Title: Raw Emotion
Pairing: Hankyung/Heechul, almostbroken!Hanchul
Rating: R
Word Count: 1,576
Summary: For two months Heechul didn’t see his boyrfriend and to know that he was in a place where he shouldn’t be made the anger inside of him rose.
Warning: Character death.
A/N1:I just think i need to post this before my 'primitive runaway', there won't be internet access ToT
I didn’t hear what you were saying
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions never maybe
And I’m not kind if you betrayed me
So who the hell are you to save me
I never would’ve made it
“It has been 2 fucking months. He isn’t coming back and now I’m sure he won’t. Fucking coward!” Heechul cursed before blowing on the smoke he’d been taking from 2 hours ago, and this was his 6th cigarettes. Smell of alcohol and of course smoky, filled the almost dilapidated apartment, Hankyung’s apartment.
Two months ago, Heechul caught his boyfriend walk hand in hand with a girl, and to say the truth, it wasn’t the first time. Heechul thought he would never be able to count on how many people that had been Hankyung’s lover behind his back including people he caught with. But of course Hankyung would never tell him that he actually cheated on him, a thousand of lie had been said by that soft lips Heechul knew by heart, he thought would never said such a sin. However, he always been a fool to trust those lies. He was the fool one in their 2 years of relationship and the foolest thing he did for that stupid chinese man was to move in with him in this little apatment of his and left his luxurious one behind. Of course Heechul would accept it, he loved him anyway.
But this was just out of control, he didn’t see his damn-beloved boyfriend for 2 months already and he just cut off their communication a month ago. He knew what Hankyung doing right now but he didn’t know where he was and Heechul just got crazy because of that. Heechul really loved Hankyung since he never be loved by anyone like Hankyung loves him and it was one of the reason why he could give everything to this Chinaman. But now he realized that his love had been played by Hankyung, his used to be pure love had been tainted by the love itself.
If you needed love well then ask for love
Could’ve given love now I’m taking love
“I swear I’ll kill him if I found him!!” Heechul cursed once again, he squeezed the beer can he held then threw it into the nearest wall. This was not the first time he said those words, but it was never coming true, he was too stupid that time and just too scared to lose Hankyung, but his pain now couldn’t be healed by anything anymore, he just wanted to kill the only one he loved right here right now.
The bell rang and Heechul immediately jumped from his spot to the door in just a mere second and opened the door impatiently. A mailman with box stood there, “excuse me, is this Kim Heechul’s apartment?” he asked.
“Yes,”
“Oh, there is a packet for you, sir,” the mailman said as he gave the box to Heechul, “I thought the old landlady there gave the wrong information,” he continued.
Heechul frowned, “what did you say? Which landlady?”
The mailman looked up at Heechul, “the landlady from where I first delivered this package, I saw someone get into your apartment at Gyungdeong, I knocked first but didn’t get any answer, then I asked the landlady and she told me that this is your new address, sir.”
Heechul gasped as realization hit him, “you sure there was someone in my old apartment?”
The mailman nodded in confusion.
“and you didn’t asked the landlady who’s the people in there?” Heechul kept pestering the innocent mailman.
“I thought it was obvious that someone had bought your old apartment already, sir,” the mailman answered now.
“Okay, thank you!” and Heechul closed the door right in front of the mailman face who’s still confused.
Heechul dropped the package on the coffe table and glanced on the sender’s name, it was his old friend that still didn’t know his new address. It wasn’t important now. The great thing was, he knew where his stupid boyfriend was. He never selled his apartment as Hankyung told him not to. Heechul knew now what the motive behind it, so that he could sleep with any whore he meet on a luxurious apartment and he chose Heechul’s apartment because that would be the last place Heechul thought where Hankyung would be. This just too much, and suddenly the love he felt earlier was replaced by hate. He only wanted to kill Hankyung right now.
Then Heechul searched in the apartment for his old apartment key that didn’t in Hankyung’s hand. He put it somewhere in his closet and finally found it on his old coat’s pocket. After that he rummaged his drawer for something he sure would be convenient for the moment, a gun. Heechul just couldn’t take it anymore, he’d make sure that the stupid Chinaman would be die by tonight. He put his black coat and got out of the apartment.
