Title: The Next Cup of Coffee
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon, slight!Donghae/Yoona. Side: Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Eeteuk.
Rating: G
Word Count: 3,780
Summary: It’s already fifth cup of coffee. Walking through time. Memory within the black aroma, it touches my hardened tongue but not my heart. The cup that once held my habit, Became a drawer of memory that unfolds like a photo album, and drifted away like leaves.
A/N: I didn't forget about this actually, but something'd come up and I didn't have enough courage to continue this. Don't know if people still read this,,sorry because, yeah, 'words' left me. :p Enjoy! ^o^
Third Cup: A Daily Routine
I miss the warm lips, so I drink a cup of coffee
Alcohol is hard on my body, so I drink second cup of coffee
To keep my empty hands warm, I drink third cup of coffee
Coffee became part of a daily routine.
Walking through time.
Memories of wandering through long dark night might be painful,
so I poured another cup of coffee.
May 17, Seoul
There’s a big difference of coffee and alcohol, eventhough those liquids could keep you warm, but the effect to your mind would be different. They said that if you want to get rid of your problems, just drink alcohol and it would go temporarily. But Donghae didn’t want that, did he? He didn’t want the problem to just go and then come the next morning the effect of alcohol vanished. There’s nothing could make the problem go away but coffee. Eventhough the coffee itself stored a millions of memory, at least it could make you stay a little far away from the memory that always seemed to come when the nights come and you’re alone. For the problem itself was those memories and nothing else.
Donghae was still in his study room, in front of his computer with a cup of coffee on his hand. His eyes were scanning the file on the computer screen but it wouldn’t come to his mind, the concentration he always had seemed to lose itself in the deepest part of his heart where the love seemed to take a lead.
He’s thinking about Hyukjae, about how he could approach him someday, when the time permitted him to do so. Donghae couldn’t help his longing anymore, he wanted to meet Hyukjae so bad, it hurts. Because no matter how he tried to meet face to face with Hyukjae, he couldn’t do that. Not when everyone know that he’s going to meet him. Then he thought about the possibility to do that stealthily. Yeah, he would do that, as long as he could meet his Hyukjae even only for a minute, but enough to just say ‘I love you’, for it was the last sentence he didn’t tell Hyukjae before he went for good and not coming back until now.
***
May 18, New York
He saw Daniel leaning on the wall at the train station, wearing black as usual. It was still fifteen to two and Eunhyuk thought he would be late so he prepared early, but apparently Daniel was earlier, made him felt like he always late in any kind of occasion.
Finally Daniel waved as he approached him, “ready?” he asked still grinning.
Eunhyuk replied with a smile and nodded slightly. Then without any more words, Daniel led them to the half full subway and found a seat for them both soon after. They didn’t chat much, just enjoying each other’s companion was comfortable enough. Eventhough Eunhyuk kept wandering, how a rapper could be this quiet, he thought they even a blabbermouth, but it was fair enough. Because although they just met for a couple of days, they seemed to have this silent agreement to not involve too much in each other’s world or privacy, but the result was far from that without Eunhyuk realizing it, he was the one who gave Daniel a way to slip in. Drop by drop Daniel had come into his untouched world what he himself ignored years ago. Daniel seemed know where exactly the entrance was more than anyone else, without had to presume Hyukjae from his cover, and Hyukjae thought, is it safe to be like that? Because he had used to people read him like an open book, and this Daniel, was he really couldn’t read Hyukjae?
“Ah! Eunhyuk, I have to tell you this!” Daniel exclaimed suddenly. Hyukjae gave him a side glance first before turning completely to him.
“What?”
“My friends there, don’t call me Daniel. They know me as Tablo, so... try to call me by that name,” Tablo asked then waiting for Eunhyuk to say it.
Eunhyuk thought a little before managing to hold his laughter and Daniel frowned when he heard Eunhyuk chuckled lightly and let out a soft laugh after since he couldn’t hold it any longer. Daniel didn’t know what the other’s thinking and just chuckled from Eunhyuk’s cuteness.
“What’s wrong?”
Eunhyuk stopped his laughter and turned to Daniel, “no, it’s just... I thought, would that name feel funny in my mouth?” he said, smiling, and then come that stare again. The one that made Eunhyuk’s heartbeat went faster than necessary and his face red as tomato.
“Why you always stare at me like—“ he managed to say but was cut off when he felt a warm lips on his cheek, just a few inches from his own lips. Eunhyuk widened his eyes in shock even after Daniel pulled away 2 seconds later. He couldn’t find a word to say because he could still feel Daniel’s hot breath on his skin and it made him as if a flame had burned his body, the feeling he hadn’t got in years and it’s enough to made his mouth dry.
But Daniel suddenly asked – in his face didn’t show any regret or something like sorry-i-had-kissed-you-without-permission – “try say my name,” he smiled as he kept a firm gaze to Eunhyuk’s eyes.
Eunhyuk, as if hypnotized, just do what Daniel said, “Da-Daniel...”
“No, the other one!”
“T-Tablo...?”
Daniel smiled even wider, “now... was that funny?” and pulled his gaze away.
“Eh??” Eunhyuk finally could managed to stand on his right mind again. He mumbled “Tablo...”once again and seconds later, the both of them burst into laughter, and Eunhyuk never felt this light in years.
***
The place looked like an abandoned garage with pilox writing allover the wall, but not dirty at all. There’s seemed to be no one living in that place, but as soon as you went in then you’d surrounded by a crowd. People were dancing everywhere, boys and girls, with perfect choreography, not just grinding each other’s body like you always see in the club. There was also live hip-hop music on the stage by this chubby guy with brown blazer and a black cap.
“That’s Mithra.” Daniel said right beside his ear because the music was too loud.
However Eunhyuk didn’t pay much attention to the hiphopper on the stage but the people dancing around him. He admitted it, he’s really tempted by all of their moves. The desire to dance again like the old him kept bugging his mind right now. Daniel saw it. He saw everything in those dark orbs, hard for him to not notice what was inside the beautiful eyes he’s got drowned to. But from the first time Daniel got to see them, something was missing, something like a half of his soul was somewhere and he got lost because of it. Then Daniel decided that he would do whatever it was to bring that thing to Eunhyuk again.
“You wanna dance?” Daniel asked Eunhyuk who still absorbed into the dancers.
Eunhyuk turned to him with a smile, “yeah, I would love to, but how...?”
Daniel brought Eunhyuk to the side of the dancefloor and made him met someone, “this is Sol... Sol, this is Eunhyuk,” Sol offered a hand to Eunhyuk to shake. The mohawked hair boy that shorter than Eunhyuk smiled with his little eyes, but you could see that he had muscles everywhere despite his cute face.
“Oh, hi Sol!” Eunhyuk greeted cheerfully.
They soon became close. Even when Daniel off to his so called ‘office’, they could chat comfortably, although Eunhyuk had to reminisce some of terms Sol use about dance in their conversation, because it’s been a really long time since Eunhyuk heard those. Sol brought him to the crew that consist of 20 peoples or so and they started their routine. Eunhyuk left to watch but Sol said that he could join anytime. So he just stood between an afro-america girl and this fat guy with hoody who started screaming when the music change and Sol stepped forward to show his skills. The music was live, by the way, this Mithra guy that Daniel mentioned still singing and rapping with 2 other guys and 1 girl, plus the DJ which also kept playing in the background.
Eventhough Eunhyuk still awkward with the place, soon he started to sway with the music and found himself smiling watching everyone dance. It was like finding his old self and it was great actually. Suddenly, Sol beckoned him to try the dancefloor and he found it hard to refuse, so with one confidence left, Eunhyuk stepped forward and started to move his body, do some popping or hiphop dance, jump to the air or spin on the ground, and he felt as if he was the lightest person in the world.
Eunhyuk didn’t know that Daniel had been watching him this entire time. Standing in the corner as he sipped on his black coffee, staring at Eunhyuk with such intensity and drowning into his happiness as always. He didn’t know why he always taken along by this boy’s expressions. Eunhyuk always had his expression easy to read, he notice that. Whenever he sad despite his smile, Daniel always knew it all and couldn’t help but sucked up into those.
“Looks like you got lost,” someone stated beside Daniel. He knew who it was, because the guy had been his friend for 10 years, “got the fresh one?”
“He’s Korean, Mithra,” Daniel said as he took another sip from the paper cup.
Mithra ‘tsk’ by the answer and shook his head, “just go to that country if you’re so obsessed!” he offered and laugh right after.
Daniel only smiled to himself, “I knew it’s silly of me.”
“Good. Just so you know, this guy looks innocent yet tough, don’t do stupid things,” Mithra said as he ready to leave.
“I know, right,” Daniel answered, “we’ll see...” he finished his coffee hurriedly and walked towards Eunhyuk when Mithra just shook his head with an amused smile.
***
May 18, Seoul
A knock was heard when Donghae just started scanning the fourth document that day in his office. He said come in without bothering to look up who’s coming inside, until his secretary spoke to him.
“Sir, here is the information you wanted,”
Donghae looked up from his work, “whose you got?”
“I can’t find the detail about Lee Sungmin, but I found an almost complete information about Jo Kyuhyun,” she answered as she handed over the document.
“...and who is this guy?” Donghae asked as he flipped through the document, he found the photo of this Kyuhyun guy.
“He happens to be close to Lee Sungmin, perhaps, I’m not sure,”
Donghae dismiss her and then sighed heavily as he slumped down on his leather chair. When he told his secretary to find any information about Lee Hyukjae who live in New York, he got no results at all. How come Eeteuk and Kangin found out about him was still a mystery to him. But in whatever circumstances, Donghae would never asked Eeteuk about it or he would be scolded for not being true with himself, again.
Donghae even came to a conclusion that Eeteuk was lying when he told about Hyukjae was in New York, but then he remembered Sungmin from their highschool, Hyukjae was very close to him whenever Donghae wasn’t around. So he started to search for Lee Sungmin but it turned out that Sungmin was also in New York. Was it coincidence or Lee Sungmin had something to do with Hyukjae being in New York? Donghae was so frustated, because he couldn’t even contact Hyukjae’s family because they had argument years ago concerning Hyukjae’s departure and they blamed him for it. They sure wouldn’t let Donghae know where their son was.
But this Jo Kyuhyun, he hope this was the last clue for him to find his love and the most accurate one, for he’s already tired of all this and if he didn’t get anything, he sure would go alone without any information whatsoever to New York and search for Hyukjae by himself.
