” another voice spoke, this was more gentle eventhough the tone was higher.
“Teuki-hyung!!” Donghae laughed as he heard the voice he’d been missing, “how are you? And when are you coming home? Since Kangin-hyung back from the army, you’ve been nowhere to find.”
Leeteuk chuckled hearing his little cousin whining, “we’re fine, Hae! We’re still in Hawaii now and tonight we’ll be off from here.”
“You’ll be home again, yay!!” Donghae cheered happily like a little kid, didn’t remember that he’s now a big man in suit and a director for one of the biggest company in Korea, sitting on a high comfortable seat inside a sky-high tower.
“No Hae, we’re not coming back home yet, there’s place we wanted to come to.” Leeteuk said and then silent for a moment, “Hae, we found him,” he added, and Donghae couldn’t breathe.
After a long minute Donghae kept silent, made his two hyungs worried to dead, Leeteuk called him, “Donghae are you still there?”
Donghae’s eyes that widened in shock just now closed tight and he sent a silent prayer to God for granted his wish, “wh-where is he?” Donghae managed to say.
“We’re not too sure of where the exact he is, but we know that he’s in New York now,” Leeteuk said, “Hae, we have an agreement, don’t we?” he added with a warning mixed with anxiousness in his tone.
Donghae kept silent again and lowered his head and inhaled deeply, restrained a threatening tears from his eyes, despite how painful his heart at the moment to hear that thing again, to fall down, “yeah, I know hyung.”
“Eventhough I know that it won’t change everything between you and him, but... you’re trying aren’t you?”
Donghae turned his chair in the direction of a big window behind him and gazed through it into the space outside, Seoul city in the afternoon, but his mind just focused to the horizon on far away, hoping that he could see what behind it. He knew for sure that if he could, he would find him there. However, it just proved him that he wasn’t trying, he tried but he just couldn’t anymore, he’d given up on trying to forget the man he loved most, “I tried, hyung,” Donghae answered honestly. Didn’t care if he broke the agreement, he never thought that it would ever be influential for him, “but I just... can’t anymore.”
Leeteuk sighed loudly, “as expected!” but then Donghae could feel the man on the other line smiling, “think I couldn’t do anything then, but just remember, don’t do stupid thing on everyone, didn’t want someone to get hurt!”
Donghae smiled a sorrowful smile, “I get it, hyung! Thank you for... everything,” Donghae said, holding back the tears. For he knew that even if he didn’t do anything stupid and everything went the way it was, someone would certain be hurt, and that was him, but it’s okay, it always be alright, as long as nobody’s hurt because of him.
After he hung up with Eeteuk-hyung, who happened to be his dearest oldest cousin, his only relative that supported him with everything he did because Eeteuk was the one who understand Donghae the most. Especially when Donghae’s parents forced him to marry, at that time it was the only time that Eeteuk held a brief for Donghae in front of his parents, saying that Donghae didnt need to marry anyone else but the person he loved, Donghae couldn’t get his work done. Knowing that his love still could be reach, he couldn’t help but think of how he would do to meet him. It would be hard, he knew, but sooner or later he would surely come for him.
They had been apart for more than 3 years. Hyukjae had told Donghae that he was going, but never told him where he would go. He always believed that Hyukjae went to only-God-knows-where to calm himself down and tried to accept what had become Donghae’s condition was back then. They never broke up, since Donghae told Hyukjae that they could still be together despite what his status was, they could still play hide and seek, but eventhough Hyukjae didn’t object to it, there was never an answer coming from him. So Hyukjae just went with promise to be back, but until now, there were even no calls to report how he’s doing and especially where was he.
“Promise me that you would never leave me!” Hyukjae demanded one night before Donghae had to tell him about his marriage. Donghae stunned, how could he asked that when Donghae would exactly betray it if he made the promise.
“Hyuk... I have something to tell you,”Donghae managed to say, his heart beating so fast with anxiety of what would Hyukjae react to the news, “I’m getting married,” he said finally.
Hyukjae just stared at Donghae with eyes widened and blinked faster then bursted out laughing, “that’s a lame joke, Hae!”
Donghae sighed and there was a well of tears in his eyes, “Hyuk, I’m serious.”
“No, you don’t!!” Hyukjae denied again, he, of course, would never believe in such statement, Donghae had made a promise to marry him someday, and that he only loved him, and he wanted to believe in it forever.
“I am, Hyuk! It’s my father... he forced me to get married for the sake of the company,” Donghae explained to his lover who kept shaking his head, eyes didn’t want to meet the other’s. Donghae cupped his face to make him looked into his own tearing eyes, “look Hyuk, I’ll said this and you better believed in me,” Eunhyuk now couldn’t stop the tears to fall from his eyes again, and after a nod, Donghae spoke again, “I’m getting married won’t effect to what we are, I love you and always love you and nothing in this world can change that.”
“No!! How can you say that it won’t change anything! It means that you’re not mine anymore! Donghae, you’re MINE!” Hyukjae cried harder, he was now clutching tightly at Donghae’s shirt and then hitting his chest quiet hard.
“I’m yours, Hyukjae, always yours, you hear me!” Donghae pulled him into an embrace to soothe him, but Hyukjae couldn’t staying still, he kept struggling on Donghae’s hold, so Donghae had to hold him tighter. When Hyukjae seemed calm enough, Donghae lift him bridal style to bring him to bed and Hyukjae instinctively circled his arms on Donghae’s neck until they reach their bedroom and both of them laying in each others arm for the rest of the night.
***
May 16, New York
“Yes, Min... I’ll get enough sleep [...] I’ll get home soon, I just come by a coffee shop [...] I promise to just drink one cup [...] okay, bye [...] I love you too!” Eunhyuk sighed after he hung up on Sungmin, the pink-haired boy sometimes could be strict and bother him too much. It made Eunhyuk wanted to be alone more, but he knew Sungmin did that because he care.
It was still 07.30 in the evening and the coffee shop was not full of people at this kind of hour. So after he ordered his coffee, Eunhyuk went to find a seat and surprise to see someone wave his hand towards him, he glanced over his shoulder in case the person calling someone else behind him, but there’s no one there. Eunhyuk waved back before walking to the man in the same spot where they meet for the first time.
“Hello! You’re here early...” Daniel said.
Eunhyuk smiled before taking a seat opposite the older man, “what? You always come here at this time?” he asked.
Daniel smiled back and Eunhyuk could see the resemblance of him on the smoky eyes man, “I’m off my work at six and often hang in here until the shop close if I have nowhere to go... what about you, I never see you in this kind of time?”
Being asked made Eunhyuk lowered his head but a sad smile formed in his lips nonetheless, “I’m fired, this morning to be exact...” he answered and Daniel’s face showed his sorry but Eunhyuk shook his head, “but I’m fine, really... I just feel a slight regret because this all is my fault.”
“Your fault?”
“Yeah, I late for work almost everyday, so it’s just about time, right?” Eunhyuk chuckled wholeheartedly. He slowly accepted to himself that he wasn’t perfect, never always be perfect for everything, but at least he must told himself that he was perfect for himself, better off alone.
“So, what will yo do after this?” Daniel asked again.
Eunhyuk shrugged his shoulder, “I don’t know, maybe lazying around until I got myself another job, I really don’t have anything to do if I don’t have any job.”
“...or maybe you could join me sometimes,” Daniel looked into Eunhyuk’s eyes with interest.
“What do you do, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked Daniel who still looking at him with hope.
“I have this community called Epik High, and we do rap and dance. Are you interested in thing like this?” Daniel explained and Eunhyuk’s eyes twinkling when he heard dance.
“Dance? I love dance!” Eunhyuk yelped with enthusiasm, it’s been a long time since he heard the word dance and dance itself, eventhough dance also the one who brought the bad memory but he couldn’t deny that he really missed to be able to dance again, “you also dance, Daniel?” Eunhyuk even asked Daniel with wider smile.
However, Daniel seemed so lost in his own world in looking to Eunhyuk’s face so Eunhyuk had to waved his hand in front of Daniel’s face, and that’s when Daniel woke up from his reverie, “oh, no... I don’t dance, I’m the one who rap,” Daniel answered, still couldn’t tear his gaze from Eunhyuk’s face, made the younger blushed.
“W-what are you staring at?” Eunhyuk managed to say, eventhough he didn’t know wether it’s true that Daniel stare at him or not. He would be very embarassed if Daniel sais he didn’t.
“You’re... you’re beautiful when you smile like this.”
Eunhyuk’s cheeks felt hot from the compliment, did he heard right that Daniel just said that he’s beautiful? He couldn’t help to bite his lips to prevent a silly smile to form on his lips. What was he thinking? He look like a shy teenage boy just now in front of an older man that he barely know for two days, but he couldn’t deny that Daniel’s word could ignite something in him.
“So...” Daniel said and Eunhyuk had the urge to look up just to see that Daniel STILL didn’t turn away from his face, “meet me at 2 pm, tomorrow?”
Eunhyuk didn’t know why it sounded like Daniel asked him to go on a date, but he shook that thought off, it was silly of him he knows, but he couldn’t help the thumping of his heart anymore. Just because of one word, what did Daniel could do? “okay,” was the simple answer Eunhyuk could give.
That night, they continued to talk until 9 pm about what life did Daniel living in and promised that tomorrow would be Eunhyuk’s turn to talk about his. Daniel was never had a permanent job, he always work for 3 months on part-time job and then search for another and his days always spent by writing for himself or Epik High, he said he also write story, hoping the manuscript could be published. Daniel also lived by himself on a ‘wrecked-apartment’ by himself and told Eunhyuk that he wouldn’t be able to walk inside the so-called-home.
Daniel sent him to his apartment, actually this is the first time a ‘friend’ knew where he lived. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to make friend with anyone or even hide himself from the civilization, but they never ask. Only Sungmin and Kyuhyun knew exactly what was inside.