Heechul drove his blue metallic Honda Civic faster than necessary on the busy way of the city. Anger, hate and betrayal all on his face at once. His old apartment didn’t far from Hankyung’s and he could reach it within 15 minutes. After he arrived in front of the apartment, he didn’t care to park his car and just went straightaway to his old apartment. He sure that someone would notice him as the dweller here.
As he stood in front of his door, he opened it and dropped his jaw as he saw that despite no one’s seen at the living room, there was indeed people here. He curled his fist and barged into his room. There on the white sheet of his bed laying two naked man. One of them just startled and seemed embarassed on Heechul and the other one had so much expressions on his face. Shocked, scared, apologetic all at once.
“So this is where you hide, dear? Nice place!” Heechul started with a lot of sarcasm on it.
“H-Heechul I c-can explain!” Hankyung said with fear as he raised his hand in defeat.
“Thank you! But I DON’T need that!!” Heechul yelled and the next thing Hankyung knew was Heechul pointing a gun at him, “I’m waiting and waiting, for you to come but you didn’t even fucking call me! And here I thought we would never come to this place again yet you’re hiding here and fuck your whore in MY BED!!”
Heechul and Hankyung etangled in a staring contest when it’s coming. This was what Heechul hated the most, he hated how he loved Hankyung so much till he could drown on his eyes. Because of mixture of hatred and longing, Heechul let his tears poured down his cheek. How couldn’t he hate Hankyung despite all the pain he brought him? Heechul should have left long ago, but he just couldn’t, his love for Hankyung was priceless. Apparently the pain was also unbearable, it’s so painful he could just die with his stupid love.
“Heechul, honey, please!” Hankyung plead again.
“Don’t CALL me that!!” and his tears increased, the gun on his hand that still pointed to Hankyung also shaking as his whole body did so.
“What the hell is going on?!!!” the man beside Hankyung screamed suddenly and two pairs of eyes diverted to him.
“Sungmin, baby, stay away from this, please!” Heechul could hear Hankyung whispered and it made his stomach curled in disgust. It’s just another reason for him to kill Hankyung, he just admitted that he’d been cheating all this time.
I would have bled to make you happy
You didn’t need to treat me that way
And now you’ve beat me at my own game
And now I found you sleeping soundly
And now your love is screaming loudly
I hear a sound and hit the ground
“Do you know that you just proved me that I was right! Thank you!” Heechul cocked a rifle for firing and the sound frightened the two male that still on the bed.
“Heechul, you can’t do this! You know that I love you right!” Hankyung begged and Heechul suddenly weakened on the feet but kept trying to stood still.
And it’s not my fault cause you both deserve
What is coming now so don’t say a word
“Don’t say that or I’ll never be able to get rid of you!!!” Heechul screamed.
“But I honestly love you!” Hankyung stated firmly.
Heechul shook his head in frustation and then glared at Hankyung again in anger and eyes brimmed with tears, he screamed loudly, then...
BANG!!
Wake up call caught you in the morning
with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore... care about me
I don’t think so...
The gun had been shot, blood had been shed, the white sheet had stained with angry red from the body that shot right on the chest. A gasp heard simultaneously with the sound of a dropped gun. Heechul eyes widened and he suddenly felt that the room had suffocated him, he wanted to run to feel the air that suddenly left him but his feet glued to the floor. Finally he let himself fell on the floor and tried to suck the residue of air around him and let the tears fell down again.
Didn’t know for how long Heechul let himself stay like that without a single thought, just let the pain took control of him. It felt like hour until he was aware that now he’d been alone, the sound around him seemed vanished, silence, and suddenly he liked it. He should go but he still couldn’t move. Then he heard footsteps on the carpeted floor approaching him and he scared of the sound until he felt arms held him and it felt familiar. Heechul closed his eyes and let the arms hugged him and he felt safe on those. He continued to close his eyes because he was afraid that if he opened it the warmth would go again so he let himself relax in that body until he felt he’d been pulled into his feet.