***
“Donghae, your coffee!” he heard Yoona called from outside his study room that night. It was already 10 pm in Seoul city.
He still busy with works in front of him, so without tore his eyes from it, he answered Yoona, “yes, just bring it here.”
Yoona came in and sighed first before approaching his husband’s desk. She had to admit it, that she kind of tired about Donghae’s attitude this past week. She had no strange feeling to Donghae’s coldness, for it had been like that since the first time they meet, and he only kind towards her just as friend, or if they had to be intimate that’s just because of demand. Donghae and Yoona were the first and only heir to their parents, so she, as a fillial daughter she used to be, just accept when her father forced her to marry their choice, and it turned out to be Donghae, her idol, since she always saw him in the magazine where his father would be. There was no love between them, or so Donghae thought, but Yoona had her own feeling.
Being together in the same house for 2 years, doing what a spouse should did, how come you couldn’t grow some feeling. However, Yoona couldn’t be sure whether Donghae felt the same or not. He’s kind for sure, despite the coldness and how ignorance he is to Yoona, but she had been told that Donghae was like that indeed even to his family, as long as Donghae didn’t harsh to her and show to her face that he didn’t like her. But that’s the thing now, Donghae’s ignorance had been out of limit. They barely talk, Donghae never sleep in their room again, and the most annoying one was he never had breakfast in the morning. He just busied himself with work, in the office or even at home, and Yoona, as his wife, got suspicious about it.
Putting the red cup on the desk beside a pile of documents, Yoona then sat on the couch and cleaned the table with books in it, “oppa...” she started, and Donghae just hummed in acknowledgement that she’s there. Yoona, sensing that his husband didn’t want to be disturbed more, just continued talking without expecting for any response, “I got an offer from entertaintment industry,” she said as she put the books on the right place, “they want me to model again.”
Yoona waited for what Donghae’s answer would be. He ever said that he didn’t like exposure, despite he’s always being in magazine for a long time now as a succcessful excecutive, and because Yoona knew that, she left modelling before marrying Donghae. Now she just wanna know how Donghae would response.
“That’s good,” he said, and Yoona was sure about her suspicion. With that she left the room after said thank you to her husband.
Believe it or not, Yoona never knew about Donghae’s detail in life. She only knew about it all from his parents, but it wasn’t corcerning Donghae himself. She never knew if Donghae had girlfriend before. Yes, that’s what going on in her mind. Donghae had been in this behavior because of someone, she was sure of that. Did Donghae cheated on her with another woman, or he found his old girlfriend? She had to know about her husband eventhough not from her husband himself.
***
May 20, New York
Eunhyuk buried his head in the soft pillow, annoyed by the sound of bell ringing in this early morning. The person didn’t stop even when Eunhyuk decided to ignore it for 15 minutes already. Grumbling, he sat upright before walking to the door, and he didn’t surprise when the person entered his apartment was Sungmin. After letting Sungmin in, he walked back to his room and continued his slumber.
He could hear Sungmin sighed and almost saw the shook of his head, “wake up, you lazy bum!” Sungmin yelled.
“Let me sleep, Min!” he said as he pulled the cover over his head.
“I know it would be like this!” Sungmin walked towards Eunhyuk’s bed and sat beside him, “wake up, will ya! I wanna talk with you!” he groaned in frustation.
“Talk.” Eunhyuk answered lowly, still tried to sleep again.
“Where have you been in two days?” Sungmin asked.
Eunhyuk sighed, “that’s not talking, that’s asking,” he pinpointed.
“Yah Lee Hyukjae! Why are you like this? are you ‘drunk’ with coffee again?!” Sungmin pulled the cover off Eunhyuk’s body in annoyance, “you promised me!”
Eunhyuk sat on his bed, his back on the headboard, lips pouting, “are you here early in the morning just to scold me?”
“It’s not my fault that you born only to be scolded everyday!” Sungmin huffed, “anyway, you’re not answering my questions.”
“I don’t drink coffee 10 cups a day anymore, Min, believe me!”
“Not that question! That I do believe, anyway. But where have you been yesterday and the day before that? I couldn’t contact you at all,” Sungmin said in a worried expression.
Eunhyuk opened up his eyes to that question and thought about what he should say to his bestfriend, he never lied to Sungmin, but this thing could become a twist in his live and he didn’t know whether that could be healthy or not to suddenly involve in something you tried so hard to avoid.
“I’ve been with a friend.” Eunhyuk finally answered as he get up from his bed and walked to the bathroom to wash his face. He could heard Sungmin’s gasp from behind and sighed softly before grabbing his toothbrush.
The next thing he knew Sungmin was leaning in his bathroom doorway, watching him with a frown, “is it that girl I saw with you in my shop?”
“No! it’s a guy.” Eunhyuk stated and then being answered by Sungmin’s shriek.
“WOW! You’ve finally got yourself a guy!!” he said, Eunhyuk just rolled his eyes, “..and you’re not even denying it.” Sungmin’s smirk got wider as he stared at his best friend through the mirror, “I’m going to tell Kyuhyun that our lovely Hyukjae got himself a boyfriend already.”
“Yah,Minnie! Don’t do that, I didn’t get a boyfriend!” he explained after washing his face and before Sungmin could hold his cellphone.
“So... care to tell me who this guy is?” pestered Sungmin.
“Can we talk this over breakfast? I’m starving, and since I’ve lost my job, you better feed me.” Eunhyuk said as he put on some t-shirt and a pair of jeans.
“Let’s go to my shop, so we can talk about your ‘boyfriend’ with Kyu also!”
“I don’t have a boyfriend!” Eunhyuk stomped his foot as he grabbed his coat.
“Okay, as you wish.” Sungmin stated in the end, but didn’t leave the grin plastered on his face because of Eunhyuk’s red face this entire time.
***
So Eunhyuk actually told them about Daniel and where they usually hang out. He also told them about his feeling towards Daniel. He smiled, that’s the very important thing to tell, because two of his bestfriend here always told him about Eunhyuk never smile despite the thought that he always smile whenever he met people.
“You smile everytime, but not this kind of smile..” Kyuhyun stated just as Eunhyuk sipped at his latte.
Eunhyuk put his cup and frowned at Kyuhyun, “what smile are you talking about, really? Because Daniel said the same thing too.”
“Great that he’s also realized it, it proves that he could see the real you.” Sungmin said, carrying a plate of fettucini for Eunhyuk.
Eunhyuk sighed after receiving the pasta for his breakfast, “didn’t everyone can easily to see the real me?”
“I think it’s that something inside your eyes that if someone sees them, they could see through your soul or something like that.” Kyuhyun said before sipping his coffee. Eunhyuk stared at him for seconds and then to the cup he just put. Black coffee. Tempting.
“Why does it sounds romantic to me,” Sungmin stated, glaring at Kyuhyun who cringed at his boyfriend’s tone, that showed that he’s jealous over something, but Sungmin averted his gaze to Eunhyuk quickly, “hey, Hyuk, do you plan to always seeing this man?”
Eunhyuk jerked from his trance before turning his head toward Sungmin, “eh, ehmm, maybe.. he always come to that coffee shop under my apartment though in the evening, and we always talked and I know where he’s always hang out, and I like that place, I can dance there...”
“You dance again?!” Sungmin widened his eyes in surprise, Eunhyuk nodded, “wow! This guy changes you a lot. It’s a good thing, though.”
Eunhyuk smiled wider, the situation seemed got a lot better. His heart felt healed eventhough it wasn’t whole yet, but he should accept this feeling once again if he really wanted to move on. After more than 3 years scared about killing his own heart, maybe this time was finally the moment it would come, his life, his reason to really breathe again.
***
May 23, Airport
He told Yoona he wouldn’t be home for 2 weeks yesterday. Made work as an excuse. He caught a flight to New York at 3 am in the morning, leaving his wife still fast asleep in their bedroom. Gone with a little information he had to get a chance to see his beloved person. Just to see and said ‘I love you’ because he still was. He didn’t even know if the other still remember him or not, still love him or not, but it didn’t matter, as long as he could see that face again, could touch that cheek again, and mouthing those three words in front of him. Then he’ll do everything the other wanted him to do, even went to hell because he has been asked to by the one he hurt the heart of. We wouldn’t regret anything anymore if this really happen, but he worried about something. What if he couldn’t take his eyes away from him after this, what if the thought of runaway with him come to his mind and he couldn’t chase that away, and what if he wanted more than just what he intended to. Maybe it really better if Hyukjae did forget about him after all. Eventhough he couldn’t, wouldn’t forget him. Never.
“Hyukjae, please let me find you...” he looked at the grey sky as he stepped out from the airport, grabbed a cab and go to .
Fourth Cup: Meeting Face to Face
2012/01/24
2011/03/22
[CF02] The Next Cup of Coffee
Title: The Next Cup Of Coffee
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,661
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
It’s too early for us to fall asleep.
Please stay up a little longer.
Please, don’t miss out on the cup of eternity.
You and me.
Me and my coffee
Hyukjae was a bright and cheerful kid, but also very polite if it come to older people. He liked to dance everywhere he go since 7 and it sometimes made his mom embarassed but also proud. She never forbad Hyukjae to dance so when he was 14, his mom take him to a dance course although he didn’t ask for it. There, he met this adorable boy named Lee Donghae. The name felt funny in his mouth so he often said it to the other. They became good friends soon because everyday Hyukjae will make fun of him and he chase Hyukjae until they reached Hyukjae’s house.
Eventhough their house wasn’t close from each other, they always picked up each other to go to the course in the evening after school. Their school didn’t close either, so they only had course time to be together. Hyukjae and Donghae confessed to each other that they never had a friend who had the same interest and could understand them. So they made a promise to go to the same college.
From: Hae^^
Hyuk… today you go to campus by yourself, okay ? I got a thing to do first..
One day, Hyukjae got those text messages in an early morning before he went to shower. It’s strange to know that Donghae had something important beside him but he shrugged it off right then. He got his breakfast then walked alone to the college. He arrived at his class first, it was weird since the class would start in ten minutes. When he got boring with this quiet class, he heard a loud commotion come from the school backyard. Hyukjae went to the window far from the door and looked down – his class in 4th story – and his eyes widened.
There, in the middle of the yard, a big banner made from pieces with each piece held by one person and it made a love sign. Then the person tiped it over to the other side and it made two words, Hyuk – Hae. Hyukjae gasped in surprise. As he still shocked from it, he got a text message from Donghae again.