Eunhyuk drank one cup of coffee again even if he had promised Sungmin to just drank one and it included one cup he bought at the coffee shop. Sungmin wouldn’t know the truth, but a side of him would feel guilty if he betrayed his bestfriend. However, tonight it was kind of enough, the urge to sleep slowly come to him and he didn’t deny it anymore. He was just thinking about how tomorrow would be with Daniel and his heart seemed cannot rest peacefuly. He’s missing his old life, when he could dance freely with his free heart, nothing could ever replace the bliss of dance for Lee Hyukjae, but since he’s Eunhyuk now, could he ever reach those blisses again? Since he became Eunhyuk, nothing could reach his heart anymore, until tonight. It felt weird to be able to feel that again.
Eunhyuk slept on his bed that night, still dreaming about him, dancing like there’s no tomorrow until he left dancing alone, but at least there’s no dried tears on Eunhyuk’s cheeks the next morning. Because his heart didn’t allow him to do that.
***
“Hyukjae… finish your coffee before it gets cold!”
“No… you finish it!”
“If you don’t want this, why make coffee in the first place?”
“I just want to try it, because you look like a really happy person when you drink it!”
“Am I??”
“Yes… and I’m jealous because of that! Silly, why can I be jealous to such a thing that doesn’t even taste good in my mouth.”
“Jealous? You’re jealous just because a cup of coffee? Hyukjae, you’re so cute… of course I’m like a happy person when I drink coffee because I drink it in front of you, I drink something I really like in front of the person I love… I’d never been happy in my life like this. By the way… it’s already past midnight, Happy Birthday My Love!!”
Third Cup:A Drawer of Memory
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,661
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
It’s too early for us to fall asleep.
Please stay up a little longer.
Please, don’t miss out on the cup of eternity.
You and me.
Me and my coffee
Hyukjae was a bright and cheerful kid, but also very polite if it come to older people. He liked to dance everywhere he go since 7 and it sometimes made his mom embarassed but also proud. She never forbad Hyukjae to dance so when he was 14, his mom take him to a dance course although he didn’t ask for it. There, he met this adorable boy named Lee Donghae. The name felt funny in his mouth so he often said it to the other. They became good friends soon because everyday Hyukjae will make fun of him and he chase Hyukjae until they reached Hyukjae’s house.
Eventhough their house wasn’t close from each other, they always picked up each other to go to the course in the evening after school. Their school didn’t close either, so they only had course time to be together. Hyukjae and Donghae confessed to each other that they never had a friend who had the same interest and could understand them. So they made a promise to go to the same college.
From: Hae^^
Hyuk… today you go to campus by yourself, okay ? I got a thing to do first..
One day, Hyukjae got those text messages in an early morning before he went to shower. It’s strange to know that Donghae had something important beside him but he shrugged it off right then. He got his breakfast then walked alone to the college. He arrived at his class first, it was weird since the class would start in ten minutes. When he got boring with this quiet class, he heard a loud commotion come from the school backyard. Hyukjae went to the window far from the door and looked down – his class in 4th story – and his eyes widened.
There, in the middle of the yard, a big banner made from pieces with each piece held by one person and it made a love sign. Then the person tiped it over to the other side and it made two words, Hyuk – Hae. Hyukjae gasped in surprise. As he still shocked from it, he got a text message from Donghae again.
From: Hae^^
Be my boyfriend… go to a date with me… I Love You.
They soon became lovers. More or less there’s a change between them. One of them was which Donghae always kissed his lips before Hyukjae went inside his house after a long walk just because they wanted to spend more time together. Sometimes Donghae would slide his hand onto Hyukjae’s waist on the street beside just hold hands just so everyone would know that they are lovers now, not just bestfriends.
A year later Donghae got his own apartment. He once told Hyukjae to move in with him, but Hyukjae didn’t ready yet, but he came to his apartment almost everyday. He actually didn’t put a quite attention to how it would become. He, at first didn’t know that Donghae’s love was really pure for him, but when he knew it made him go crazy for this one man, only for him. After that, never Hyukjae left his side. Always on his sight 24/7.
Donghae worked a part-time job in one of the famous coffee shop on their town, not because he needed the money since he was rich, but he always liked coffee especially the smell of it. He would take more time to smell the scent of one cup of hot coffee before taking a sip of it. In comparison, Hyukjae loved ice cream, especially with strawberry for the topping. It wasn’t like he didn’t like to drink coffee, but he never been that addicted like Donghae. Once he got jealous for that stupid coffee, because Donghae rather went for a cup of coffee after he woke up, not to him.
It’s ridiculous though, how he managed to get used to Donghae being addicted to coffee, and then he slowly loved it when after Donghae drank a cup of hot coffee and kissed him, it had a different warm to his lips and mouth, it made him addicted too. Not to the coffee but to Donghae’s kiss.
It maybe because Eunhyuk can’t have those kisses again, everyday he will drink coffee. It has been two years since coffee became his dailly routine. From the moment he starts his day until the time he has to close his eyes – as if he can – yes, Eunhyuk never had a night worth of sleep since 3 years ago.
May 15, New York
“You’re late!” Bryan stated the obvious, “again!” he added, then sighed, “if you don’t want this job anymore, then tell me!” he said again as he massaged his own nape.
Eunhyuk gasped when he heard that, “how?—sir?!” he was in a panic state. Bryan never said it to him eventhough he always late, just a small scolding and then he would let Eunhyuk work again immediately.
Bryan huffed, “I don’t know what got into you, and I thought I could accustomed to it, but then again you prove that I’m wrong, you never change!” he kept his voice still down, but Eunhyuk knew that bryan was dead serious with this. He had been working for him for almost 3 years now.
“Bryan, s-sir, give me a second chance, please!!” Eunhyuk pleaded, he really didn’t know what would he do if he lost his only job, his only source of life in this foreign country.
“I don’t know Hyuk! But I’ll think of it... after you change yourself!” Bryan smiled was short after giving Eunhyuk a side glance, “I’m sorry, Eunhyuk... but I don’t think I can accept you if you still like this, as much as I like it when you around and of course helped, I have to be consistent with my job and dicipline with my time if I want to be a profesional!”
Eunhyuk bowed his head down, this was his consequent, he knew it would happen sooner or later, but still he could never get out of his habit eventhough the consequent could risk his life. “I’m sorry, sir.” Eunhyuk bowed to his boss. He knew that sorry would get him nowhere, Bryan looked really firm with his decision and Eunhyuk knew he was the one who dissapointing him. Bryan took him when he had no one to run to, to continue his life, he even taught him to do something that would help him, and to know that he was dissapointed because of Eunhyuk’s stupid habit, he really ashamed of what he had done.
“You can comeback anytime, but make sure that you have really made up your mind, I know something is bothering you all this time.” Bryan explained, even after what Eunhyuk did to him, Bryan always understood his condition.
“Thank you, Bryan, for everything, if it wasn’t you then I don’t know how to continue my life. I’m sorry!” Eunhyuk was in the verge of tears now, but he held it in.
Bryan nodded at Eunhyuk, “it’s hard for me also, but I’ve been thinking over it, that what you need to continue with your life wasn’t a job, but something else.” He said sincerely.
Eunhyuk tried to disgest what Bryan had said and realization hit him. It’s happening again, wasn’t it? People always easily saw through him like an open book, was he too obvious with his feelings, could he just once keep his sentiment inside and covered it with a closed cage so no one couldn’t notice it.
“I know...” Eunhyuk managed to say, suddenly the desire to be alone again barged into his soul, to be away from people “...I think I’ll get going now, if you excuse me!” and he left, but before he could turned the doorknow, he heard Bryan spoke.
“Just don’t forget you can comeback some other time!”
Eunhyuk then left with burden on his two shoulder, he thought of where to go this time, of where he would hang his life now, he surely wouldn’t back to his parents again eventhough he was sure that his parents wouldn’t neglect him, but he had chosen to leave back then and promise to live alone without worrying them. He sighed loudly, luckily there was no one on the elevator that would take him to the ground floor, and slided down the wall. He couldn’t take this anymore, he needed to be alone, with no one else to interfere with his life, without knowing that everyone in this world knew what on his heart. He wished that he just drowned in the sea or swallowed by the ground right here right now. He didn’t want to be ‘seen’ anymore.
Eunhyuk was in the middle of thinking how to hide himself when the elevator door opened and someone walked in without Eunhyuk noticing it and kept sitting on the elevator floor. “Eunhyuk?” the girl’s voice suddenly filled the silent air of Eunhyuk. He looked up just to see Hyoyeon smiled widely at him, “what are you doing, sitting down inside the elevator? And don’t you have a photo session with Bryan today?”
Eunhyuk stood up and fixed his mailbag on his shoulder, “Hyo, that—I get fired, just now,” he said and then smiled a sad smile.
“What?!!!” Hyoyeon screamed, shocked all written on her face.
“Yeah, I always late and I think I deserve that. It’s just about time..” Eunhyuk sighed and then chuckled to himself of how ironic his life was.
Hyoyeon just kept silent, didn’t know what to say anymore, if Bryan had made a decision, he would make sure that he did that. The problem was, how could he fire Eunhyuk who’d been with him since he treaded on photography world. The biggest thing of it all, Hyoyeon would never meet Eunhyuk again since she didn’t know anything about him except what he did in the office.
“Oh.. we’re here!” Eunhyuk said as the elevator dinged at the ground floor, “I’ll get going then, thank you, Hyo!” he smiled at her still sad expression.
“Can I ride you home?” Hyoyeon suddenly ask.
Eunhyuk frowned, “don’t you have work today? Beside I think I won’t be home yet now.” He could see Hyoyeon’s pout slightly, but ignored it, “bye, Hyo!” he turned from her.
“Eunhyuk...”