“We should go...” the person that had the arms whispered on his ears but Heechul couldn’t help but cried again, on his chest this time between pain and relieved that he still could hear the voice again.
Six foot tall came without a warning
So I had to shoot him dead...
He won’t come around here anymore, some around here
I don’t feel so bad...
A/N2:I only can write this until here, because this is the original concept and if I keep on writing I don’t know where it will lead me, but a sequel seems fine (don’t hope too much though! ^^). Blame the emo in my soul!! Oh, and the lyric, I just think that I should insert it, but don’t mind it if you think that it doesn’t suit the story. Just want you to know that I got inspiration for the title and the story from this song, Maroon 5 – Wake Up Call.
Finished: Thursday, December 30, 2010 , 10.45 pm
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2010/08/06
[08] When You Love Your Friend
Chapter 7
Rating: R
Current Music: L’Arc~en~Ciel – Ibara No Namida
Words Count: 3,358
A/N This is the longest chapter…^^ by the way, sorry for the late update, I’ll make it up soon, and… it will probably be the last chapter after this one.
Eunhyuk and Sungmin walked to one of the boutique they always come to. They held hands all the way from his apartment to the boutique, let everyone know that they are lovers, but inside, could they be called lovers if the love they have not only for each other? They chatted like usual, laughed as usual, but it just a cover so what they really feel inside, the other couldn’t catch it.
They were at separated section to pick some clothes which they will wear for Ryeowook’s wedding. Oh, how Sungmin really didn’t want to attend that wedding party. She was so weak just think about it, but there was no way she couldn’t get the reason to not come. She had to face this, particularly because Kyuhyun had said that:
FLASHBACK
“Kyu!! It hurts!” Sungmin yelped from Kyuhyun sudden force to get Sungmin into his car. Kyuhyun just ignored Sungmin’s plea and get in to the driver seat.
“There’s nothing more hurt than my heart, Sungmin!” Kyuhyun said flatly, but it was obvious that he was really angry.
“Kyu… please, don’t be like this!”
Desperation and hurt, it’d all written on Kyuhyun’s face. Sungmin now could only cry and clutched to Kyuhyun’s arm that she felt so tense.
“Sungmin, you have to choose!” he said firmly.
Sungmin shook her head, “I’m not ready!”
Kyuhyun removed Sungmin hands from his arm with slight force, “if you not, then I’ll go…”
Sungmin shocked with Kyuhyun’s statement, the word of leaving her never came from his mouth all this time. It was the words Sungmin never wanted to hear.
“You know, Sungmin… being cheated by you is hurt, but it more hurt to not being with you, but the most painful thing is seeing you hurt…”
“Kyu…”
“Sungmin, if you choose me then you will attending Ryeowook’s party with me, if you don’t then you can go with Eunhyuk and I’ll leave. And I’m sure, I won’t go back to you anymore…”
END
“Min.. you’re okay?!” Eunhyuk asked her when he saw Sungmin just stood between two racks holding a blue-night dress.
“O-oh, yes… umm, you finish?!”
“Yeah, come on let’s pay, I have an appointment after this, so you go home by yourself, is it okay?”
Sungmin just nodded and smile at him. He smiled back and Sungmin thought she must have a live support so she could stand without Eunhyuk from now on.
***
Is it wrong to stay?
Eunhyuk hadn’t been through this. He hadn’t found the answer yet, but one thing he could certain of was Donghae probably hate him right now. Maybe it was because of that, he kept Sungmin by his side. Selfish, he knew it. Sungmin, he couldn’t leave her just because his bestfriend had come back.
He wondered what if Sungmin could feel what he was going through. What if she could feel that he didn’t love her anymore, well, he never really loved her that way anyway. But everything that they had been through all this time he could not let it go just like that, it contained happines more or less.
The thought of leaving Sungmin was always haunting on his mind, maybe with that he could easily fighting for his Donghae, but it wouldn’t be fair for Sungmin, not when the reason was loving another girl, but how about his feeling? He couldn’t let his heart hanging just like that, not knowing where to stay, it felt like dying.