From: Hae^^
Be my boyfriend… go to a date with me… I Love You.
They soon became lovers. More or less there’s a change between them. One of them was which Donghae always kissed his lips before Hyukjae went inside his house after a long walk just because they wanted to spend more time together. Sometimes Donghae would slide his hand onto Hyukjae’s waist on the street beside just hold hands just so everyone would know that they are lovers now, not just bestfriends.
A year later Donghae got his own apartment. He once told Hyukjae to move in with him, but Hyukjae didn’t ready yet, but he came to his apartment almost everyday. He actually didn’t put a quite attention to how it would become. He, at first didn’t know that Donghae’s love was really pure for him, but when he knew it made him go crazy for this one man, only for him. After that, never Hyukjae left his side. Always on his sight 24/7.
Donghae worked a part-time job in one of the famous coffee shop on their town, not because he needed the money since he was rich, but he always liked coffee especially the smell of it. He would take more time to smell the scent of one cup of hot coffee before taking a sip of it. In comparison, Hyukjae loved ice cream, especially with strawberry for the topping. It wasn’t like he didn’t like to drink coffee, but he never been that addicted like Donghae. Once he got jealous for that stupid coffee, because Donghae rather went for a cup of coffee after he woke up, not to him.
It’s ridiculous though, how he managed to get used to Donghae being addicted to coffee, and then he slowly loved it when after Donghae drank a cup of hot coffee and kissed him, it had a different warm to his lips and mouth, it made him addicted too. Not to the coffee but to Donghae’s kiss.
It maybe because Eunhyuk can’t have those kisses again, everyday he will drink coffee. It has been two years since coffee became his dailly routine. From the moment he starts his day until the time he has to close his eyes – as if he can – yes, Eunhyuk never had a night worth of sleep since 3 years ago.
May 15, New York
“You’re late!” Bryan stated the obvious, “again!” he added, then sighed, “if you don’t want this job anymore, then tell me!” he said again as he massaged his own nape.
Eunhyuk gasped when he heard that, “how?—sir?!” he was in a panic state. Bryan never said it to him eventhough he always late, just a small scolding and then he would let Eunhyuk work again immediately.
Bryan huffed, “I don’t know what got into you, and I thought I could accustomed to it, but then again you prove that I’m wrong, you never change!” he kept his voice still down, but Eunhyuk knew that bryan was dead serious with this. He had been working for him for almost 3 years now.
“Bryan, s-sir, give me a second chance, please!!” Eunhyuk pleaded, he really didn’t know what would he do if he lost his only job, his only source of life in this foreign country.
“I don’t know Hyuk! But I’ll think of it... after you change yourself!” Bryan smiled was short after giving Eunhyuk a side glance, “I’m sorry, Eunhyuk... but I don’t think I can accept you if you still like this, as much as I like it when you around and of course helped, I have to be consistent with my job and dicipline with my time if I want to be a profesional!”
Eunhyuk bowed his head down, this was his consequent, he knew it would happen sooner or later, but still he could never get out of his habit eventhough the consequent could risk his life. “I’m sorry, sir.” Eunhyuk bowed to his boss. He knew that sorry would get him nowhere, Bryan looked really firm with his decision and Eunhyuk knew he was the one who dissapointing him. Bryan took him when he had no one to run to, to continue his life, he even taught him to do something that would help him, and to know that he was dissapointed because of Eunhyuk’s stupid habit, he really ashamed of what he had done.
“You can comeback anytime, but make sure that you have really made up your mind, I know something is bothering you all this time.” Bryan explained, even after what Eunhyuk did to him, Bryan always understood his condition.
“Thank you, Bryan, for everything, if it wasn’t you then I don’t know how to continue my life. I’m sorry!” Eunhyuk was in the verge of tears now, but he held it in.
Bryan nodded at Eunhyuk, “it’s hard for me also, but I’ve been thinking over it, that what you need to continue with your life wasn’t a job, but something else.” He said sincerely.
Eunhyuk tried to disgest what Bryan had said and realization hit him. It’s happening again, wasn’t it? People always easily saw through him like an open book, was he too obvious with his feelings, could he just once keep his sentiment inside and covered it with a closed cage so no one couldn’t notice it.
“I know...” Eunhyuk managed to say, suddenly the desire to be alone again barged into his soul, to be away from people “...I think I’ll get going now, if you excuse me!” and he left, but before he could turned the doorknow, he heard Bryan spoke.
“Just don’t forget you can comeback some other time!”
Eunhyuk then left with burden on his two shoulder, he thought of where to go this time, of where he would hang his life now, he surely wouldn’t back to his parents again eventhough he was sure that his parents wouldn’t neglect him, but he had chosen to leave back then and promise to live alone without worrying them. He sighed loudly, luckily there was no one on the elevator that would take him to the ground floor, and slided down the wall. He couldn’t take this anymore, he needed to be alone, with no one else to interfere with his life, without knowing that everyone in this world knew what on his heart. He wished that he just drowned in the sea or swallowed by the ground right here right now. He didn’t want to be ‘seen’ anymore.
Eunhyuk was in the middle of thinking how to hide himself when the elevator door opened and someone walked in without Eunhyuk noticing it and kept sitting on the elevator floor. “Eunhyuk?” the girl’s voice suddenly filled the silent air of Eunhyuk. He looked up just to see Hyoyeon smiled widely at him, “what are you doing, sitting down inside the elevator? And don’t you have a photo session with Bryan today?”
Eunhyuk stood up and fixed his mailbag on his shoulder, “Hyo, that—I get fired, just now,” he said and then smiled a sad smile.
“What?!!!” Hyoyeon screamed, shocked all written on her face.
“Yeah, I always late and I think I deserve that. It’s just about time..” Eunhyuk sighed and then chuckled to himself of how ironic his life was.
Hyoyeon just kept silent, didn’t know what to say anymore, if Bryan had made a decision, he would make sure that he did that. The problem was, how could he fire Eunhyuk who’d been with him since he treaded on photography world. The biggest thing of it all, Hyoyeon would never meet Eunhyuk again since she didn’t know anything about him except what he did in the office.
“Oh.. we’re here!” Eunhyuk said as the elevator dinged at the ground floor, “I’ll get going then, thank you, Hyo!” he smiled at her still sad expression.
“Can I ride you home?” Hyoyeon suddenly ask.
Eunhyuk frowned, “don’t you have work today? Beside I think I won’t be home yet now.” He could see Hyoyeon’s pout slightly, but ignored it, “bye, Hyo!” he turned from her.
“Eunhyuk...”
Eunhyuk turned back again to face Hyoyeon, “can I... umm, can we... meet again?” Eunhyuk tilted his head in confusion, why his co-worker acted like this, he never saw Hyoyeon in a sad condition before, she always had a bright and warm smile for everyone. Was it because he meant a lot to her? He thought he wasn’t important for anyone. “I mean... I didn’t have your number and I... didn’t know your house too, so... I thought it would be hard to...” she trailed off and smiled awkwardly.
Eunhyuk silent for a moment, but said “right, sorry for that...” he come closer to Hyoyeon and took out his cellphone, gave her his number and his address. “that’s it, Hyo! Of course we’ll meet again, I have to go now!” and he left before Hyoyeon could speak again.
He wandered on New York’s street, with no particular destination. He planned to just being alone today in a place where many people wouldn’t come and stay there until night. So, maybe Kyuhyun’s shop’s rooftop would be a nice place at this moment, and also tell the couple that their friend now was jobless.
***
May 16, Seoul
“Yoona, where is my coffee?” Donghae asked as he stil fixed his tie on the kitchen door, looking at his wife’s frame from behind and then returned to fix the tie again.
Yoona turned to his husband and smiled her most beautiful smile, but it vanished again as he saw Donghae didn’t even looking at her and just busy with his red tie, “it’s on the dining table, Hae!”
He walked to the said table and drank his black and bitter coffee to keep him awake when suddenly Yoona grabbed his hand that had been holding his unfinished stupid tie and fix it for him, “you’ve been sleep late lately, don’t you?” she asked softly.
“Yeah, I was working.” Donghae simply answered. It was the truth but also not actually true. The truth was he wasn’t sleeping at all – at night – this past 3 days. He’s working, right, but work wouldn’t take much of his time. Something haunted him, made him couldn’t even close his eyes, because it would come when it was dark around him, eventhough it was light that come, it was still miserable.
“Don’t overwork yourself, it’s not healthy.” Yoona said as she rub her palm on Donghae’s chest.
Donghae finished his coffee quickly, because first it’s been 7.10 in the morning and second he wasn’t comfortable with Yoona’s hand on his body, “I have to go..” he said before kissing her forehead and leave, “bye.”
After Donghae settled himself on his car, he sighed and glanced over their house. He knew that Yoona knew what he felt, they’d been living together for almost 3 years now as a spouse and they’d revealed what on each other’s mind from the start, that they didn’t love each other. It had been fine for the first year, they could understand each other and tried to keep their own side from the other. But then the demand kept compulsing from here and there and although Donghae want to keep it like the way it used to be, Yoona couldn’t do that anymore. She tried to enter Donghae’s side until Donghae couldn’t help but let her be, for the sake of his and her family. It didn’t run smoothly, instead Donghae made more barrier on his side without even he realize it. The thing was he felt guilty toward her.
In the office, Donghae always been busy with his work for the company. He was the heir to this company so that’s why he’d been forced to listen to what the elder said with no objection. He had to take care of this company to continue what his father had built. At 12.30 pm, just as Donghae finished his lunch, the phone on his office rang and he press the button so his secretary could speak, “sir, there’s a Kim Kangin on the phone.” She said. Donghae’s eyes widened from what he heard, did he hear right? Is this that Kangin she’s talking about?
“Put him on the line!” he ordered.
“Donghae?” the Kangin spoke.
“Hyung?!! Is this really you?” Donghae asked with enthusiasm, he’d been waiting for this call for months.
“Ya!! Who else, idiot!!” another voice spoke, this was more gentle eventhough the tone was higher.
“Teuki-hyung!!” Donghae laughed as he heard the voice he’d been missing, “how are you? And when are you coming home? Since Kangin-hyung back from the army, you’ve been nowhere to find.”
Leeteuk chuckled hearing his little cousin whining, “we’re fine, Hae! We’re still in Hawaii now and tonight we’ll be off from here.”