Eunhyuk turned back again to face Hyoyeon, “can I... umm, can we... meet again?” Eunhyuk tilted his head in confusion, why his co-worker acted like this, he never saw Hyoyeon in a sad condition before, she always had a bright and warm smile for everyone. Was it because he meant a lot to her? He thought he wasn’t important for anyone. “I mean... I didn’t have your number and I... didn’t know your house too, so... I thought it would be hard to...” she trailed off and smiled awkwardly.
Eunhyuk silent for a moment, but said “right, sorry for that...” he come closer to Hyoyeon and took out his cellphone, gave her his number and his address. “that’s it, Hyo! Of course we’ll meet again, I have to go now!” and he left before Hyoyeon could speak again.
He wandered on New York’s street, with no particular destination. He planned to just being alone today in a place where many people wouldn’t come and stay there until night. So, maybe Kyuhyun’s shop’s rooftop would be a nice place at this moment, and also tell the couple that their friend now was jobless.
***
May 16, Seoul
“Yoona, where is my coffee?” Donghae asked as he stil fixed his tie on the kitchen door, looking at his wife’s frame from behind and then returned to fix the tie again.
Yoona turned to his husband and smiled her most beautiful smile, but it vanished again as he saw Donghae didn’t even looking at her and just busy with his red tie, “it’s on the dining table, Hae!”
He walked to the said table and drank his black and bitter coffee to keep him awake when suddenly Yoona grabbed his hand that had been holding his unfinished stupid tie and fix it for him, “you’ve been sleep late lately, don’t you?” she asked softly.
“Yeah, I was working.” Donghae simply answered. It was the truth but also not actually true. The truth was he wasn’t sleeping at all – at night – this past 3 days. He’s working, right, but work wouldn’t take much of his time. Something haunted him, made him couldn’t even close his eyes, because it would come when it was dark around him, eventhough it was light that come, it was still miserable.
“Don’t overwork yourself, it’s not healthy.” Yoona said as she rub her palm on Donghae’s chest.
Donghae finished his coffee quickly, because first it’s been 7.10 in the morning and second he wasn’t comfortable with Yoona’s hand on his body, “I have to go..” he said before kissing her forehead and leave, “bye.”
After Donghae settled himself on his car, he sighed and glanced over their house. He knew that Yoona knew what he felt, they’d been living together for almost 3 years now as a spouse and they’d revealed what on each other’s mind from the start, that they didn’t love each other. It had been fine for the first year, they could understand each other and tried to keep their own side from the other. But then the demand kept compulsing from here and there and although Donghae want to keep it like the way it used to be, Yoona couldn’t do that anymore. She tried to enter Donghae’s side until Donghae couldn’t help but let her be, for the sake of his and her family. It didn’t run smoothly, instead Donghae made more barrier on his side without even he realize it. The thing was he felt guilty toward her.
In the office, Donghae always been busy with his work for the company. He was the heir to this company so that’s why he’d been forced to listen to what the elder said with no objection. He had to take care of this company to continue what his father had built. At 12.30 pm, just as Donghae finished his lunch, the phone on his office rang and he press the button so his secretary could speak, “sir, there’s a Kim Kangin on the phone.” She said. Donghae’s eyes widened from what he heard, did he hear right? Is this that Kangin she’s talking about?
“Put him on the line!” he ordered.
“Donghae?” the Kangin spoke.
“Hyung?!! Is this really you?” Donghae asked with enthusiasm, he’d been waiting for this call for months.
“Ya!! Who else, idiot!!” another voice spoke, this was more gentle eventhough the tone was higher.
“Teuki-hyung!!” Donghae laughed as he heard the voice he’d been missing, “how are you? And when are you coming home? Since Kangin-hyung back from the army, you’ve been nowhere to find.”
Leeteuk chuckled hearing his little cousin whining, “we’re fine, Hae! We’re still in Hawaii now and tonight we’ll be off from here.”
“You’ll be home again, yay!!” Donghae cheered happily like a little kid, didn’t remember that he’s now a big man in suit and a director for one of the biggest company in Korea, sitting on a high comfortable seat inside a sky-high tower.
“No Hae, we’re not coming back home yet, there’s place we wanted to come to.” Leeteuk said and then silent for a moment, “Hae, we found him,” he added, and Donghae couldn’t breathe.
After a long minute Donghae kept silent, made his two hyungs worried to dead, Leeteuk called him, “Donghae are you still there?”
Donghae’s eyes that widened in shock just now closed tight and he sent a silent prayer to God for granted his wish, “wh-where is he?” Donghae managed to say.
“We’re not too sure of where the exact he is, but we know that he’s in New York now,” Leeteuk said, “Hae, we have an agreement, don’t we?” he added with a warning mixed with anxiousness in his tone.
Donghae kept silent again and lowered his head and inhaled deeply, restrained a threatening tears from his eyes, despite how painful his heart at the moment to hear that thing again, to fall down, “yeah, I know hyung.”
“Eventhough I know that it won’t change everything between you and him, but... you’re trying aren’t you?”
Donghae turned his chair in the direction of a big window behind him and gazed through it into the space outside, Seoul city in the afternoon, but his mind just focused to the horizon on far away, hoping that he could see what behind it. He knew for sure that if he could, he would find him there. However, it just proved him that he wasn’t trying, he tried but he just couldn’t anymore, he’d given up on trying to forget the man he loved most, “I tried, hyung,” Donghae answered honestly. Didn’t care if he broke the agreement, he never thought that it would ever be influential for him, “but I just... can’t anymore.”
Leeteuk sighed loudly, “as expected!” but then Donghae could feel the man on the other line smiling, “think I couldn’t do anything then, but just remember, don’t do stupid thing on everyone, didn’t want someone to get hurt!”
Donghae smiled a sorrowful smile, “I get it, hyung! Thank you for... everything,” Donghae said, holding back the tears. For he knew that even if he didn’t do anything stupid and everything went the way it was, someone would certain be hurt, and that was him, but it’s okay, it always be alright, as long as nobody’s hurt because of him.
After he hung up with Eeteuk-hyung, who happened to be his dearest oldest cousin, his only relative that supported him with everything he did because Eeteuk was the one who understand Donghae the most. Especially when Donghae’s parents forced him to marry, at that time it was the only time that Eeteuk held a brief for Donghae in front of his parents, saying that Donghae didnt need to marry anyone else but the person he loved, Donghae couldn’t get his work done. Knowing that his love still could be reach, he couldn’t help but think of how he would do to meet him. It would be hard, he knew, but sooner or later he would surely come for him.
They had been apart for more than 3 years. Hyukjae had told Donghae that he was going, but never told him where he would go. He always believed that Hyukjae went to only-God-knows-where to calm himself down and tried to accept what had become Donghae’s condition was back then. They never broke up, since Donghae told Hyukjae that they could still be together despite what his status was, they could still play hide and seek, but eventhough Hyukjae didn’t object to it, there was never an answer coming from him. So Hyukjae just went with promise to be back, but until now, there were even no calls to report how he’s doing and especially where was he.
“Promise me that you would never leave me!” Hyukjae demanded one night before Donghae had to tell him about his marriage. Donghae stunned, how could he asked that when Donghae would exactly betray it if he made the promise.
“Hyuk... I have something to tell you,”Donghae managed to say, his heart beating so fast with anxiety of what would Hyukjae react to the news, “I’m getting married,” he said finally.
Hyukjae just stared at Donghae with eyes widened and blinked faster then bursted out laughing, “that’s a lame joke, Hae!”
Donghae sighed and there was a well of tears in his eyes, “Hyuk, I’m serious.”
“No, you don’t!!” Hyukjae denied again, he, of course, would never believe in such statement, Donghae had made a promise to marry him someday, and that he only loved him, and he wanted to believe in it forever.
“I am, Hyuk! It’s my father... he forced me to get married for the sake of the company,” Donghae explained to his lover who kept shaking his head, eyes didn’t want to meet the other’s. Donghae cupped his face to make him looked into his own tearing eyes, “look Hyuk, I’ll said this and you better believed in me,” Eunhyuk now couldn’t stop the tears to fall from his eyes again, and after a nod, Donghae spoke again, “I’m getting married won’t effect to what we are, I love you and always love you and nothing in this world can change that.”
“No!! How can you say that it won’t change anything! It means that you’re not mine anymore! Donghae, you’re MINE!” Hyukjae cried harder, he was now clutching tightly at Donghae’s shirt and then hitting his chest quiet hard.
“I’m yours, Hyukjae, always yours, you hear me!” Donghae pulled him into an embrace to soothe him, but Hyukjae couldn’t staying still, he kept struggling on Donghae’s hold, so Donghae had to hold him tighter. When Hyukjae seemed calm enough, Donghae lift him bridal style to bring him to bed and Hyukjae instinctively circled his arms on Donghae’s neck until they reach their bedroom and both of them laying in each others arm for the rest of the night.
***
May 16, New York
“Yes, Min... I’ll get enough sleep [...] I’ll get home soon, I just come by a coffee shop [...] I promise to just drink one cup [...] okay, bye [...] I love you too!” Eunhyuk sighed after he hung up on Sungmin, the pink-haired boy sometimes could be strict and bother him too much. It made Eunhyuk wanted to be alone more, but he knew Sungmin did that because he care.
It was still 07.30 in the evening and the coffee shop was not full of people at this kind of hour. So after he ordered his coffee, Eunhyuk went to find a seat and surprise to see someone wave his hand towards him, he glanced over his shoulder in case the person calling someone else behind him, but there’s no one there. Eunhyuk waved back before walking to the man in the same spot where they meet for the first time.
“Hello! You’re here early...” Daniel said.
Eunhyuk smiled before taking a seat opposite the older man, “what? You always come here at this time?” he asked.
Daniel smiled back and Eunhyuk could see the resemblance of him on the smoky eyes man, “I’m off my work at six and often hang in here until the shop close if I have nowhere to go... what about you, I never see you in this kind of time?”