***
It was a busy day at Kim’s residential, because tomorrow is a big day for the only daughter there. Maid scattered around the main house and Ryeowook’s private paviliun to prepare the food and dress not only for Ryeowook but for everyone engage in the wedding reception. As for Ryeowook herself, because she didn’t ought to do anything, she chatted with her long time friends in her own bedroom.
“so, how many times actually that Jongwoon of yours spill his drink on your dress..?” Hyoyeon asked as she still couldn’t stop her giggles from Ryeowook’s earlier story about her dorky boyfriend soon to be husband.
“I don’t know, but he used to spill his drink in every dinner we had in a month after he confessed to me.” and laughter fill the room again before there’s a knock on the door and one of Ryeowook’s maid come in.
“Your parents want to meet you Miss..”
“Alright, I’ll be there… gals, don’t forget to come tomorrow at nine, okay?!”
Discussion dismissed and the girls returned to their own acivity. Donghae walked back to her apartment because Jessica had something to do after that and couldn’t carry her home. A half and hour later, she arrived at her own apartment and as she just want to prepare for tomorrow, her doorbell ring. With a sigh, she opened the door and as surprised as the last visit, she almost jumped from her place.
The visitor just smile and didn’t obvious to Donghae’s shocked state, “K-Kibum…?”
“Hi, Hae…!”
“Kibum, what are you doing here?” she managed to say.
“Are you gonna let me in or not?” he looked annoyed with Donghae’s questions before.
Donghae opened his door wider so Kibum could enter her apartment. He calmly sat on Donghae’s couch. The meeting felt awkward for Donghae, she didn’t expect to see Kibum this fast especially after what he’s done to her and when she was on the state where she didn’t know what to choose.
“Preparing for tomorrow?” he asked when he spotted the blue dress on a single chair and shoes box above the table.
Why could he be so calm after what he did to her, Donghae couldn’t put away that thought from her mind. What’s wrong with Kibum’s personality once she knows him? Why did he so different now? A little Donghae knew that the changing in Kibum’s life was because of her.
Kibum stared at her when he didn’t get the answer. Donghae caught on it and immediately turned away before answering with a simple “yes.” She didn’t notice Kibum’s eyeing her like a wild animal ready to attack. His intention to come here wasn’t just a platitude, asking her condition or checking her apartment, but he come because a little bird tell him that Donghae love another person.
Donghae’s mobile rang when Kibum began to approach her. She ran to the kitchen to answer the call from her unnie, Heechul, “hello, unni?”
“Donghae…” Heechul sounded worried, “…are you in your apartment?” she asked with hesitation.
“Yes, what’s wrong unni?”
“Donghae, I’m sorry… but, I think Kibum will come to your house, and he looked so upset when I told him that he wouldn’t have a chance with you, I told him—I told him you.. love someone else. He’s not there, is he?”
Donghae sighed deeply. It really turned out to be so messed up, her life, everyone’s life. She started to blame it to the return of herself, “unnie, he’s here.. but don’t worry, I can handle this.” Heechul gasped when she heard it and began to curse herself for being so careless.
“I think you don’t know Kibum well right now, but.. Donghae, I’m so worried.. please, be careful…”
“Okay, unni… it’s not like Kibum is a murderer…” she heard footsteps came near the kitchen and it must be Kibum, “he’s coming unni, I’ll call you if something happens.”
“Hae—“ she cut the line, unaware that Heechul is about to say something to her.
“Hae…” Kibum called right behind her and she jumped in surprise when she turned around and Kibum was just a few inches in front of her, “don’t you have something to say?” he pushed her to the kitchen table and put his hands on either side of her body. Donghae felt like being trapped, but she promised Heechul to be able to handle this, but something in Kibum eyes intimidating her.
“What.. what do you mean Kibum?” Kibum hit the table behind her, the sound of it made Donghae startled and she felt her heart would come out anytime soon, she felt fear now towards this guy who used to be gentle once he was. This was what she anxious about since the first time they met again. She’s really afraid that Kibum would turn out like this, but like she said earlier, she’s sure that Kibum wasn’t a murderer.