“You’ll be home again, yay!!” Donghae cheered happily like a little kid, didn’t remember that he’s now a big man in suit and a director for one of the biggest company in Korea, sitting on a high comfortable seat inside a sky-high tower.
“No Hae, we’re not coming back home yet, there’s place we wanted to come to.” Leeteuk said and then silent for a moment, “Hae, we found him,” he added, and Donghae couldn’t breathe.
After a long minute Donghae kept silent, made his two hyungs worried to dead, Leeteuk called him, “Donghae are you still there?”
Donghae’s eyes that widened in shock just now closed tight and he sent a silent prayer to God for granted his wish, “wh-where is he?” Donghae managed to say.
“We’re not too sure of where the exact he is, but we know that he’s in New York now,” Leeteuk said, “Hae, we have an agreement, don’t we?” he added with a warning mixed with anxiousness in his tone.
Donghae kept silent again and lowered his head and inhaled deeply, restrained a threatening tears from his eyes, despite how painful his heart at the moment to hear that thing again, to fall down, “yeah, I know hyung.”
“Eventhough I know that it won’t change everything between you and him, but... you’re trying aren’t you?”
Donghae turned his chair in the direction of a big window behind him and gazed through it into the space outside, Seoul city in the afternoon, but his mind just focused to the horizon on far away, hoping that he could see what behind it. He knew for sure that if he could, he would find him there. However, it just proved him that he wasn’t trying, he tried but he just couldn’t anymore, he’d given up on trying to forget the man he loved most, “I tried, hyung,” Donghae answered honestly. Didn’t care if he broke the agreement, he never thought that it would ever be influential for him, “but I just... can’t anymore.”
Leeteuk sighed loudly, “as expected!” but then Donghae could feel the man on the other line smiling, “think I couldn’t do anything then, but just remember, don’t do stupid thing on everyone, didn’t want someone to get hurt!”
Donghae smiled a sorrowful smile, “I get it, hyung! Thank you for... everything,” Donghae said, holding back the tears. For he knew that even if he didn’t do anything stupid and everything went the way it was, someone would certain be hurt, and that was him, but it’s okay, it always be alright, as long as nobody’s hurt because of him.
After he hung up with Eeteuk-hyung, who happened to be his dearest oldest cousin, his only relative that supported him with everything he did because Eeteuk was the one who understand Donghae the most. Especially when Donghae’s parents forced him to marry, at that time it was the only time that Eeteuk held a brief for Donghae in front of his parents, saying that Donghae didnt need to marry anyone else but the person he loved, Donghae couldn’t get his work done. Knowing that his love still could be reach, he couldn’t help but think of how he would do to meet him. It would be hard, he knew, but sooner or later he would surely come for him.
They had been apart for more than 3 years. Hyukjae had told Donghae that he was going, but never told him where he would go. He always believed that Hyukjae went to only-God-knows-where to calm himself down and tried to accept what had become Donghae’s condition was back then. They never broke up, since Donghae told Hyukjae that they could still be together despite what his status was, they could still play hide and seek, but eventhough Hyukjae didn’t object to it, there was never an answer coming from him. So Hyukjae just went with promise to be back, but until now, there were even no calls to report how he’s doing and especially where was he.
“Promise me that you would never leave me!” Hyukjae demanded one night before Donghae had to tell him about his marriage. Donghae stunned, how could he asked that when Donghae would exactly betray it if he made the promise.
“Hyuk... I have something to tell you,”Donghae managed to say, his heart beating so fast with anxiety of what would Hyukjae react to the news, “I’m getting married,” he said finally.
Hyukjae just stared at Donghae with eyes widened and blinked faster then bursted out laughing, “that’s a lame joke, Hae!”
Donghae sighed and there was a well of tears in his eyes, “Hyuk, I’m serious.”
“No, you don’t!!” Hyukjae denied again, he, of course, would never believe in such statement, Donghae had made a promise to marry him someday, and that he only loved him, and he wanted to believe in it forever.
“I am, Hyuk! It’s my father... he forced me to get married for the sake of the company,” Donghae explained to his lover who kept shaking his head, eyes didn’t want to meet the other’s. Donghae cupped his face to make him looked into his own tearing eyes, “look Hyuk, I’ll said this and you better believed in me,” Eunhyuk now couldn’t stop the tears to fall from his eyes again, and after a nod, Donghae spoke again, “I’m getting married won’t effect to what we are, I love you and always love you and nothing in this world can change that.”
“No!! How can you say that it won’t change anything! It means that you’re not mine anymore! Donghae, you’re MINE!” Hyukjae cried harder, he was now clutching tightly at Donghae’s shirt and then hitting his chest quiet hard.
“I’m yours, Hyukjae, always yours, you hear me!” Donghae pulled him into an embrace to soothe him, but Hyukjae couldn’t staying still, he kept struggling on Donghae’s hold, so Donghae had to hold him tighter. When Hyukjae seemed calm enough, Donghae lift him bridal style to bring him to bed and Hyukjae instinctively circled his arms on Donghae’s neck until they reach their bedroom and both of them laying in each others arm for the rest of the night.
***
May 16, New York
“Yes, Min... I’ll get enough sleep [...] I’ll get home soon, I just come by a coffee shop [...] I promise to just drink one cup [...] okay, bye [...] I love you too!” Eunhyuk sighed after he hung up on Sungmin, the pink-haired boy sometimes could be strict and bother him too much. It made Eunhyuk wanted to be alone more, but he knew Sungmin did that because he care.
It was still 07.30 in the evening and the coffee shop was not full of people at this kind of hour. So after he ordered his coffee, Eunhyuk went to find a seat and surprise to see someone wave his hand towards him, he glanced over his shoulder in case the person calling someone else behind him, but there’s no one there. Eunhyuk waved back before walking to the man in the same spot where they meet for the first time.
“Hello! You’re here early...” Daniel said.
Eunhyuk smiled before taking a seat opposite the older man, “what? You always come here at this time?” he asked.
Daniel smiled back and Eunhyuk could see the resemblance of him on the smoky eyes man, “I’m off my work at six and often hang in here until the shop close if I have nowhere to go... what about you, I never see you in this kind of time?”
Being asked made Eunhyuk lowered his head but a sad smile formed in his lips nonetheless, “I’m fired, this morning to be exact...” he answered and Daniel’s face showed his sorry but Eunhyuk shook his head, “but I’m fine, really... I just feel a slight regret because this all is my fault.”
“Your fault?”
“Yeah, I late for work almost everyday, so it’s just about time, right?” Eunhyuk chuckled wholeheartedly. He slowly accepted to himself that he wasn’t perfect, never always be perfect for everything, but at least he must told himself that he was perfect for himself, better off alone.
“So, what will yo do after this?” Daniel asked again.
Eunhyuk shrugged his shoulder, “I don’t know, maybe lazying around until I got myself another job, I really don’t have anything to do if I don’t have any job.”
“...or maybe you could join me sometimes,” Daniel looked into Eunhyuk’s eyes with interest.
“What do you do, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked Daniel who still looking at him with hope.
“I have this community called Epik High, and we do rap and dance. Are you interested in thing like this?” Daniel explained and Eunhyuk’s eyes twinkling when he heard dance.
“Dance? I love dance!” Eunhyuk yelped with enthusiasm, it’s been a long time since he heard the word dance and dance itself, eventhough dance also the one who brought the bad memory but he couldn’t deny that he really missed to be able to dance again, “you also dance, Daniel?” Eunhyuk even asked Daniel with wider smile.
However, Daniel seemed so lost in his own world in looking to Eunhyuk’s face so Eunhyuk had to waved his hand in front of Daniel’s face, and that’s when Daniel woke up from his reverie, “oh, no... I don’t dance, I’m the one who rap,” Daniel answered, still couldn’t tear his gaze from Eunhyuk’s face, made the younger blushed.
“W-what are you staring at?” Eunhyuk managed to say, eventhough he didn’t know wether it’s true that Daniel stare at him or not. He would be very embarassed if Daniel sais he didn’t.
“You’re... you’re beautiful when you smile like this.”
Eunhyuk’s cheeks felt hot from the compliment, did he heard right that Daniel just said that he’s beautiful? He couldn’t help to bite his lips to prevent a silly smile to form on his lips. What was he thinking? He look like a shy teenage boy just now in front of an older man that he barely know for two days, but he couldn’t deny that Daniel’s word could ignite something in him.
“So...” Daniel said and Eunhyuk had the urge to look up just to see that Daniel STILL didn’t turn away from his face, “meet me at 2 pm, tomorrow?”
Eunhyuk didn’t know why it sounded like Daniel asked him to go on a date, but he shook that thought off, it was silly of him he knows, but he couldn’t help the thumping of his heart anymore. Just because of one word, what did Daniel could do? “okay,” was the simple answer Eunhyuk could give.
That night, they continued to talk until 9 pm about what life did Daniel living in and promised that tomorrow would be Eunhyuk’s turn to talk about his. Daniel was never had a permanent job, he always work for 3 months on part-time job and then search for another and his days always spent by writing for himself or Epik High, he said he also write story, hoping the manuscript could be published. Daniel also lived by himself on a ‘wrecked-apartment’ by himself and told Eunhyuk that he wouldn’t be able to walk inside the so-called-home.
Daniel sent him to his apartment, actually this is the first time a ‘friend’ knew where he lived. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to make friend with anyone or even hide himself from the civilization, but they never ask. Only Sungmin and Kyuhyun knew exactly what was inside.
Eunhyuk drank one cup of coffee again even if he had promised Sungmin to just drank one and it included one cup he bought at the coffee shop. Sungmin wouldn’t know the truth, but a side of him would feel guilty if he betrayed his bestfriend. However, tonight it was kind of enough, the urge to sleep slowly come to him and he didn’t deny it anymore. He was just thinking about how tomorrow would be with Daniel and his heart seemed cannot rest peacefuly. He’s missing his old life, when he could dance freely with his free heart, nothing could ever replace the bliss of dance for Lee Hyukjae, but since he’s Eunhyuk now, could he ever reach those blisses again? Since he became Eunhyuk, nothing could reach his heart anymore, until tonight. It felt weird to be able to feel that again.
Eunhyuk slept on his bed that night, still dreaming about him, dancing like there’s no tomorrow until he left dancing alone, but at least there’s no dried tears on Eunhyuk’s cheeks the next morning. Because his heart didn’t allow him to do that.