Being asked made Eunhyuk lowered his head but a sad smile formed in his lips nonetheless, “I’m fired, this morning to be exact...” he answered and Daniel’s face showed his sorry but Eunhyuk shook his head, “but I’m fine, really... I just feel a slight regret because this all is my fault.”
“Your fault?”
“Yeah, I late for work almost everyday, so it’s just about time, right?” Eunhyuk chuckled wholeheartedly. He slowly accepted to himself that he wasn’t perfect, never always be perfect for everything, but at least he must told himself that he was perfect for himself, better off alone.
“So, what will yo do after this?” Daniel asked again.
Eunhyuk shrugged his shoulder, “I don’t know, maybe lazying around until I got myself another job, I really don’t have anything to do if I don’t have any job.”
“...or maybe you could join me sometimes,” Daniel looked into Eunhyuk’s eyes with interest.
“What do you do, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked Daniel who still looking at him with hope.
“I have this community called Epik High, and we do rap and dance. Are you interested in thing like this?” Daniel explained and Eunhyuk’s eyes twinkling when he heard dance.
“Dance? I love dance!” Eunhyuk yelped with enthusiasm, it’s been a long time since he heard the word dance and dance itself, eventhough dance also the one who brought the bad memory but he couldn’t deny that he really missed to be able to dance again, “you also dance, Daniel?” Eunhyuk even asked Daniel with wider smile.
However, Daniel seemed so lost in his own world in looking to Eunhyuk’s face so Eunhyuk had to waved his hand in front of Daniel’s face, and that’s when Daniel woke up from his reverie, “oh, no... I don’t dance, I’m the one who rap,” Daniel answered, still couldn’t tear his gaze from Eunhyuk’s face, made the younger blushed.
“W-what are you staring at?” Eunhyuk managed to say, eventhough he didn’t know wether it’s true that Daniel stare at him or not. He would be very embarassed if Daniel sais he didn’t.
“You’re... you’re beautiful when you smile like this.”
Eunhyuk’s cheeks felt hot from the compliment, did he heard right that Daniel just said that he’s beautiful? He couldn’t help to bite his lips to prevent a silly smile to form on his lips. What was he thinking? He look like a shy teenage boy just now in front of an older man that he barely know for two days, but he couldn’t deny that Daniel’s word could ignite something in him.
“So...” Daniel said and Eunhyuk had the urge to look up just to see that Daniel STILL didn’t turn away from his face, “meet me at 2 pm, tomorrow?”
Eunhyuk didn’t know why it sounded like Daniel asked him to go on a date, but he shook that thought off, it was silly of him he knows, but he couldn’t help the thumping of his heart anymore. Just because of one word, what did Daniel could do? “okay,” was the simple answer Eunhyuk could give.
That night, they continued to talk until 9 pm about what life did Daniel living in and promised that tomorrow would be Eunhyuk’s turn to talk about his. Daniel was never had a permanent job, he always work for 3 months on part-time job and then search for another and his days always spent by writing for himself or Epik High, he said he also write story, hoping the manuscript could be published. Daniel also lived by himself on a ‘wrecked-apartment’ by himself and told Eunhyuk that he wouldn’t be able to walk inside the so-called-home.
Daniel sent him to his apartment, actually this is the first time a ‘friend’ knew where he lived. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to make friend with anyone or even hide himself from the civilization, but they never ask. Only Sungmin and Kyuhyun knew exactly what was inside.
Eunhyuk drank one cup of coffee again even if he had promised Sungmin to just drank one and it included one cup he bought at the coffee shop. Sungmin wouldn’t know the truth, but a side of him would feel guilty if he betrayed his bestfriend. However, tonight it was kind of enough, the urge to sleep slowly come to him and he didn’t deny it anymore. He was just thinking about how tomorrow would be with Daniel and his heart seemed cannot rest peacefuly. He’s missing his old life, when he could dance freely with his free heart, nothing could ever replace the bliss of dance for Lee Hyukjae, but since he’s Eunhyuk now, could he ever reach those blisses again? Since he became Eunhyuk, nothing could reach his heart anymore, until tonight. It felt weird to be able to feel that again.
Eunhyuk slept on his bed that night, still dreaming about him, dancing like there’s no tomorrow until he left dancing alone, but at least there’s no dried tears on Eunhyuk’s cheeks the next morning. Because his heart didn’t allow him to do that.
***
“Hyukjae… finish your coffee before it gets cold!”
“No… you finish it!”
“If you don’t want this, why make coffee in the first place?”
“I just want to try it, because you look like a really happy person when you drink it!”
“Am I??”
“Yes… and I’m jealous because of that! Silly, why can I be jealous to such a thing that doesn’t even taste good in my mouth.”
“Jealous? You’re jealous just because a cup of coffee? Hyukjae, you’re so cute… of course I’m like a happy person when I drink coffee because I drink it in front of you, I drink something I really like in front of the person I love… I’d never been happy in my life like this. By the way… it’s already past midnight, Happy Birthday My Love!!”
Third Cup:A Drawer of Memory
2010/12/26
[CF01] The Next Cup of Coffee
Title: The Next Cup Of Coffee
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,289
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
A/N This is my first songfic ever and because I really admire how Eunhyuk admires Tablo, I make a songfic from Epik High’s song ‘Coffee’. Hope the story suitable with the song.
First Cup : No Particular Destination
It’s already the fifth cup of coffee.
With no particular destination
I walk as if I’m in a hurry, endlessly.
I’ve already emptied out my wallet.
With no special wants,
Pretending to be all busy, endlessly.
May 11, New York
Eunhyuk walked in hurry on the sidewalk, blowing on a cup of hot espresso in his right hand and eyes scanning a paper he held on his left hand. This morning as usual he woke up late for work, so eventhough he has a coffee-brewer at his apartment, he always bought coffee at a café near his office. Usually the waitress had laid out the coffee before Eunhyuk comes – every Monday ‘til Friday at 8 in the morning – so he didn’t have to wait longer.
The paper he scan, contained some new clothes designs in the right side of it and the model on the left side, and his job was to choose which clothes that suitable for which model before the photo session started in… 15 minutes! He sped up his step on the sidewalk of busy streets in New York, bumping with people who also used this road to wherever their destinations are. As he neared his destination, the tenth story contemporary building, someone from inside the building come out running and collided with him lightly, but it was enough to make the coffee in his hand spills a little to the person’s blue sneakers.
Eunhyuk gasped as he cursed his clumsiness and then looked up to saw the running man. The man has messy hair and smoky eyes as he stared at Eunhyuk with frowned expression, “I’m sorry… I was in hurry and-”
“No… it was my fault…I was in hurry too!” the man said cutting off what Eunhyuk was about to tell, before continued running towards where Eunhyuk had come.
Eunhyuk eyed the person disappeared in the crowded street and suddenly his eyes couldn’t stop searching for the man. Before he realized it, people started bumping on him and he had to keep his balance and he realized that he was standing in front of the entrance of the building. Shaking off his thoughts, he looked at his wristwatch and jumped in shock as he realized that the photo session would started in less than 10 minutes. He rushed to the elevator that would lead him to the 9th floor. It took him 5 minutes to just arrive at his office. His co-worker greeted him.
“Morning, Eunhyuk-sshi… Bryan said he’ll wait for you on the roof so get ready!” Hyo, her name, was korean just like him. She was Bryan’s secretary and Bryan was his boss, the one that would take the photoshoot today.
“Okay! I’ll rush there then, thank you Hyo-shii!”
Before he was off to the roof, Hyo called him again, “be careful Hyukjae-sshi!”
Hearing that name from his co-worker lips, made Eunhyuk stopped in his track. The name was only a name his parents gave him but it could bring back a distance memory, the other didn’t know though. So it wasn’t their fault to say that. Eunhyuk just waved his hand to the back without turned his body and running to where the photoshoot taken place.
***
“You’re lucky the model has just arrived 5 minutes ago!” Bryan scolded as Eunhyuk sat in front of him to discuss about the photoshoot today.
Eunhyuk just smiled apologetically, knowing that his boss wouldn’t scold him for a long time. They had known each other for 2 years now and Eunhyuk was the first assistant he had. Bryan was a new photographer in New York but in one year he had been one of the most famous and success photographer there, so he needed an assistant to arrange his schedule and stuff. Eventhough Eunhyuk didn’t get a proper education in fashion world, but his sense of fashion was quite high since he was in high school. He didn’t get this job from only his sense though, because Bryan had sent his trusty person to teach Eunhyuk these and those things on the first months of his training to make Eunhyuk be able to do his work properly. At first it made Eunhyuk wondering what made Bryan gave the job to him. Maybe for Bryan it just the same like giving job to other people but for Eunhyuk that was a gift.
The 22 years old Eunhyuk, left his own country to get a ‘life’ in New York. At first, he told his parents that he would get a job in New York as a dancer like he used to do in high school but because of his education in accountancy, maybe he could just work for some office jobs or stuff and if he didn’t get a job soon, his parents, as a good mom and dad they were, wouldn’t neglect their precious son in a foreign country alone and would send him to college again until he got himself a job. Apparently, when someone offered him this job – which never once crossed in his mind – he took it because there’s nothing much he could do in a foreign country without a job. For despite what had become his reason to be here in the first place, he had to continue his edging life.
Eunhyuk sighed if the memory of his past came to him even just for a second because it was tiring as it was always hurting him in every possible way – as if a memory could hurt people, huh – and it had ruined his life once before he could get up and move on, but still it wouldn’t leave him alone. He’s 25 now and those memories of his childish day still lingered on his soul.
***
May 11, Seoul
The moon was high. It was shining, reflecting what the sun gave it every single day without hesitate. He leaned on the rails of his balcony outside his bedroom, the fake-shining moon reflected in his brown eyes. Eventhough his eyes were focused on the moon but his mind kept wandering to where the sun would be right now. How could it gave the moon light but it could never be seen at night. The sun must be somewhere else, since it wouldn’t dare to go anywhere or the night should die.