“Don’t play ass with me… I know you want to reject me and don’t want to come back to me!!” he yelled as he grabbed Donghae’s shoulder roughly made her hissed in pain, “why don’t you just told me earlier!!”
Donghae tried to push him away with her strength and Kibum backed up a little, “Kibum, what are you doing?”. Now she grabbed her arms with so much force and Donghae scream because it was really hurt , “please Kibum..!”
“You’re mine, Hae!! Doesn’t everybody say that to you? Don’t you remember, we never broke up, you just went to God knows where without telling me!!”
His eyes, full of anger. Donghae couldn’t help it but frightened inside. This is not Kibum, she kept on chanting those words inside her head, hoping this guy wasn’t Kibum she used to know before. “Kibum, don’t do this.. I’m so—“
“DON’T SAY YOU’RE SORRY!!” he screamed in front of Donghae’s face. Her whole body was shaking now and kept praying that Kibum would end all of this. Donghae turned her head to the side and let her tears flowing down her cheek. Kibum forced her head to face him with his hand grabbed her jaw tightly and kissed her with the same force.
Donghae groaned inside her throat when Kibum’s teeth pulling at her lower lip and caused blood to flow. She had an opportunity to push him again when his hand move to her neck. Donghae pushed with all of her power until Kibum fall to the ground. She ran, aiming to the door so she could get out of her apartment, but Kibum was fast, he caught her body and pushed her against the wall. Without words, he started to kiss her again harder this time and ripped her shirt on the way to slip his tounge inside her warm cavern. Donghae could make it when Kibum opened her shirt all the way and ran to the telephone, but Kibum throw her telephone away and threw her to the couch. Donghae tried to get up but Kibum slapped her cheek. Donghae and Kibum stopped in their track, Kibum’s breathing heavily above her while Donghae stared deep into his eyes, searching for something that could explain the situation, but his eyes just full of anger and lust. For a moment, nobody tried to lash or to struggle against. The end up staring into each other eyes, just searching what they wanted to find, but there’s nothing.
Donghae tried to get up but Kibum held her down again, she thought it was over, “Kibum, please!”
“NO!! you’re mine!! I don’t care who he is that you love now, you’re always mine..!” and he started to attack her neck, trapped both her hands with his above her head while he opened his shirt. He ripped her bra also, leaving her topless and Donghae was disgusting to herself right now, he couldn’t do anything now. Tears flooded all over her face and Kibum didn’t seem to notice her plead and just continued attacking Donghae.
“I’ll make you mine all over again with my way!” he murmured between her breast and right there she spotted her high heels upon the coffee table beside them. If only her hands didn’t trapped… and suddenly, Kibum released her hands to opened his own shirt when his mouth kept ravaging her body. Donghae reached for the heels quickly then without hesitation she hit his head with the tip of her heels and he screamed in pain until he felt the world spinning and fell from the couch.
Donghae quickly ran to the door after swoop her abandoned shirt. She ran out from her apartment, glanced back every now and then, afraid that Kibum would chase after her again. Donghae just ran without particular destination but what her heart told her too, to someone he thought of during Kibum’s assault just now.
***
Eunhyuk was in the middle of pouring his second cup of coffee when someone banged on his door. He sighed, he hated this kind of guest that kept banging on his door when there’s a bell already. “Wait a second, aish!!”
He opened the door to a surprise, “Donghae?!” his surprise turned into a shocked and worried expression when he saw that Donghae’s long hair was messy, there’s also dry tears on her face and blood on her lower lip, the button on her shirt was lost so she used her hand to pull it to cover her body, “Hae, what’s—“
He didn’t continue his words when suddenly he felt Donghae hugged him with one hand and she cried into his chest. Eunhyuk embraced her tighter to make her sure that she’s safe now from whatever she had gone through earlier. He let Donghae like that, put all of her emotion and her pain outdside until there was just sob that heard. Eunhyuk gently carried Donghae to his couch and let her take a seat while he searched for his shirt and water for Donghae.
“Put this on!” Eunhyuk said when he gave the plaid shirt and Donghae turned around so Eunhyuk couldn’t see her. Eunhyuk also turned away from her so she could have some privacy when changing.