***
“Hyukjae… finish your coffee before it gets cold!”
“No… you finish it!”
“If you don’t want this, why make coffee in the first place?”
“I just want to try it, because you look like a really happy person when you drink it!”
“Am I??”
“Yes… and I’m jealous because of that! Silly, why can I be jealous to such a thing that doesn’t even taste good in my mouth.”
“Jealous? You’re jealous just because a cup of coffee? Hyukjae, you’re so cute… of course I’m like a happy person when I drink coffee because I drink it in front of you, I drink something I really like in front of the person I love… I’d never been happy in my life like this. By the way… it’s already past midnight, Happy Birthday My Love!!”
Third Cup:A Drawer of Memory
Pairing: Donghae/Eunhyuk, Tablo/Eunhyuk, slight!Eunhyuk/Hyoyeon
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,661
Summary: The first cup of coffee never be able to make the memories go away, so he drinks the next cup of coffee to keep him awake from those sleeps he never wanted to have, or at least the dream on it.
Second Cup: Don’t miss out on the cup of eternity
It’s too early for us to fall asleep.
Please stay up a little longer.
Please, don’t miss out on the cup of eternity.
You and me.
Me and my coffee
Hyukjae was a bright and cheerful kid, but also very polite if it come to older people. He liked to dance everywhere he go since 7 and it sometimes made his mom embarassed but also proud. She never forbad Hyukjae to dance so when he was 14, his mom take him to a dance course although he didn’t ask for it. There, he met this adorable boy named Lee Donghae. The name felt funny in his mouth so he often said it to the other. They became good friends soon because everyday Hyukjae will make fun of him and he chase Hyukjae until they reached Hyukjae’s house.
Eventhough their house wasn’t close from each other, they always picked up each other to go to the course in the evening after school. Their school didn’t close either, so they only had course time to be together. Hyukjae and Donghae confessed to each other that they never had a friend who had the same interest and could understand them. So they made a promise to go to the same college.
From: Hae^^
Hyuk… today you go to campus by yourself, okay ? I got a thing to do first..
One day, Hyukjae got those text messages in an early morning before he went to shower. It’s strange to know that Donghae had something important beside him but he shrugged it off right then. He got his breakfast then walked alone to the college. He arrived at his class first, it was weird since the class would start in ten minutes. When he got boring with this quiet class, he heard a loud commotion come from the school backyard. Hyukjae went to the window far from the door and looked down – his class in 4th story – and his eyes widened.
There, in the middle of the yard, a big banner made from pieces with each piece held by one person and it made a love sign. Then the person tiped it over to the other side and it made two words, Hyuk – Hae. Hyukjae gasped in surprise. As he still shocked from it, he got a text message from Donghae again.
From: Hae^^
Be my boyfriend… go to a date with me… I Love You.
They soon became lovers. More or less there’s a change between them. One of them was which Donghae always kissed his lips before Hyukjae went inside his house after a long walk just because they wanted to spend more time together. Sometimes Donghae would slide his hand onto Hyukjae’s waist on the street beside just hold hands just so everyone would know that they are lovers now, not just bestfriends.
A year later Donghae got his own apartment. He once told Hyukjae to move in with him, but Hyukjae didn’t ready yet, but he came to his apartment almost everyday. He actually didn’t put a quite attention to how it would become. He, at first didn’t know that Donghae’s love was really pure for him, but when he knew it made him go crazy for this one man, only for him. After that, never Hyukjae left his side. Always on his sight 24/7.
Donghae worked a part-time job in one of the famous coffee shop on their town, not because he needed the money since he was rich, but he always liked coffee especially the smell of it. He would take more time to smell the scent of one cup of hot coffee before taking a sip of it. In comparison, Hyukjae loved ice cream, especially with strawberry for the topping. It wasn’t like he didn’t like to drink coffee, but he never been that addicted like Donghae. Once he got jealous for that stupid coffee, because Donghae rather went for a cup of coffee after he woke up, not to him.
It’s ridiculous though, how he managed to get used to Donghae being addicted to coffee, and then he slowly loved it when after Donghae drank a cup of hot coffee and kissed him, it had a different warm to his lips and mouth, it made him addicted too. Not to the coffee but to Donghae’s kiss.
It maybe because Eunhyuk can’t have those kisses again, everyday he will drink coffee. It has been two years since coffee became his dailly routine. From the moment he starts his day until the time he has to close his eyes – as if he can – yes, Eunhyuk never had a night worth of sleep since 3 years ago.
May 15, New York
“You’re late!” Bryan stated the obvious, “again!” he added, then sighed, “if you don’t want this job anymore, then tell me!” he said again as he massaged his own nape.
Eunhyuk gasped when he heard that, “how?—sir?!” he was in a panic state. Bryan never said it to him eventhough he always late, just a small scolding and then he would let Eunhyuk work again immediately.
Bryan huffed, “I don’t know what got into you, and I thought I could accustomed to it, but then again you prove that I’m wrong, you never change!” he kept his voice still down, but Eunhyuk knew that bryan was dead serious with this. He had been working for him for almost 3 years now.
“Bryan, s-sir, give me a second chance, please!!” Eunhyuk pleaded, he really didn’t know what would he do if he lost his only job, his only source of life in this foreign country.
“I don’t know Hyuk! But I’ll think of it... after you change yourself!” Bryan smiled was short after giving Eunhyuk a side glance, “I’m sorry, Eunhyuk... but I don’t think I can accept you if you still like this, as much as I like it when you around and of course helped, I have to be consistent with my job and dicipline with my time if I want to be a profesional!”
Eunhyuk bowed his head down, this was his consequent, he knew it would happen sooner or later, but still he could never get out of his habit eventhough the consequent could risk his life. “I’m sorry, sir.” Eunhyuk bowed to his boss. He knew that sorry would get him nowhere, Bryan looked really firm with his decision and Eunhyuk knew he was the one who dissapointing him. Bryan took him when he had no one to run to, to continue his life, he even taught him to do something that would help him, and to know that he was dissapointed because of Eunhyuk’s stupid habit, he really ashamed of what he had done.
“You can comeback anytime, but make sure that you have really made up your mind, I know something is bothering you all this time.” Bryan explained, even after what Eunhyuk did to him, Bryan always understood his condition.
“Thank you, Bryan, for everything, if it wasn’t you then I don’t know how to continue my life. I’m sorry!” Eunhyuk was in the verge of tears now, but he held it in.
Bryan nodded at Eunhyuk, “it’s hard for me also, but I’ve been thinking over it, that what you need to continue with your life wasn’t a job, but something else.” He said sincerely.
Eunhyuk tried to disgest what Bryan had said and realization hit him. It’s happening again, wasn’t it? People always easily saw through him like an open book, was he too obvious with his feelings, could he just once keep his sentiment inside and covered it with a closed cage so no one couldn’t notice it.
“I know...” Eunhyuk managed to say, suddenly the desire to be alone again barged into his soul, to be away from people “...I think I’ll get going now, if you excuse me!” and he left, but before he could turned the doorknow, he heard Bryan spoke.
“Just don’t forget you can comeback some other time!”
Eunhyuk then left with burden on his two shoulder, he thought of where to go this time, of where he would hang his life now, he surely wouldn’t back to his parents again eventhough he was sure that his parents wouldn’t neglect him, but he had chosen to leave back then and promise to live alone without worrying them. He sighed loudly, luckily there was no one on the elevator that would take him to the ground floor, and slided down the wall. He couldn’t take this anymore, he needed to be alone, with no one else to interfere with his life, without knowing that everyone in this world knew what on his heart. He wished that he just drowned in the sea or swallowed by the ground right here right now. He didn’t want to be ‘seen’ anymore.
Eunhyuk was in the middle of thinking how to hide himself when the elevator door opened and someone walked in without Eunhyuk noticing it and kept sitting on the elevator floor. “Eunhyuk?” the girl’s voice suddenly filled the silent air of Eunhyuk. He looked up just to see Hyoyeon smiled widely at him, “what are you doing, sitting down inside the elevator? And don’t you have a photo session with Bryan today?”
Eunhyuk stood up and fixed his mailbag on his shoulder, “Hyo, that—I get fired, just now,” he said and then smiled a sad smile.
“What?!!!” Hyoyeon screamed, shocked all written on her face.
“Yeah, I always late and I think I deserve that. It’s just about time..” Eunhyuk sighed and then chuckled to himself of how ironic his life was.
Hyoyeon just kept silent, didn’t know what to say anymore, if Bryan had made a decision, he would make sure that he did that. The problem was, how could he fire Eunhyuk who’d been with him since he treaded on photography world. The biggest thing of it all, Hyoyeon would never meet Eunhyuk again since she didn’t know anything about him except what he did in the office.
“Oh.. we’re here!” Eunhyuk said as the elevator dinged at the ground floor, “I’ll get going then, thank you, Hyo!” he smiled at her still sad expression.
“Can I ride you home?” Hyoyeon suddenly ask.
Eunhyuk frowned, “don’t you have work today? Beside I think I won’t be home yet now.” He could see Hyoyeon’s pout slightly, but ignored it, “bye, Hyo!” he turned from her.
“Eunhyuk...”
Eunhyuk turned back again to face Hyoyeon, “can I... umm, can we... meet again?” Eunhyuk tilted his head in confusion, why his co-worker acted like this, he never saw Hyoyeon in a sad condition before, she always had a bright and warm smile for everyone. Was it because he meant a lot to her? He thought he wasn’t important for anyone. “I mean... I didn’t have your number and I... didn’t know your house too, so... I thought it would be hard to...” she trailed off and smiled awkwardly.
Eunhyuk silent for a moment, but said “right, sorry for that...” he come closer to Hyoyeon and took out his cellphone, gave her his number and his address. “that’s it, Hyo! Of course we’ll meet again, I have to go now!” and he left before Hyoyeon could speak again.
He wandered on New York’s street, with no particular destination. He planned to just being alone today in a place where many people wouldn’t come and stay there until night. So, maybe Kyuhyun’s shop’s rooftop would be a nice place at this moment, and also tell the couple that their friend now was jobless.
***
May 16, Seoul
“Yoona, where is my coffee?” Donghae asked as he stil fixed his tie on the kitchen door, looking at his wife’s frame from behind and then returned to fix the tie again.
Yoona turned to his husband and smiled her most beautiful smile, but it vanished again as he saw Donghae didn’t even looking at her and just busy with his red tie, “it’s on the dining table, Hae!”