“You must be somewhere… where the sun shine on you.” He murmured. It had become a habit of him every night since 3 years ago, just to convince himself from believing that it didn’t go, it could never and would never go.
Because even if he was alone in the night, he knew that the sun, his sun, would always give him the light he needed. Eventhough the sun itself didn’t know about it.
“Hae… your coffee..” someone called form inside the bedroom. A gentle, sweet voice suddenly filled his mind with another thought beside ‘the sun’, reminding him that he didn’t really alone in this life, but his heart still, no one could accompany it beside ‘his sun’.
***
May 11, New York
Eunhyuk occupied himself with work everyday in the noon, avoided to be alone. He stood in the crowd every now and then, it was pretty easy to do that actually because his job required him to be around people all the time, to arrange people. At lunch break, he always be the one to ask people to go with him, together would be fun, he said.
“Wanna go lunch with me..?” he asked Hyo who was still busy with whatever she did on her PC.
Hyoyeon turned her head as soon as she heard her name being called by that familiar voice she known for 2 years already, “of course… you asked the other?” she smiled after answering Eunhyuk’s offer.
Eunhyuk shook his head, “no… they have appointment already. So, let’s get going!” he said and led the way to the elevator with Hyoyeon and a big grin on her face.
The girl couldn’t stop her smile all the way to the café Eunhyuk had mentioned. This was the first time they go for lunch together, eventhough Eunhyuk always asked her to go, the other employee always come with them. Hyoyeon had never been happier in her life like this day; had lunch together with her crush for 2 years. Yes, Hyoyeon had been falling for Eunhyuk since the man came to the company for the first time. She liked Eunhyuk’s figure the longer she knows him. But unfortunately, she didn’t know the real Eunhyuk, what he did outside his job, his habit, or his lover maybe. She only knew Eunhyuk from the outside of him.
“Eunhyuk-sshi, you often come here?” Hyoyeon asked as they sat inside a pasta shop not far from their building.
“Yeah, at night, because today is just us two so maybe we can just go find a rather small place, not huge like when we come with the other.” Eunhyuk answered. The place was indeed small with just a few seats scattered around, one seat for 2 people, but it was very comfy. They sat at one corner near the window so they could watch people wandering around on the street, as one of the waiter come.
“Can I take your order?” he asked in Korean, it made Hyoyeon turned her head in a flash towards the guy. The guy wasn’t wearing any of waiter’s uniform, instead he wear a jeans and an indigo blazer outside a plain white T’s.
“Why do you come by yourself, Kyu?” Eunhyuk asked, amused by this guy.
“This is the first time you come with a girl, I won’t let it pass, hyung!” the Kyu guy countered.
Eunhyuk was still laughing by this man’s behavior before introduced him, “Hyo, this is Kyuhyun, he’s the owner of this restaurant. This is Hyoyeon, she’s my co-worker.”
Kyuhyun and Hyoyeon smiled to each other as they were shaking hands, “nice to meet you, Hyoyeon-sshi!”
“Nice to meet you too, also since you’re Korean, I guess it’s very great!” she smiled brightly.
“That’s good! So, Hyoyeon-sshi, you’re working with Eunhyuk-hyung right now?” Kyuhyun asked as he settled himself on the chair he just took from the table beside theirs.
“Yes, we are working for 2 years already… he didn’t tell you?” Hyoyeon was slightly dissapointed with what Kyuhyun said. Because there was nothing special between them, an opposite from what she thought.
“I’ve told you, didn’t I?” Eunhyuk intejected, “I told you Bryan also has a secretary and she’s that person.”
“But you didn’t mention her name.” Kyuhyun stated.
Eunhyuk just laughed, it was handsome, Hyoyeon thought. She never saw Eunhyuk this happy with something all the time she knew him.
“Okay… Kyu, I came here not for talking with you, we’re hungry and we want some of your delicious cooking.” Eunhyuk finally ordered.
Kyuhyun also laughed before standing from his seat, “I’ll get it… and I’ll make sure to bring you two our special recipe.”
“Where’s Ming, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked just before Kyuhyun turned to leave.
“Oh… I’ll call Minnie for you too, okay…” and he left to the kitchen.
“Minnie?” Hyoyeon suddenly asked.
“Oh, that’s Kyuhyun’s lover, actually I know Kyuhyun from-”
“Hyukkie…!!”
Someone from the kitchen barged out and screamed for Eunhyuk’s name. Hyoyeon turned to the source of that voice and saw a man with jacket in the same color of Kyuhyun’s blazer. She eyed the man’s cute face and widened her eyes when she looked at his hair, it was pink. Eunhyuk stood up as soon as this man jogged to him and they hugged each other. They seemed really close, because the pink-man even checked Eunhyuk’s face and body with his hand.
“You okay? I told you this eyebag won’t vanish if you keep staying up all night, you should get a proper sleep, understand!” he scolded and Eunhyuk faked a pout.
“Hyung, you told me that 2 days ago!”
“It’s not enough! I think I should tell you this everyday!”
They kept arguing on each other for a minute or so and Hyoyeon could just smile, satisfied to know something about her crush eventhough just a little.
“Okay, okay, hyung…” Eunhyuk sighed, “by the way, I didn’t come alone, this is Hyoyeon, my co-worker.”
“Oh, hi Hyoyeon-sshi! Nice to meet you! I’m Sungmin!” he smiled widely and warmly to Hyoyeon and extended his hand.
She accepted that warm hand and smiled back, “nice to meet you too!”
The rest of the lunch, they spent together with Sungmin as company. Hyoyeon didn’t mind, eventhough her ‘date’ was aborted but she could never be this happy in life, to know more about Eunhyuk was also her dream. Sungmin and Eunhyuk had known each other from high school, so they told Hyoyeon about Eunhyuk’s life in Korea and after he moved to New York. But there was a strange feeling Hyoyeon felt about it, it felt like something just skipped to be told.
***
May 11, Seoul
The embrace never stood for any longer, but at least tonight it could last until past midnight. He would release her before he got disgusted with himself. The woman that lay beside him wouldn’t notice though, seemed like she always in a deep slumber every night, when he got up from bed and headed for the kitchen to make him a cup of coffee, to keep him awake because he didn’t feel like sleep was the best solution for his wandering mind. For everytime he fell asleep, he didn’t want to wake up again. It was wrong because he shouldn’t. Eventhough it was a blissful dream, he afraid that he wouldn’t get to come back to his real live.
A real live…
Had a lot of money, beautiful wife, close to his parents and families was what they called his real live. But love wasn’t. It’s only in his dream. People didn’t live their dream. But their love wasn’t only in their dream, was it? They could joint the reality and love all at once, and it was what he could call a real live. But why couldn’t he?
***
May 11, New York
It was 10 in the night already but Eunhyuk still wandering around in the street near his apartment. After he finished his job at 8, he went first to supermarket and bought some ingredients and because he just came to Sungmin’s shop this afternoon, he just took a walk to his apartment and didn’t use any public transportation. He came in the front of the coffee shop not far from his apartment, the one that he always came to every morning to have his late coffee.
When Eunhyuk entered the coffee shop, there’re many customers come as always in this kind of time until midnight. He didn’t see an empty seat anywhere but there’s someone who occupied a table for 4 people beside the window alone, maybe he could take a seat there, the person seemed not too occupied with work or anything and he just wanted to enjoy his coffee in silent also. So after Eunhyuk ordered his Americano, he walked slowly to the seat and tried to greet that person who was wearing a black jacket at that time.
“Excuse me… I wonder if this seat is taken? There’s no empty seat left and if you don’t mind, can I sit here just for a while?” Eunhyuk asked to that person with jetblack hair.
The man looked up from his coffee and Eunhyuk now could see that he’s wearing a thick-rimmed glasses, “oh, it’s okay… please.” He smiled and motioned for Eunhyuk to have his seat.
“Thank you.” He said with a big smile.
“Did we meet before?” the man suddenly asked when Eunhyuk just had his first sip.
“Eh? Did we?” he asked in confusion. Did he ever meet this guy? He tried to recollect his mind and so did the guy. They stared at each other’s face and instead of remembering where they had met, they felt like there was something similar in them. Was it the clothing because they wore black that day? Or maybe something on their faces? Yes, there was a little similarity on them, Eunhyuk thought.
“Oh, right!” the man suddenly yelled, “you spilled coffee on my shoes this morning, remember?”
Ah, the smokey-eyes guy, Eunhyuk thought. He’s different from this morning with glasses and almost tidy hair. “aah, right! Sorry for it!” he smiled his gummy smile and the man return it.
“I’m Daniel, by the way!” he extended his hand and Eunhyuk shook it.
“Hyuk- Eunhyuk..”
“You’re Korean, right?” Daniel asked the question that seemed there from the very first time.
Eunhyuk smiled knowingly before answering, “yes, and I can ask for the same to you too, am I right?”
“Pretty much! How long have you been in New York?” Daniel asked again as he sipped his espresso.
“Just about two years... I bet you’ve lived here longer.” Eunhyuk asked in return.
“Believe it or not, Korea is just the place where I born in and the rest 29 years I spent here.” Daniel stated.
Eunhyuk gasped, he didn’t expect this guy in front of him was older than him, “you don’t look older than me.” He form a frown.
“Oh, really?? How old are you?”
“I’m 25 this year!” and they laughed.
This was the first time after a long time Eunhyuk could laugh like this. He even didn’t feel weird again to laugh in front of other. Meeting someone new was what he needed most and he got the chance. Maybe this was also the chance for him to move on.
***
After exchanged phone number, Eunhyuk and Daniel separated ways and then promised to call each other or maybe meet again someday. He didn’t know how Daniel feel, but he felt like they really would meet again at a different time or so Eunhyuk like to think. Compulsion of mind or whatever they wanted to say, but he really want to move on, it was hard so he didn’t even close to that final. Forget.