After Donghae done with the changing, he handed her a glass of water. Silence filled the room, no one dared to make a move or to be the first one to talk. Donghae then finally gulped down her water carelessly so some of the water trailing down her chin and damped Eunhyuk’s shirt. Eunhyuk saw that and sighed, he lowered the glass and grabbed a tissue to wipe Donghae’s chin. Donghae looked at his eyes and their gaze met. She didn’t know what comes to her mind so she started to sob again.
“Donghae, just tell me what’s wrong? Did someone hurt you?” Eunhyuk turned to panic mode as Donghae’s tears flowed down her cheeks. Eunhyuk pulled her into his arms when she cried louder. He never saw Donghae this way because she never showed her weak side to everyone, she wasn’t weak after all. The problem must be very complicated and little Eunhyuk knows that maybe one of them was because of him.
Eunhyuk leaned back on his couch and brought Donghae along. He let Donghae cried on his chest again until only sob heard and then there was nothing, “you ready to talk now?” he asked as he caressed her hair lovingly. He still in love with this woman and she knows it after all.
Donghae just nodded weakly then said, “can I talk to you about this?”
“You know you can talk to me about everything…”
The two of them paused for a moment before Donghae broke the silence, “it’s Kibum.”
Eunhyuk frowned because he tried to digest the name in his head and then come to a conclusion, “your ex?” and Donghae nodded again. She got up from Eunhyuk’s embrace and looked at him as she spoke.
“He’s not really my ex… he’s right, I never broke up with him. What I never know is he said he still love me. He tried to rape me today.” She explained and it made Eunhyuk gasped in shock.
“Why would he rape you? He hurt you, didn’t he?” he asked in panic once again, pointing to her lower lip that torn slightly.
“No, I’m okay, I’m not injured, and he didn’t get to do me anything, don’t worry!” Donghae smiled at him and it made Eunhyuk’d sighed in relief, but he couldn’t deny that he felt anger towards that man named Kibum. How could he say that he still love Donghae but on the other side hurting her?
“I just… shock and dissapointed but on the other side I regret for not knowing how he really feels.” Donghae continued, “he hurts, but I really can’t do anything about it… I only can feel sorry for him, it was my fault after all that he become like this.”
Donghae buried her face on her palms and Eunhyuk reached to caress the top of her head, “Hae, I don’t think it was your fault… it’s him who make his life that way, a man should let go what has gone.”
She stared at Eunhyuk’s eyes once more, sure there was love in there. How she never found out all this time was really her stupidity and now she had to be faced with the truth that he had been suffered for ten years just because she only want him as a friend. It couldn’t be just friendship though, what she felt at the past and what she saw in herself plus what she realized now that Eunhyuk, her Hyukjae, is the only man for her.
“Hyuk, did you hurt also? Because it seems that everyone is hurt because of my decision.” She asked, still looked at his eyes.
Eunhyuk just smiled sincerely and shook his head, “you would never be able to hurt me, Hae!” he said as he traced lines on her face with his fingertips and ended up cupping her right cheek with his hand, “because if I hurted by you, I would end up thinking that I’m the one hurting you. Because if I hurt, who will bring you in and heal your wound when you hurt.” It’s the truth, how could he end up hating Donghae or did something cruel to her eventhough she had hurt him badly.
“Hyukjae…”
Eunhyuk leaned forward and kissed her forehead. He saw Donghae’s eyes brimming with tears when he pulled away, “thank you, Hyuk..!” and she hugged her bestfriend again.
“Why are you crying a lot today, Hae..?”
“I don’t know, it’s just… it’s like all the things I did was wrong and I don’t know how to fix it.”
“Shhh… everything’s gonna be fine, I promise!”
Donghae pulled away from Eunhyuk and glared at him, “why are you promising? This is my problem!”
“Hey… listen! I can promise you everything as long as you stay with me. I will try to fix you however ruined you are because I’m your best friend and… because I love you!” he said gently and carefully.