He walked to the said table and drank his black and bitter coffee to keep him awake when suddenly Yoona grabbed his hand that had been holding his unfinished stupid tie and fix it for him, “you’ve been sleep late lately, don’t you?” she asked softly.
“Yeah, I was working.” Donghae simply answered. It was the truth but also not actually true. The truth was he wasn’t sleeping at all – at night – this past 3 days. He’s working, right, but work wouldn’t take much of his time. Something haunted him, made him couldn’t even close his eyes, because it would come when it was dark around him, eventhough it was light that come, it was still miserable.
“Don’t overwork yourself, it’s not healthy.” Yoona said as she rub her palm on Donghae’s chest.
Donghae finished his coffee quickly, because first it’s been 7.10 in the morning and second he wasn’t comfortable with Yoona’s hand on his body, “I have to go..” he said before kissing her forehead and leave, “bye.”
After Donghae settled himself on his car, he sighed and glanced over their house. He knew that Yoona knew what he felt, they’d been living together for almost 3 years now as a spouse and they’d revealed what on each other’s mind from the start, that they didn’t love each other. It had been fine for the first year, they could understand each other and tried to keep their own side from the other. But then the demand kept compulsing from here and there and although Donghae want to keep it like the way it used to be, Yoona couldn’t do that anymore. She tried to enter Donghae’s side until Donghae couldn’t help but let her be, for the sake of his and her family. It didn’t run smoothly, instead Donghae made more barrier on his side without even he realize it. The thing was he felt guilty toward her.
In the office, Donghae always been busy with his work for the company. He was the heir to this company so that’s why he’d been forced to listen to what the elder said with no objection. He had to take care of this company to continue what his father had built. At 12.30 pm, just as Donghae finished his lunch, the phone on his office rang and he press the button so his secretary could speak, “sir, there’s a Kim Kangin on the phone.” She said. Donghae’s eyes widened from what he heard, did he hear right? Is this that Kangin she’s talking about?
“Put him on the line!” he ordered.
“Donghae?” the Kangin spoke.
“Hyung?!! Is this really you?” Donghae asked with enthusiasm, he’d been waiting for this call for months.
“Ya!! Who else, idiot!!” another voice spoke, this was more gentle eventhough the tone was higher.
“Teuki-hyung!!” Donghae laughed as he heard the voice he’d been missing, “how are you? And when are you coming home? Since Kangin-hyung back from the army, you’ve been nowhere to find.”
Leeteuk chuckled hearing his little cousin whining, “we’re fine, Hae! We’re still in Hawaii now and tonight we’ll be off from here.”
“You’ll be home again, yay!!” Donghae cheered happily like a little kid, didn’t remember that he’s now a big man in suit and a director for one of the biggest company in Korea, sitting on a high comfortable seat inside a sky-high tower.
“No Hae, we’re not coming back home yet, there’s place we wanted to come to.” Leeteuk said and then silent for a moment, “Hae, we found him,” he added, and Donghae couldn’t breathe.
After a long minute Donghae kept silent, made his two hyungs worried to dead, Leeteuk called him, “Donghae are you still there?”
Donghae’s eyes that widened in shock just now closed tight and he sent a silent prayer to God for granted his wish, “wh-where is he?” Donghae managed to say.
“We’re not too sure of where the exact he is, but we know that he’s in New York now,” Leeteuk said, “Hae, we have an agreement, don’t we?” he added with a warning mixed with anxiousness in his tone.
Donghae kept silent again and lowered his head and inhaled deeply, restrained a threatening tears from his eyes, despite how painful his heart at the moment to hear that thing again, to fall down, “yeah, I know hyung.”
“Eventhough I know that it won’t change everything between you and him, but... you’re trying aren’t you?”
Donghae turned his chair in the direction of a big window behind him and gazed through it into the space outside, Seoul city in the afternoon, but his mind just focused to the horizon on far away, hoping that he could see what behind it. He knew for sure that if he could, he would find him there. However, it just proved him that he wasn’t trying, he tried but he just couldn’t anymore, he’d given up on trying to forget the man he loved most, “I tried, hyung,” Donghae answered honestly. Didn’t care if he broke the agreement, he never thought that it would ever be influential for him, “but I just... can’t anymore.”
Leeteuk sighed loudly, “as expected!” but then Donghae could feel the man on the other line smiling, “think I couldn’t do anything then, but just remember, don’t do stupid thing on everyone, didn’t want someone to get hurt!”
Donghae smiled a sorrowful smile, “I get it, hyung! Thank you for... everything,” Donghae said, holding back the tears. For he knew that even if he didn’t do anything stupid and everything went the way it was, someone would certain be hurt, and that was him, but it’s okay, it always be alright, as long as nobody’s hurt because of him.
After he hung up with Eeteuk-hyung, who happened to be his dearest oldest cousin, his only relative that supported him with everything he did because Eeteuk was the one who understand Donghae the most. Especially when Donghae’s parents forced him to marry, at that time it was the only time that Eeteuk held a brief for Donghae in front of his parents, saying that Donghae didnt need to marry anyone else but the person he loved, Donghae couldn’t get his work done. Knowing that his love still could be reach, he couldn’t help but think of how he would do to meet him. It would be hard, he knew, but sooner or later he would surely come for him.
They had been apart for more than 3 years. Hyukjae had told Donghae that he was going, but never told him where he would go. He always believed that Hyukjae went to only-God-knows-where to calm himself down and tried to accept what had become Donghae’s condition was back then. They never broke up, since Donghae told Hyukjae that they could still be together despite what his status was, they could still play hide and seek, but eventhough Hyukjae didn’t object to it, there was never an answer coming from him. So Hyukjae just went with promise to be back, but until now, there were even no calls to report how he’s doing and especially where was he.
“Promise me that you would never leave me!” Hyukjae demanded one night before Donghae had to tell him about his marriage. Donghae stunned, how could he asked that when Donghae would exactly betray it if he made the promise.
“Hyuk... I have something to tell you,”Donghae managed to say, his heart beating so fast with anxiety of what would Hyukjae react to the news, “I’m getting married,” he said finally.
Hyukjae just stared at Donghae with eyes widened and blinked faster then bursted out laughing, “that’s a lame joke, Hae!”
Donghae sighed and there was a well of tears in his eyes, “Hyuk, I’m serious.”
“No, you don’t!!” Hyukjae denied again, he, of course, would never believe in such statement, Donghae had made a promise to marry him someday, and that he only loved him, and he wanted to believe in it forever.
“I am, Hyuk! It’s my father... he forced me to get married for the sake of the company,” Donghae explained to his lover who kept shaking his head, eyes didn’t want to meet the other’s. Donghae cupped his face to make him looked into his own tearing eyes, “look Hyuk, I’ll said this and you better believed in me,” Eunhyuk now couldn’t stop the tears to fall from his eyes again, and after a nod, Donghae spoke again, “I’m getting married won’t effect to what we are, I love you and always love you and nothing in this world can change that.”
“No!! How can you say that it won’t change anything! It means that you’re not mine anymore! Donghae, you’re MINE!” Hyukjae cried harder, he was now clutching tightly at Donghae’s shirt and then hitting his chest quiet hard.
“I’m yours, Hyukjae, always yours, you hear me!” Donghae pulled him into an embrace to soothe him, but Hyukjae couldn’t staying still, he kept struggling on Donghae’s hold, so Donghae had to hold him tighter. When Hyukjae seemed calm enough, Donghae lift him bridal style to bring him to bed and Hyukjae instinctively circled his arms on Donghae’s neck until they reach their bedroom and both of them laying in each others arm for the rest of the night.
***
May 16, New York
“Yes, Min... I’ll get enough sleep [...] I’ll get home soon, I just come by a coffee shop [...] I promise to just drink one cup [...] okay, bye [...] I love you too!” Eunhyuk sighed after he hung up on Sungmin, the pink-haired boy sometimes could be strict and bother him too much. It made Eunhyuk wanted to be alone more, but he knew Sungmin did that because he care.
It was still 07.30 in the evening and the coffee shop was not full of people at this kind of hour. So after he ordered his coffee, Eunhyuk went to find a seat and surprise to see someone wave his hand towards him, he glanced over his shoulder in case the person calling someone else behind him, but there’s no one there. Eunhyuk waved back before walking to the man in the same spot where they meet for the first time.
“Hello! You’re here early...” Daniel said.
Eunhyuk smiled before taking a seat opposite the older man, “what? You always come here at this time?” he asked.
Daniel smiled back and Eunhyuk could see the resemblance of him on the smoky eyes man, “I’m off my work at six and often hang in here until the shop close if I have nowhere to go... what about you, I never see you in this kind of time?”
Being asked made Eunhyuk lowered his head but a sad smile formed in his lips nonetheless, “I’m fired, this morning to be exact...” he answered and Daniel’s face showed his sorry but Eunhyuk shook his head, “but I’m fine, really... I just feel a slight regret because this all is my fault.”
“Your fault?”
“Yeah, I late for work almost everyday, so it’s just about time, right?” Eunhyuk chuckled wholeheartedly. He slowly accepted to himself that he wasn’t perfect, never always be perfect for everything, but at least he must told himself that he was perfect for himself, better off alone.
“So, what will yo do after this?” Daniel asked again.
Eunhyuk shrugged his shoulder, “I don’t know, maybe lazying around until I got myself another job, I really don’t have anything to do if I don’t have any job.”
“...or maybe you could join me sometimes,” Daniel looked into Eunhyuk’s eyes with interest.
“What do you do, by the way?” Eunhyuk asked Daniel who still looking at him with hope.
“I have this community called Epik High, and we do rap and dance. Are you interested in thing like this?” Daniel explained and Eunhyuk’s eyes twinkling when he heard dance.
“Dance? I love dance!” Eunhyuk yelped with enthusiasm, it’s been a long time since he heard the word dance and dance itself, eventhough dance also the one who brought the bad memory but he couldn’t deny that he really missed to be able to dance again, “you also dance, Daniel?” Eunhyuk even asked Daniel with wider smile.
However, Daniel seemed so lost in his own world in looking to Eunhyuk’s face so Eunhyuk had to waved his hand in front of Daniel’s face, and that’s when Daniel woke up from his reverie, “oh, no... I don’t dance, I’m the one who rap,” Daniel answered, still couldn’t tear his gaze from Eunhyuk’s face, made the younger blushed.