It always come at night, that’s cause him to drink coffee everynight before going to sleep. He actually didn’t want to sleep because sleeping would bring him to his life and the result was forget that you want to forget, because you never could. Eunhyuk knew that trying to forget about him was just as useless as trying to walk upon the water, but at least he tried. Busied himself in the noon, avoiding to be in daydream and talk as much as he could, since he’s not a very talkative person. After that, home was always be the most scary place ever since he would be alone, so Eunhyuk also avoiding to be not at home as long as possible, but since he wasn’t ever befriended with dark, he always be home at least before 12 o’clock. Then after cleaned himself, he tried not to sleep early and drink coffee until sleep slowly taking him by itself.
Like this night, he was in front of the TV watching a lame midnight program and drinking a cup of coffee, trying to be absorbed in the program. Trying to wander his mind into something else, but he couldn’t. In the end he sat on his window frame and stared at New York’s midnight life, how bright this city opposite from what he felt right now. Always feeling alone eventhough his friends always there whenever needed. But he wasn’t here thus he never felt like been filled. He was there, living his bright, beautiful and happy life and has company, Eunhyuk’s sure he would never be alone and sad again like what he used to say. Eunhyuk wasn’t happy with that but at least he could feel relieved because the one he love would never be unhappy again. He got what he wanted, a family like what he always said in the past.
His phone rang. At first he wanted to ignore it again like every other night. It maybe Sungmin again, checking whether he’s sleeping or not and then would scold him like a mother to her child about health and you need to work, but the ring never stopped so he come to check it.
“Hello?!” he asked the other line with slight annoying tone.
“Yoboseyo?” a man, on the other line, greeted. Eunhyuk frowned, there’s a familiarity to that voice, but he couldn’t remember whose is it. It was from someone in Korea, he’s sure of it. It wasn’t his father’s or his.
“Nuguseyo?”
“Is this really Hyukjae’s number?” the man continued talking in Korean.
“Yes, it is. I’m sorry, but who is this?” he asked once again.
But the man didn’t answer that instant, instead he sounded like calling another people, “babe, this is really Hyukjae!” and the next thing Eunhyuk knew was that his ear felt like it’s been torn apart because of another voice from Korea. “HYUKJAE!!!!!!”
He’s got annoyed by that voice at first but after he realized whose voice is that, he widened his eyes and gasped, “hyung?!”
“Yah! I don’t want to be your hyung anymore, how come you didn’t even once call me in almost 2 years??!! Aish! I could never be this angry in all my life but you’ve got me going crazy, Hyuk!” the man stopped to take a breathe.
Eunhyuk lowered his head before saying, “I’m sorry, Jungsoo-hyung.”
The man named Jungsoo sighed but then chuckled, “finally I found you, Hyuk! I thought I would never hear your voice again. How are you there?” he asked with different tone, softer and mother-like this time, just like the old time.
“I’m fine, really!I’m happy to hear your voice, actually, and how are you doing?”
“You know where I am? I’m in Hawaii, Hyuk, Hawaii!!” Jungsoo yelled like crazy and Eunhyuk couldn’t help but laugh at his sunbae at school back then’s behavior, “you remember my lover, Kangin?”
“Oh? The one that went to army?”
“Yeah, he just comeback 2 months ago and now we’re doing holiday to every place!”
“That’s good, hyung!” and then silent from the other line, Eunhyuk also didn’t like this, Jungsoo-hyung must be expecting some more expressions from him, but he just couldn’t, not when Jungsoo-hyung also the part of what he wanted to forget.
“Hyuk... how many years again do you want to spend your live there?” Jungsoo suddenly asked with a careful voice.
Eunhyuk took a deep breathe before continuing, “you know the purpose to why I came here, hyung, and I won’t go anywhere before I reach my destination.”
“I don’t want to make you offended, but I don’t think you can, and I know you also know that!” Jungsoo stated firmly.
“I ‘m trying, hyung.”
“And you know that he always loves you.”
Eunhyuk’s breathe caught in his throat of hearing that, “I don’t know, hyung, I absolutely don’t know!” he managed to say without even a single air on his lungs.
Jungsoo could only sigh again, “I know. By the way, I think our next stop will be in US, you have to be ready to welcome us, okay!”
“Really!! I’ll wait for you then, hyung!” he smiled and make sure that the person on the other line could feel it too.
“Great! Bye Hyuk, sleep tight!”
“Thank’s hyung!” and he hung up on his hyung.
He sighed before flopping down on the couch. He hated it when someone was right about him, his life, and the result to that was the more he wanted to be alone forever, when there were no people to confront anything about his life, but with the knowledge of the people around him always wanted to be around because they love him, he just couldn’t escape again. Sometimes he just wanted to be far away from everyone if maybe that was the only solution for him to be able to forget about his past, but it far from reality.
Eunhyuk wasn’t a person who talk alot but also not a person that didn’t open. In fact, even if he didn’t realize it himself, people would easily know him like an open book. He never be able to hide something especially from someone who knew him for a long time. Hyukjae, to his friend was a person that never had secret. It was good though, for Lee Hyukjae, to know that people knew what was inside his heart, but not this time. This time he just wanted to be alone, without people around him that could immediately told him that something was wrong, it would just bring forth more pain.
This was his 3rd cup of coffee, with a lot of thought he tried to be awake just a for a couple of minute, but the heaviness of his eyes and the sweet lullaby from his mother that always echoed in his mind, told him that he hust be sleeping right now, he needed it, and without him realize it, he’s already on top of his bed. The it come. The time where they still wear uniform, one boy was wearing it on rules but the other didn’t. With messy shoulder length hair and a black tie tied unneatly on an unbuttoned white shirt, the slightly delinquent boy held the boy with glasses’ hand tight, walking together from school to home and stealing kisses on the way. He also saw them on the bus, lening on his shoulder as he gazed at the scenery of sea outside the window. All Eunhyuk could see on his dream was their beautiful memory, but how come he always saw himself crying on it? He cried when they held hand, he cried when they kissed, he cried when they sleep together in each others arms, his heart ached, he thought he could never feel happiness anymore.
“Hyukjae...” he heard him whispered his name softly and he felt his heart became numb. He cried again on his sleep.
***
Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,289
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
A/N This is my first songfic ever and because I really admire how Eunhyuk admires Tablo, I make a songfic from Epik High’s song ‘Coffee’. Hope the story suitable with the song.
First Cup : No Particular Destination
It’s already the fifth cup of coffee.
With no particular destination
I walk as if I’m in a hurry, endlessly.
I’ve already emptied out my wallet.
With no special wants,
Pretending to be all busy, endlessly.
May 11, New York
Eunhyuk walked in hurry on the sidewalk, blowing on a cup of hot espresso in his right hand and eyes scanning a paper he held on his left hand. This morning as usual he woke up late for work, so eventhough he has a coffee-brewer at his apartment, he always bought coffee at a café near his office. Usually the waitress had laid out the coffee before Eunhyuk comes – every Monday ‘til Friday at 8 in the morning – so he didn’t have to wait longer.
The paper he scan, contained some new clothes designs in the right side of it and the model on the left side, and his job was to choose which clothes that suitable for which model before the photo session started in… 15 minutes! He sped up his step on the sidewalk of busy streets in New York, bumping with people who also used this road to wherever their destinations are. As he neared his destination, the tenth story contemporary building, someone from inside the building come out running and collided with him lightly, but it was enough to make the coffee in his hand spills a little to the person’s blue sneakers.
Eunhyuk gasped as he cursed his clumsiness and then looked up to saw the running man. The man has messy hair and smoky eyes as he stared at Eunhyuk with frowned expression, “I’m sorry… I was in hurry and-”
“No… it was my fault…I was in hurry too!” the man said cutting off what Eunhyuk was about to tell, before continued running towards where Eunhyuk had come.
Eunhyuk eyed the person disappeared in the crowded street and suddenly his eyes couldn’t stop searching for the man. Before he realized it, people started bumping on him and he had to keep his balance and he realized that he was standing in front of the entrance of the building. Shaking off his thoughts, he looked at his wristwatch and jumped in shock as he realized that the photo session would started in less than 10 minutes. He rushed to the elevator that would lead him to the 9th floor. It took him 5 minutes to just arrive at his office. His co-worker greeted him.
“Morning, Eunhyuk-sshi… Bryan said he’ll wait for you on the roof so get ready!” Hyo, her name, was korean just like him. She was Bryan’s secretary and Bryan was his boss, the one that would take the photoshoot today.
“Okay! I’ll rush there then, thank you Hyo-shii!”
Before he was off to the roof, Hyo called him again, “be careful Hyukjae-sshi!”
Hearing that name from his co-worker lips, made Eunhyuk stopped in his track. The name was only a name his parents gave him but it could bring back a distance memory, the other didn’t know though. So it wasn’t their fault to say that. Eunhyuk just waved his hand to the back without turned his body and running to where the photoshoot taken place.
***
“You’re lucky the model has just arrived 5 minutes ago!” Bryan scolded as Eunhyuk sat in front of him to discuss about the photoshoot today.
Eunhyuk just smiled apologetically, knowing that his boss wouldn’t scold him for a long time. They had known each other for 2 years now and Eunhyuk was the first assistant he had. Bryan was a new photographer in New York but in one year he had been one of the most famous and success photographer there, so he needed an assistant to arrange his schedule and stuff. Eventhough Eunhyuk didn’t get a proper education in fashion world, but his sense of fashion was quite high since he was in high school. He didn’t get this job from only his sense though, because Bryan had sent his trusty person to teach Eunhyuk these and those things on the first months of his training to make Eunhyuk be able to do his work properly. At first it made Eunhyuk wondering what made Bryan gave the job to him. Maybe for Bryan it just the same like giving job to other people but for Eunhyuk that was a gift.