Donghae bit her lower lip to prevent herself from saying it out loud and stared at her hands nervously, “I love you too, Hyuk.” Couldn’t bear the thumping in her heart again as Eunhyuk said those words one more time to her, she said it unknowingly.
“W-what?”
Donghae, audaciously looked up to see Eunhyuk’s confused face, “I said… I love you… as like love that you said to me the previous day.” She exhaled a long breath.
Eunhyuk froze in his place, not knowing to react or to say. It surprised him really, Donghae loves him just like he became a Prince of Persia that wouldn’t come true. But now here she was, telling him that she also loves him with the exact love he felt towards her.
“I’m sorry… I realize it just when you said it, but after I look back to the past I know that it was also love… and I think—“
Donghae didn’t have a chance to finish her sentence because Eunhyuk had just claimed her lips passionately. Donghae had nothing but to accept the kiss and forgot everything because it’s just Donghae and Eunhyuk that exist this time. How he always dreamt of this day to come, Donghae loved him back and he could kiss her without being afraid that he just kissed his best friend of 20 years. Friend didn’t kiss and also didn’t do what they would do next.
***
Stay with me until I fall asleep
Don’t let your gentle hand go
Because I just like a little kid that had became lost…
Rating: R
Current Music: L’Arc~en~Ciel – Ibara No Namida
Words Count: 3,358
A/N This is the longest chapter…^^ by the way, sorry for the late update, I’ll make it up soon, and… it will probably be the last chapter after this one.
Eunhyuk and Sungmin walked to one of the boutique they always come to. They held hands all the way from his apartment to the boutique, let everyone know that they are lovers, but inside, could they be called lovers if the love they have not only for each other? They chatted like usual, laughed as usual, but it just a cover so what they really feel inside, the other couldn’t catch it.
They were at separated section to pick some clothes which they will wear for Ryeowook’s wedding. Oh, how Sungmin really didn’t want to attend that wedding party. She was so weak just think about it, but there was no way she couldn’t get the reason to not come. She had to face this, particularly because Kyuhyun had said that:
FLASHBACK
“Kyu!! It hurts!” Sungmin yelped from Kyuhyun sudden force to get Sungmin into his car. Kyuhyun just ignored Sungmin’s plea and get in to the driver seat.
“There’s nothing more hurt than my heart, Sungmin!” Kyuhyun said flatly, but it was obvious that he was really angry.
“Kyu… please, don’t be like this!”
Desperation and hurt, it’d all written on Kyuhyun’s face. Sungmin now could only cry and clutched to Kyuhyun’s arm that she felt so tense.
“Sungmin, you have to choose!” he said firmly.
Sungmin shook her head, “I’m not ready!”
Kyuhyun removed Sungmin hands from his arm with slight force, “if you not, then I’ll go…”
Sungmin shocked with Kyuhyun’s statement, the word of leaving her never came from his mouth all this time. It was the words Sungmin never wanted to hear.
“You know, Sungmin… being cheated by you is hurt, but it more hurt to not being with you, but the most painful thing is seeing you hurt…”
“Kyu…”
“Sungmin, if you choose me then you will attending Ryeowook’s party with me, if you don’t then you can go with Eunhyuk and I’ll leave. And I’m sure, I won’t go back to you anymore…”
END
“Min.. you’re okay?!” Eunhyuk asked her when he saw Sungmin just stood between two racks holding a blue-night dress.
“O-oh, yes… umm, you finish?!”
“Yeah, come on let’s pay, I have an appointment after this, so you go home by yourself, is it okay?”
Sungmin just nodded and smile at him. He smiled back and Sungmin thought she must have a live support so she could stand without Eunhyuk from now on.
***
Is it wrong to stay?
Eunhyuk hadn’t been through this. He hadn’t found the answer yet, but one thing he could certain of was Donghae probably hate him right now. Maybe it was because of that, he kept Sungmin by his side. Selfish, he knew it. Sungmin, he couldn’t leave her just because his bestfriend had come back.
He wondered what if Sungmin could feel what he was going through. What if she could feel that he didn’t love her anymore, well, he never really loved her that way anyway. But everything that they had been through all this time he could not let it go just like that, it contained happines more or less.