“W-what are you staring at?” Eunhyuk managed to say, eventhough he didn’t know wether it’s true that Daniel stare at him or not. He would be very embarassed if Daniel sais he didn’t.
“You’re... you’re beautiful when you smile like this.”
Eunhyuk’s cheeks felt hot from the compliment, did he heard right that Daniel just said that he’s beautiful? He couldn’t help to bite his lips to prevent a silly smile to form on his lips. What was he thinking? He look like a shy teenage boy just now in front of an older man that he barely know for two days, but he couldn’t deny that Daniel’s word could ignite something in him.
“So...” Daniel said and Eunhyuk had the urge to look up just to see that Daniel STILL didn’t turn away from his face, “meet me at 2 pm, tomorrow?”
Eunhyuk didn’t know why it sounded like Daniel asked him to go on a date, but he shook that thought off, it was silly of him he knows, but he couldn’t help the thumping of his heart anymore. Just because of one word, what did Daniel could do? “okay,” was the simple answer Eunhyuk could give.
That night, they continued to talk until 9 pm about what life did Daniel living in and promised that tomorrow would be Eunhyuk’s turn to talk about his. Daniel was never had a permanent job, he always work for 3 months on part-time job and then search for another and his days always spent by writing for himself or Epik High, he said he also write story, hoping the manuscript could be published. Daniel also lived by himself on a ‘wrecked-apartment’ by himself and told Eunhyuk that he wouldn’t be able to walk inside the so-called-home.
Daniel sent him to his apartment, actually this is the first time a ‘friend’ knew where he lived. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to make friend with anyone or even hide himself from the civilization, but they never ask. Only Sungmin and Kyuhyun knew exactly what was inside.
Eunhyuk drank one cup of coffee again even if he had promised Sungmin to just drank one and it included one cup he bought at the coffee shop. Sungmin wouldn’t know the truth, but a side of him would feel guilty if he betrayed his bestfriend. However, tonight it was kind of enough, the urge to sleep slowly come to him and he didn’t deny it anymore. He was just thinking about how tomorrow would be with Daniel and his heart seemed cannot rest peacefuly. He’s missing his old life, when he could dance freely with his free heart, nothing could ever replace the bliss of dance for Lee Hyukjae, but since he’s Eunhyuk now, could he ever reach those blisses again? Since he became Eunhyuk, nothing could reach his heart anymore, until tonight. It felt weird to be able to feel that again.
Eunhyuk slept on his bed that night, still dreaming about him, dancing like there’s no tomorrow until he left dancing alone, but at least there’s no dried tears on Eunhyuk’s cheeks the next morning. Because his heart didn’t allow him to do that.
***
“Hyukjae… finish your coffee before it gets cold!”
“No… you finish it!”
“If you don’t want this, why make coffee in the first place?”
“I just want to try it, because you look like a really happy person when you drink it!”
“Am I??”
“Yes… and I’m jealous because of that! Silly, why can I be jealous to such a thing that doesn’t even taste good in my mouth.”
“Jealous? You’re jealous just because a cup of coffee? Hyukjae, you’re so cute… of course I’m like a happy person when I drink coffee because I drink it in front of you, I drink something I really like in front of the person I love… I’d never been happy in my life like this. By the way… it’s already past midnight, Happy Birthday My Love!!”
Third Cup:A Drawer of Memory
2011/01/21
[OneShot] HanChul - Raw Emotion
Title: Raw Emotion
Pairing: Hankyung/Heechul, almostbroken!Hanchul
Rating: R
Word Count: 1,576
Summary: For two months Heechul didn’t see his boyrfriend and to know that he was in a place where he shouldn’t be made the anger inside of him rose.
Warning: Character death.
A/N1:I just think i need to post this before my 'primitive runaway', there won't be internet access ToT
I didn’t hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions never maybe
And I’m not kind if you betrayed me
So who the hell are you to save me
I never would’ve made it
“It has been 2 fucking months. He isn’t coming back and now I’m sure he won’t. Fucking coward!” Heechul cursed before blowing on the smoke he’d been taking from 2 hours ago, and this was his 6th cigarettes. Smell of alcohol and of course smoky, filled the almost dilapidated apartment, Hankyung’s apartment.
Two months ago, Heechul caught his boyfriend walk hand in hand with a girl, and to say the truth, it wasn’t the first time. Heechul thought he would never be able to count on how many people that had been Hankyung’s lover behind his back including people he caught with. But of course Hankyung would never tell him that he actually cheated on him, a thousand of lie had been said by that soft lips Heechul knew by heart, he thought would never said such a sin. However, he always been a fool to trust those lies. He was the fool one in their 2 years of relationship and the foolest thing he did for that stupid chinese man was to move in with him in this little apatment of his and left his luxurious one behind. Of course Heechul would accept it, he loved him anyway.
But this was just out of control, he didn’t see his damn-beloved boyfriend for 2 months already and he just cut off their communication a month ago. He knew what Hankyung doing right now but he didn’t know where he was and Heechul just got crazy because of that. Heechul really loved Hankyung since he never be loved by anyone like Hankyung loves him and it was one of the reason why he could give everything to this Chinaman. But now he realized that his love had been played by Hankyung, his used to be pure love had been tainted by the love itself.
If you needed love well then ask for love
Could’ve given love now I’m taking love
“I swear I’ll kill him if I found him!!” Heechul cursed once again, he squeezed the beer can he held then threw it into the nearest wall. This was not the first time he said those words, but it was never coming true, he was too stupid that time and just too scared to lose Hankyung, but his pain now couldn’t be healed by anything anymore, he just wanted to kill the only one he loved right here right now.
The bell rang and Heechul immediately jumped from his spot to the door in just a mere second and opened the door impatiently. A mailman with box stood there, “excuse me, is this Kim Heechul’s apartment?” he asked.
“Yes,”
“Oh, there is a packet for you, sir,” the mailman said as he gave the box to Heechul, “I thought the old landlady there gave the wrong information,” he continued.
Heechul frowned, “what did you say? Which landlady?”
The mailman looked up at Heechul, “the landlady from where I first delivered this package, I saw someone get into your apartment at Gyungdeong, I knocked first but didn’t get any answer, then I asked the landlady and she told me that this is your new address, sir.”
Heechul gasped as realization hit him, “you sure there was someone in my old apartment?”
The mailman nodded in confusion.
“and you didn’t asked the landlady who’s the people in there?” Heechul kept pestering the innocent mailman.
“I thought it was obvious that someone had bought your old apartment already, sir,” the mailman answered now.
“Okay, thank you!” and Heechul closed the door right in front of the mailman face who’s still confused.
Heechul dropped the package on the coffe table and glanced on the sender’s name, it was his old friend that still didn’t know his new address. It wasn’t important now. The great thing was, he knew where his stupid boyfriend was. He never selled his apartment as Hankyung told him not to. Heechul knew now what the motive behind it, so that he could sleep with any whore he meet on a luxurious apartment and he chose Heechul’s apartment because that would be the last place Heechul thought where Hankyung would be. This just too much, and suddenly the love he felt earlier was replaced by hate. He only wanted to kill Hankyung right now.
Then Heechul searched in the apartment for his old apartment key that didn’t in Hankyung’s hand. He put it somewhere in his closet and finally found it on his old coat’s pocket. After that he rummaged his drawer for something he sure would be convenient for the moment, a gun. Heechul just couldn’t take it anymore, he’d make sure that the stupid Chinaman would be die by tonight. He put his black coat and got out of the apartment.
Heechul drove his blue metallic Honda Civic faster than necessary on the busy way of the city. Anger, hate and betrayal all on his face at once. His old apartment didn’t far from Hankyung’s and he could reach it within 15 minutes. After he arrived in front of the apartment, he didn’t care to park his car and just went straightaway to his old apartment. He sure that someone would notice him as the dweller here.
As he stood in front of his door, he opened it and dropped his jaw as he saw that despite no one’s seen at the living room, there was indeed people here. He curled his fist and barged into his room. There on the white sheet of his bed laying two naked man. One of them just startled and seemed embarassed on Heechul and the other one had so much expressions on his face. Shocked, scared, apologetic all at once.
“So this is where you hide, dear? Nice place!” Heechul started with a lot of sarcasm on it.
“H-Heechul I c-can explain!” Hankyung said with fear as he raised his hand in defeat.
“Thank you! But I DON’T need that!!” Heechul yelled and the next thing Hankyung knew was Heechul pointing a gun at him, “I’m waiting and waiting, for you to come but you didn’t even fucking call me! And here I thought we would never come to this place again yet you’re hiding here and fuck your whore in MY BED!!”
Heechul and Hankyung etangled in a staring contest when it’s coming. This was what Heechul hated the most, he hated how he loved Hankyung so much till he could drown on his eyes. Because of mixture of hatred and longing, Heechul let his tears poured down his cheek. How couldn’t he hate Hankyung despite all the pain he brought him? Heechul should have left long ago, but he just couldn’t, his love for Hankyung was priceless. Apparently the pain was also unbearable, it’s so painful he could just die with his stupid love.
“Heechul, honey, please!” Hankyung plead again.
“Don’t CALL me that!!” and his tears increased, the gun on his hand that still pointed to Hankyung also shaking as his whole body did so.
“What the hell is going on?!!!” the man beside Hankyung screamed suddenly and two pairs of eyes diverted to him.
“Sungmin, baby, stay away from this, please!” Heechul could hear Hankyung whispered and it made his stomach curled in disgust. It’s just another reason for him to kill Hankyung, he just admitted that he’d been cheating all this time.
I would have bled to make you happy
You didn’t need to treat me that way
And now you’ve beat me at my own game
And now I found you sleeping soundly
And now your love is screaming loudly
I hear a sound and hit the ground
“Do you know that you just proved me that I was right! Thank you!” Heechul cocked a rifle for firing and the sound frightened the two male that still on the bed.
“Heechul, you can’t do this! You know that I love you right!” Hankyung begged and Heechul suddenly weakened on the feet but kept trying to stood still.
And it’s not my fault cause you both deserve
What is coming now so don’t say a word
“Don’t say that or I’ll never be able to get rid of you!!!” Heechul screamed.
“But I honestly love you!” Hankyung stated firmly.
Heechul shook his head in frustation and then glared at Hankyung again in anger and eyes brimmed with tears, he screamed loudly, then...
BANG!!
Wake up call caught you in the morning
with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore... care about me
I don’t think so...