The 22 years old Eunhyuk, left his own country to get a ‘life’ in New York. At first, he told his parents that he would get a job in New York as a dancer like he used to do in high school but because of his education in accountancy, maybe he could just work for some office jobs or stuff and if he didn’t get a job soon, his parents, as a good mom and dad they were, wouldn’t neglect their precious son in a foreign country alone and would send him to college again until he got himself a job. Apparently, when someone offered him this job – which never once crossed in his mind – he took it because there’s nothing much he could do in a foreign country without a job. For despite what had become his reason to be here in the first place, he had to continue his edging life.
Eunhyuk sighed if the memory of his past came to him even just for a second because it was tiring as it was always hurting him in every possible way – as if a memory could hurt people, huh – and it had ruined his life once before he could get up and move on, but still it wouldn’t leave him alone. He’s 25 now and those memories of his childish day still lingered on his soul.
***
May 11, Seoul
The moon was high. It was shining, reflecting what the sun gave it every single day without hesitate. He leaned on the rails of his balcony outside his bedroom, the fake-shining moon reflected in his brown eyes. Eventhough his eyes were focused on the moon but his mind kept wandering to where the sun would be right now. How could it gave the moon light but it could never be seen at night. The sun must be somewhere else, since it wouldn’t dare to go anywhere or the night should die.
“You must be somewhere… where the sun shine on you.” He murmured. It had become a habit of him every night since 3 years ago, just to convince himself from believing that it didn’t go, it could never and would never go.
Because even if he was alone in the night, he knew that the sun, his sun, would always give him the light he needed. Eventhough the sun itself didn’t know about it.
“Hae… your coffee..” someone called form inside the bedroom. A gentle, sweet voice suddenly filled his mind with another thought beside ‘the sun’, reminding him that he didn’t really alone in this life, but his heart still, no one could accompany it beside ‘his sun’.
***
May 11, New York
Eunhyuk occupied himself with work everyday in the noon, avoided to be alone. He stood in the crowd every now and then, it was pretty easy to do that actually because his job required him to be around people all the time, to arrange people. At lunch break, he always be the one to ask people to go with him, together would be fun, he said.
“Wanna go lunch with me..?” he asked Hyo who was still busy with whatever she did on her PC.
Hyoyeon turned her head as soon as she heard her name being called by that familiar voice she known for 2 years already, “of course… you asked the other?” she smiled after answering Eunhyuk’s offer.
Eunhyuk shook his head, “no… they have appointment already. So, let’s get going!” he said and led the way to the elevator with Hyoyeon and a big grin on her face.
The girl couldn’t stop her smile all the way to the café Eunhyuk had mentioned. This was the first time they go for lunch together, eventhough Eunhyuk always asked her to go, the other employee always come with them. Hyoyeon had never been happier in her life like this day; had lunch together with her crush for 2 years. Yes, Hyoyeon had been falling for Eunhyuk since the man came to the company for the first time. She liked Eunhyuk’s figure the longer she knows him. But unfortunately, she didn’t know the real Eunhyuk, what he did outside his job, his habit, or his lover maybe. She only knew Eunhyuk from the outside of him.
“Eunhyuk-sshi, you often come here?” Hyoyeon asked as they sat inside a pasta shop not far from their building.
“Yeah, at night, because today is just us two so maybe we can just go find a rather small place, not huge like when we come with the other.” Eunhyuk answered. The place was indeed small with just a few seats scattered around, one seat for 2 people, but it was very comfy. They sat at one corner near the window so they could watch people wandering around on the street, as one of the waiter come.
“Can I take your order?” he asked in Korean, it made Hyoyeon turned her head in a flash towards the guy. The guy wasn’t wearing any of waiter’s uniform, instead he wear a jeans and an indigo blazer outside a plain white T’s.
“Why do you come by yourself, Kyu?” Eunhyuk asked, amused by this guy.
“This is the first time you come with a girl, I won’t let it pass, hyung!” the Kyu guy countered.
Eunhyuk was still laughing by this man’s behavior before introduced him, “Hyo, this is Kyuhyun, he’s the owner of this restaurant. This is Hyoyeon, she’s my co-worker.”
Kyuhyun and Hyoyeon smiled to each other as they were shaking hands, “nice to meet you, Hyoyeon-sshi!”
“Nice to meet you too, also since you’re Korean, I guess it’s very great!” she smiled brightly.
“That’s good! So, Hyoyeon-sshi, you’re working with Eunhyuk-hyung right now?” Kyuhyun asked as he settled himself on the chair he just took from the table beside theirs.
“Yes, we are working for 2 years already… he didn’t tell you?” Hyoyeon was slightly dissapointed with what Kyuhyun said. Because there was nothing special between them, an opposite from what she thought.
“I’ve told you, didn’t I?” Eunhyuk intejected, “I told you Bryan also has a secretary and she’s that person.”
“But you didn’t mention her name.” Kyuhyun stated.
Eunhyuk just laughed, it was handsome, Hyoyeon thought. She never saw Eunhyuk this happy with something all the time she knew him.
“Okay… Kyu, I came here not for talking with you, we’re hungry and we want some of your delicious cooking.” Eunhyuk finally ordered.
Kyuhyun also laughed before standing from his seat, “I’ll get it… and I’ll make sure to bring you two our special recipe.”
“Where’s Ming, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked just before Kyuhyun turned to leave.
“Oh… I’ll call Minnie for you too, okay…” and he left to the kitchen.
“Minnie?” Hyoyeon suddenly asked.
“Oh, that’s Kyuhyun’s lover, actually I know Kyuhyun from-”
“Hyukkie…!!”
Someone from the kitchen barged out and screamed for Eunhyuk’s name. Hyoyeon turned to the source of that voice and saw a man with jacket in the same color of Kyuhyun’s blazer. She eyed the man’s cute face and widened her eyes when she looked at his hair, it was pink. Eunhyuk stood up as soon as this man jogged to him and they hugged each other. They seemed really close, because the pink-man even checked Eunhyuk’s face and body with his hand.
“You okay? I told you this eyebag won’t vanish if you keep staying up all night, you should get a proper sleep, understand!” he scolded and Eunhyuk faked a pout.
“Hyung, you told me that 2 days ago!”
“It’s not enough! I think I should tell you this everyday!”
They kept arguing on each other for a minute or so and Hyoyeon could just smile, satisfied to know something about her crush eventhough just a little.
“Okay, okay, hyung…” Eunhyuk sighed, “by the way, I didn’t come alone, this is Hyoyeon, my co-worker.”
“Oh, hi Hyoyeon-sshi! Nice to meet you! I’m Sungmin!” he smiled widely and warmly to Hyoyeon and extended his hand.
She accepted that warm hand and smiled back, “nice to meet you too!”
The rest of the lunch, they spent together with Sungmin as company. Hyoyeon didn’t mind, eventhough her ‘date’ was aborted but she could never be this happy in life, to know more about Eunhyuk was also her dream. Sungmin and Eunhyuk had known each other from high school, so they told Hyoyeon about Eunhyuk’s life in Korea and after he moved to New York. But there was a strange feeling Hyoyeon felt about it, it felt like something just skipped to be told.
***
May 11, Seoul
The embrace never stood for any longer, but at least tonight it could last until past midnight. He would release her before he got disgusted with himself. The woman that lay beside him wouldn’t notice though, seemed like she always in a deep slumber every night, when he got up from bed and headed for the kitchen to make him a cup of coffee, to keep him awake because he didn’t feel like sleep was the best solution for his wandering mind. For everytime he fell asleep, he didn’t want to wake up again. It was wrong because he shouldn’t. Eventhough it was a blissful dream, he afraid that he wouldn’t get to come back to his real live.
A real live…
Had a lot of money, beautiful wife, close to his parents and families was what they called his real live. But love wasn’t. It’s only in his dream. People didn’t live their dream. But their love wasn’t only in their dream, was it? They could joint the reality and love all at once, and it was what he could call a real live. But why couldn’t he?
***
May 11, New York
It was 10 in the night already but Eunhyuk still wandering around in the street near his apartment. After he finished his job at 8, he went first to supermarket and bought some ingredients and because he just came to Sungmin’s shop this afternoon, he just took a walk to his apartment and didn’t use any public transportation. He came in the front of the coffee shop not far from his apartment, the one that he always came to every morning to have his late coffee.
When Eunhyuk entered the coffee shop, there’re many customers come as always in this kind of time until midnight. He didn’t see an empty seat anywhere but there’s someone who occupied a table for 4 people beside the window alone, maybe he could take a seat there, the person seemed not too occupied with work or anything and he just wanted to enjoy his coffee in silent also. So after Eunhyuk ordered his Americano, he walked slowly to the seat and tried to greet that person who was wearing a black jacket at that time.
“Excuse me… I wonder if this seat is taken? There’s no empty seat left and if you don’t mind, can I sit here just for a while?” Eunhyuk asked to that person with jetblack hair.
The man looked up from his coffee and Eunhyuk now could see that he’s wearing a thick-rimmed glasses, “oh, it’s okay… please.” He smiled and motioned for Eunhyuk to have his seat.
“Thank you.” He said with a big smile.
“Did we meet before?” the man suddenly asked when Eunhyuk just had his first sip.
“Eh? Did we?” he asked in confusion. Did he ever meet this guy? He tried to recollect his mind and so did the guy. They stared at each other’s face and instead of remembering where they had met, they felt like there was something similar in them. Was it the clothing because they wore black that day? Or maybe something on their faces? Yes, there was a little similarity on them, Eunhyuk thought.
“Oh, right!” the man suddenly yelled, “you spilled coffee on my shoes this morning, remember?”
Ah, the smokey-eyes guy, Eunhyuk thought. He’s different from this morning with glasses and almost tidy hair. “aah, right! Sorry for it!” he smiled his gummy smile and the man return it.
“I’m Daniel, by the way!” he extended his hand and Eunhyuk shook it.
“Hyuk- Eunhyuk..”
“You’re Korean, right?” Daniel asked the question that seemed there from the very first time.
Eunhyuk smiled knowingly before answering, “yes, and I can ask for the same to you too, am I right?”
“Pretty much! How long have you been in New York?” Daniel asked again as he sipped his espresso.
“Just about two years... I bet you’ve lived here longer.” Eunhyuk asked in return.
“Believe it or not, Korea is just the place where I born in and the rest 29 years I spent here.” Daniel stated.
Eunhyuk gasped, he didn’t expect this guy in front of him was older than him, “you don’t look older than me.” He form a frown.
“Oh, really?? How old are you?”
“I’m 25 this year!” and they laughed.
This was the first time after a long time Eunhyuk could laugh like this. He even didn’t feel weird again to laugh in front of other. Meeting someone new was what he needed most and he got the chance. Maybe this was also the chance for him to move on.
***
After exchanged phone number, Eunhyuk and Daniel separated ways and then promised to call each other or maybe meet again someday. He didn’t know how Daniel feel, but he felt like they really would meet again at a different time or so Eunhyuk like to think. Compulsion of mind or whatever they wanted to say, but he really want to move on, it was hard so he didn’t even close to that final. Forget.
It always come at night, that’s cause him to drink coffee everynight before going to sleep. He actually didn’t want to sleep because sleeping would bring him to his life and the result was forget that you want to forget, because you never could. Eunhyuk knew that trying to forget about him was just as useless as trying to walk upon the water, but at least he tried. Busied himself in the noon, avoiding to be in daydream and talk as much as he could, since he’s not a very talkative person. After that, home was always be the most scary place ever since he would be alone, so Eunhyuk also avoiding to be not at home as long as possible, but since he wasn’t ever befriended with dark, he always be home at least before 12 o’clock. Then after cleaned himself, he tried not to sleep early and drink coffee until sleep slowly taking him by itself.
Like this night, he was in front of the TV watching a lame midnight program and drinking a cup of coffee, trying to be absorbed in the program. Trying to wander his mind into something else, but he couldn’t. In the end he sat on his window frame and stared at New York’s midnight life, how bright this city opposite from what he felt right now. Always feeling alone eventhough his friends always there whenever needed. But he wasn’t here thus he never felt like been filled. He was there, living his bright, beautiful and happy life and has company, Eunhyuk’s sure he would never be alone and sad again like what he used to say. Eunhyuk wasn’t happy with that but at least he could feel relieved because the one he love would never be unhappy again. He got what he wanted, a family like what he always said in the past.
His phone rang. At first he wanted to ignore it again like every other night. It maybe Sungmin again, checking whether he’s sleeping or not and then would scold him like a mother to her child about health and you need to work, but the ring never stopped so he come to check it.
“Hello?!” he asked the other line with slight annoying tone.
“Yoboseyo?” a man, on the other line, greeted. Eunhyuk frowned, there’s a familiarity to that voice, but he couldn’t remember whose is it. It was from someone in Korea, he’s sure of it. It wasn’t his father’s or his.
“Nuguseyo?”
“Is this really Hyukjae’s number?” the man continued talking in Korean.
“Yes, it is. I’m sorry, but who is this?” he asked once again.
But the man didn’t answer that instant, instead he sounded like calling another people, “babe, this is really Hyukjae!” and the next thing Eunhyuk knew was that his ear felt like it’s been torn apart because of another voice from Korea. “HYUKJAE!!!!!!”
He’s got annoyed by that voice at first but after he realized whose voice is that, he widened his eyes and gasped, “hyung?!”
“Yah! I don’t want to be your hyung anymore, how come you didn’t even once call me in almost 2 years??!! Aish! I could never be this angry in all my life but you’ve got me going crazy, Hyuk!” the man stopped to take a breathe.
Eunhyuk lowered his head before saying, “I’m sorry, Jungsoo-hyung.”
The man named Jungsoo sighed but then chuckled, “finally I found you, Hyuk! I thought I would never hear your voice again. How are you there?” he asked with different tone, softer and mother-like this time, just like the old time.
“I’m fine, really!I’m happy to hear your voice, actually, and how are you doing?”
“You know where I am? I’m in Hawaii, Hyuk, Hawaii!!” Jungsoo yelled like crazy and Eunhyuk couldn’t help but laugh at his sunbae at school back then’s behavior, “you remember my lover, Kangin?”
“Oh? The one that went to army?”
“Yeah, he just comeback 2 months ago and now we’re doing holiday to every place!”
“That’s good, hyung!” and then silent from the other line, Eunhyuk also didn’t like this, Jungsoo-hyung must be expecting some more expressions from him, but he just couldn’t, not when Jungsoo-hyung also the part of what he wanted to forget.
“Hyuk... how many years again do you want to spend your live there?” Jungsoo suddenly asked with a careful voice.
Eunhyuk took a deep breathe before continuing, “you know the purpose to why I came here, hyung, and I won’t go anywhere before I reach my destination.”
“I don’t want to make you offended, but I don’t think you can, and I know you also know that!” Jungsoo stated firmly.
“I ‘m trying, hyung.”
“And you know that he always loves you.”
Eunhyuk’s breathe caught in his throat of hearing that, “I don’t know, hyung, I absolutely don’t know!” he managed to say without even a single air on his lungs.
Jungsoo could only sigh again, “I know. By the way, I think our next stop will be in US, you have to be ready to welcome us, okay!”
“Really!! I’ll wait for you then, hyung!” he smiled and make sure that the person on the other line could feel it too.
“Great! Bye Hyuk, sleep tight!”
“Thank’s hyung!” and he hung up on his hyung.
He sighed before flopping down on the couch. He hated it when someone was right about him, his life, and the result to that was the more he wanted to be alone forever, when there were no people to confront anything about his life, but with the knowledge of the people around him always wanted to be around because they love him, he just couldn’t escape again. Sometimes he just wanted to be far away from everyone if maybe that was the only solution for him to be able to forget about his past, but it far from reality.
Eunhyuk wasn’t a person who talk alot but also not a person that didn’t open. In fact, even if he didn’t realize it himself, people would easily know him like an open book. He never be able to hide something especially from someone who knew him for a long time. Hyukjae, to his friend was a person that never had secret. It was good though, for Lee Hyukjae, to know that people knew what was inside his heart, but not this time. This time he just wanted to be alone, without people around him that could immediately told him that something was wrong, it would just bring forth more pain.
This was his 3rd cup of coffee, with a lot of thought he tried to be awake just a for a couple of minute, but the heaviness of his eyes and the sweet lullaby from his mother that always echoed in his mind, told him that he hust be sleeping right now, he needed it, and without him realize it, he’s already on top of his bed. The it come. The time where they still wear uniform, one boy was wearing it on rules but the other didn’t. With messy shoulder length hair and a black tie tied unneatly on an unbuttoned white shirt, the slightly delinquent boy held the boy with glasses’ hand tight, walking together from school to home and stealing kisses on the way. He also saw them on the bus, lening on his shoulder as he gazed at the scenery of sea outside the window. All Eunhyuk could see on his dream was their beautiful memory, but how come he always saw himself crying on it? He cried when they held hand, he cried when they kissed, he cried when they sleep together in each others arms, his heart ached, he thought he could never feel happiness anymore.
“Hyukjae...” he heard him whispered his name softly and he felt his heart became numb. He cried again on his sleep.
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Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
2010/11/13
[CFXX] The Next Cup Of Coffee
LORELEY'S FOOLISH GAMES
Proudly Present:
Character Introduction:
- Lee Hyukjae a.k.a Eunhyuk: 25 years old man, Korean, had been living in New York for 3 years, work as an assistant photographer.
- Lee Donghae: 25 years old young enterpreneur, inherit a chained company, have a wife for 2 years.
- Daniel Armand Lee a.k.a Tablo: 27 years old man, Korean but was born in America, living his life as a writer and had few part time jobs.
- Kim Hyoyeon a.k.a Hyo: 23 years old, Korean, a secretary in where Eunhyuk work for, had been living in New York for 8 years already.
- Lim Yoona: 23 years old, Donghae’s wife, daughter of the president of the biggest mall in Korea.
- Lee Sungmin: Eunhyuk’s friend from high school, went to New York to live with his lover that happened to have a job in New York.
- Jo Kyuhyun: Lee Sungmin’s lover, has a pasta shop and a few branch of it.
- Park Jungsu a.k.a Eeteuk: Donghae’s oldest cousin from his mom, working as a bartender, living a free life.
- Kim Youngwoon a.k.a Kangin: Eeteuk’s lover, working an average office job.
- Summary:
The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those dream he never wanted to have.
WAIT FOR IT!! ^^
Proudly Present:
Character Introduction:
- Lee Hyukjae a.k.a Eunhyuk: 25 years old man, Korean, had been living in New York for 3 years, work as an assistant photographer.
- Lee Donghae: 25 years old young enterpreneur, inherit a chained company, have a wife for 2 years.
- Daniel Armand Lee a.k.a Tablo: 27 years old man, Korean but was born in America, living his life as a writer and had few part time jobs.
- Kim Hyoyeon a.k.a Hyo: 23 years old, Korean, a secretary in where Eunhyuk work for, had been living in New York for 8 years already.
- Lim Yoona: 23 years old, Donghae’s wife, daughter of the president of the biggest mall in Korea.
- Lee Sungmin: Eunhyuk’s friend from high school, went to New York to live with his lover that happened to have a job in New York.
- Jo Kyuhyun: Lee Sungmin’s lover, has a pasta shop and a few branch of it.
- Park Jungsu a.k.a Eeteuk: Donghae’s oldest cousin from his mom, working as a bartender, living a free life.
- Kim Youngwoon a.k.a Kangin: Eeteuk’s lover, working an average office job.
- Summary:
The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those dream he never wanted to have.
WAIT FOR IT!! ^^
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