The gun had been shot, blood had been shed, the white sheet had stained with angry red from the body that shot right on the chest. A gasp heard simultaneously with the sound of a dropped gun. Heechul eyes widened and he suddenly felt that the room had suffocated him, he wanted to run to feel the air that suddenly left him but his feet glued to the floor. Finally he let himself fell on the floor and tried to suck the residue of air around him and let the tears fell down again.
Didn’t know for how long Heechul let himself stay like that without a single thought, just let the pain took control of him. It felt like hour until he was aware that now he’d been alone, the sound around him seemed vanished, silence, and suddenly he liked it. He should go but he still couldn’t move. Then he heard footsteps on the carpeted floor approaching him and he scared of the sound until he felt arms held him and it felt familiar. Heechul closed his eyes and let the arms hugged him and he felt safe on those. He continued to close his eyes because he was afraid that if he opened it the warmth would go again so he let himself relax in that body until he felt he’d been pulled into his feet.
“We should go...” the person that had the arms whispered on his ears but Heechul couldn’t help but cried again, on his chest this time between pain and relieved that he still could hear the voice again.
Six foot tall came without a warning
So I had to shoot him dead...
He won’t come around here anymore, some around here
I don’t feel so bad...
A/N2:I only can write this until here, because this is the original concept and if I keep on writing I don’t know where it will lead me, but a sequel seems fine (don’t hope too much though! ^^). Blame the emo in my soul!! Oh, and the lyric, I just think that I should insert it, but don’t mind it if you think that it doesn’t suit the story. Just want you to know that I got inspiration for the title and the story from this song, Maroon 5 – Wake Up Call.
Finished: Thursday, December 30, 2010 , 10.45 pm
Pairing: Hankyung/Heechul, almostbroken!Hanchul
Rating: R
Word Count: 1,576
Summary: For two months Heechul didn’t see his boyrfriend and to know that he was in a place where he shouldn’t be made the anger inside of him rose.
Warning: Character death.
A/N1:I just think i need to post this before my 'primitive runaway', there won't be internet access ToT
I didn’t hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions never maybe
And I’m not kind if you betrayed me
So who the hell are you to save me
I never would’ve made it
“It has been 2 fucking months. He isn’t coming back and now I’m sure he won’t. Fucking coward!” Heechul cursed before blowing on the smoke he’d been taking from 2 hours ago, and this was his 6th cigarettes. Smell of alcohol and of course smoky, filled the almost dilapidated apartment, Hankyung’s apartment.
Two months ago, Heechul caught his boyfriend walk hand in hand with a girl, and to say the truth, it wasn’t the first time. Heechul thought he would never be able to count on how many people that had been Hankyung’s lover behind his back including people he caught with. But of course Hankyung would never tell him that he actually cheated on him, a thousand of lie had been said by that soft lips Heechul knew by heart, he thought would never said such a sin. However, he always been a fool to trust those lies. He was the fool one in their 2 years of relationship and the foolest thing he did for that stupid chinese man was to move in with him in this little apatment of his and left his luxurious one behind. Of course Heechul would accept it, he loved him anyway.
But this was just out of control, he didn’t see his damn-beloved boyfriend for 2 months already and he just cut off their communication a month ago. He knew what Hankyung doing right now but he didn’t know where he was and Heechul just got crazy because of that. Heechul really loved Hankyung since he never be loved by anyone like Hankyung loves him and it was one of the reason why he could give everything to this Chinaman. But now he realized that his love had been played by Hankyung, his used to be pure love had been tainted by the love itself.
If you needed love well then ask for love
Could’ve given love now I’m taking love
“I swear I’ll kill him if I found him!!” Heechul cursed once again, he squeezed the beer can he held then threw it into the nearest wall. This was not the first time he said those words, but it was never coming true, he was too stupid that time and just too scared to lose Hankyung, but his pain now couldn’t be healed by anything anymore, he just wanted to kill the only one he loved right here right now.
The bell rang and Heechul immediately jumped from his spot to the door in just a mere second and opened the door impatiently. A mailman with box stood there, “excuse me, is this Kim Heechul’s apartment?” he asked.
“Yes,”
“Oh, there is a packet for you, sir,” the mailman said as he gave the box to Heechul, “I thought the old landlady there gave the wrong information,” he continued.
Heechul frowned, “what did you say? Which landlady?”
The mailman looked up at Heechul, “the landlady from where I first delivered this package, I saw someone get into your apartment at Gyungdeong, I knocked first but didn’t get any answer, then I asked the landlady and she told me that this is your new address, sir.”
Heechul gasped as realization hit him, “you sure there was someone in my old apartment?”
The mailman nodded in confusion.
“and you didn’t asked the landlady who’s the people in there?” Heechul kept pestering the innocent mailman.
“I thought it was obvious that someone had bought your old apartment already, sir,” the mailman answered now.
“Okay, thank you!” and Heechul closed the door right in front of the mailman face who’s still confused.
Heechul dropped the package on the coffe table and glanced on the sender’s name, it was his old friend that still didn’t know his new address. It wasn’t important now. The great thing was, he knew where his stupid boyfriend was. He never selled his apartment as Hankyung told him not to. Heechul knew now what the motive behind it, so that he could sleep with any whore he meet on a luxurious apartment and he chose Heechul’s apartment because that would be the last place Heechul thought where Hankyung would be. This just too much, and suddenly the love he felt earlier was replaced by hate. He only wanted to kill Hankyung right now.
Then Heechul searched in the apartment for his old apartment key that didn’t in Hankyung’s hand. He put it somewhere in his closet and finally found it on his old coat’s pocket. After that he rummaged his drawer for something he sure would be convenient for the moment, a gun. Heechul just couldn’t take it anymore, he’d make sure that the stupid Chinaman would be die by tonight. He put his black coat and got out of the apartment.
Heechul drove his blue metallic Honda Civic faster than necessary on the busy way of the city. Anger, hate and betrayal all on his face at once. His old apartment didn’t far from Hankyung’s and he could reach it within 15 minutes. After he arrived in front of the apartment, he didn’t care to park his car and just went straightaway to his old apartment. He sure that someone would notice him as the dweller here.
As he stood in front of his door, he opened it and dropped his jaw as he saw that despite no one’s seen at the living room, there was indeed people here. He curled his fist and barged into his room. There on the white sheet of his bed laying two naked man. One of them just startled and seemed embarassed on Heechul and the other one had so much expressions on his face. Shocked, scared, apologetic all at once.
“So this is where you hide, dear? Nice place!” Heechul started with a lot of sarcasm on it.
“H-Heechul I c-can explain!” Hankyung said with fear as he raised his hand in defeat.
“Thank you! But I DON’T need that!!” Heechul yelled and the next thing Hankyung knew was Heechul pointing a gun at him, “I’m waiting and waiting, for you to come but you didn’t even fucking call me! And here I thought we would never come to this place again yet you’re hiding here and fuck your whore in MY BED!!”
Heechul and Hankyung etangled in a staring contest when it’s coming. This was what Heechul hated the most, he hated how he loved Hankyung so much till he could drown on his eyes. Because of mixture of hatred and longing, Heechul let his tears poured down his cheek. How couldn’t he hate Hankyung despite all the pain he brought him? Heechul should have left long ago, but he just couldn’t, his love for Hankyung was priceless. Apparently the pain was also unbearable, it’s so painful he could just die with his stupid love.
“Heechul, honey, please!” Hankyung plead again.
“Don’t CALL me that!!” and his tears increased, the gun on his hand that still pointed to Hankyung also shaking as his whole body did so.
“What the hell is going on?!!!” the man beside Hankyung screamed suddenly and two pairs of eyes diverted to him.
“Sungmin, baby, stay away from this, please!” Heechul could hear Hankyung whispered and it made his stomach curled in disgust. It’s just another reason for him to kill Hankyung, he just admitted that he’d been cheating all this time.
I would have bled to make you happy
You didn’t need to treat me that way
And now you’ve beat me at my own game
And now I found you sleeping soundly
And now your love is screaming loudly
I hear a sound and hit the ground
“Do you know that you just proved me that I was right! Thank you!” Heechul cocked a rifle for firing and the sound frightened the two male that still on the bed.
“Heechul, you can’t do this! You know that I love you right!” Hankyung begged and Heechul suddenly weakened on the feet but kept trying to stood still.
And it’s not my fault cause you both deserve
What is coming now so don’t say a word
“Don’t say that or I’ll never be able to get rid of you!!!” Heechul screamed.
“But I honestly love you!” Hankyung stated firmly.
Heechul shook his head in frustation and then glared at Hankyung again in anger and eyes brimmed with tears, he screamed loudly, then...
BANG!!
Wake up call caught you in the morning
with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore... care about me
I don’t think so...
The gun had been shot, blood had been shed, the white sheet had stained with angry red from the body that shot right on the chest. A gasp heard simultaneously with the sound of a dropped gun. Heechul eyes widened and he suddenly felt that the room had suffocated him, he wanted to run to feel the air that suddenly left him but his feet glued to the floor. Finally he let himself fell on the floor and tried to suck the residue of air around him and let the tears fell down again.
Didn’t know for how long Heechul let himself stay like that without a single thought, just let the pain took control of him. It felt like hour until he was aware that now he’d been alone, the sound around him seemed vanished, silence, and suddenly he liked it. He should go but he still couldn’t move. Then he heard footsteps on the carpeted floor approaching him and he scared of the sound until he felt arms held him and it felt familiar. Heechul closed his eyes and let the arms hugged him and he felt safe on those. He continued to close his eyes because he was afraid that if he opened it the warmth would go again so he let himself relax in that body until he felt he’d been pulled into his feet.
“We should go...” the person that had the arms whispered on his ears but Heechul couldn’t help but cried again, on his chest this time between pain and relieved that he still could hear the voice again.
Six foot tall came without a warning
So I had to shoot him dead...
He won’t come around here anymore, some around here
I don’t feel so bad...
A/N2:I only can write this until here, because this is the original concept and if I keep on writing I don’t know where it will lead me, but a sequel seems fine (don’t hope too much though! ^^). Blame the emo in my soul!! Oh, and the lyric, I just think that I should insert it, but don’t mind it if you think that it doesn’t suit the story. Just want you to know that I got inspiration for the title and the story from this song, Maroon 5 – Wake Up Call.
Finished: Thursday, December 30, 2010 , 10.45 pm
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