The thought of leaving Sungmin was always haunting on his mind, maybe with that he could easily fighting for his Donghae, but it wouldn’t be fair for Sungmin, not when the reason was loving another girl, but how about his feeling? He couldn’t let his heart hanging just like that, not knowing where to stay, it felt like dying.
***
It was a busy day at Kim’s residential, because tomorrow is a big day for the only daughter there. Maid scattered around the main house and Ryeowook’s private paviliun to prepare the food and dress not only for Ryeowook but for everyone engage in the wedding reception. As for Ryeowook herself, because she didn’t ought to do anything, she chatted with her long time friends in her own bedroom.
“so, how many times actually that Jongwoon of yours spill his drink on your dress..?” Hyoyeon asked as she still couldn’t stop her giggles from Ryeowook’s earlier story about her dorky boyfriend soon to be husband.
“I don’t know, but he used to spill his drink in every dinner we had in a month after he confessed to me.” and laughter fill the room again before there’s a knock on the door and one of Ryeowook’s maid come in.
“Your parents want to meet you Miss..”
“Alright, I’ll be there… gals, don’t forget to come tomorrow at nine, okay?!”
Discussion dismissed and the girls returned to their own acivity. Donghae walked back to her apartment because Jessica had something to do after that and couldn’t carry her home. A half and hour later, she arrived at her own apartment and as she just want to prepare for tomorrow, her doorbell ring. With a sigh, she opened the door and as surprised as the last visit, she almost jumped from her place.
The visitor just smile and didn’t obvious to Donghae’s shocked state, “K-Kibum…?”
“Hi, Hae…!”
“Kibum, what are you doing here?” she managed to say.
“Are you gonna let me in or not?” he looked annoyed with Donghae’s questions before.
Donghae opened his door wider so Kibum could enter her apartment. He calmly sat on Donghae’s couch. The meeting felt awkward for Donghae, she didn’t expect to see Kibum this fast especially after what he’s done to her and when she was on the state where she didn’t know what to choose.
“Preparing for tomorrow?” he asked when he spotted the blue dress on a single chair and shoes box above the table.
Why could he be so calm after what he did to her, Donghae couldn’t put away that thought from her mind. What’s wrong with Kibum’s personality once she knows him? Why did he so different now? A little Donghae knew that the changing in Kibum’s life was because of her.
Kibum stared at her when he didn’t get the answer. Donghae caught on it and immediately turned away before answering with a simple “yes.” She didn’t notice Kibum’s eyeing her like a wild animal ready to attack. His intention to come here wasn’t just a platitude, asking her condition or checking her apartment, but he come because a little bird tell him that Donghae love another person.
Donghae’s mobile rang when Kibum began to approach her. She ran to the kitchen to answer the call from her unnie, Heechul, “hello, unni?”
“Donghae…” Heechul sounded worried, “…are you in your apartment?” she asked with hesitation.
“Yes, what’s wrong unni?”
“Donghae, I’m sorry… but, I think Kibum will come to your house, and he looked so upset when I told him that he wouldn’t have a chance with you, I told him—I told him you.. love someone else. He’s not there, is he?”
Donghae sighed deeply. It really turned out to be so messed up, her life, everyone’s life. She started to blame it to the return of herself, “unnie, he’s here.. but don’t worry, I can handle this.” Heechul gasped when she heard it and began to curse herself for being so careless.
“I think you don’t know Kibum well right now, but.. Donghae, I’m so worried.. please, be careful…”
“Okay, unni… it’s not like Kibum is a murderer…” she heard footsteps came near the kitchen and it must be Kibum, “he’s coming unni, I’ll call you if something happens.”
“Hae—“ she cut the line, unaware that Heechul is about to say something to her.
“Hae…” Kibum called right behind her and she jumped in surprise when she turned around and Kibum was just a few inches in front of her, “don’t you have something to say?” he pushed her to the kitchen table and put his hands on either side of her body. Donghae felt like being trapped, but she promised Heechul to be able to handle this, but something in Kibum eyes intimidating her.
“What.. what do you mean Kibum?” Kibum hit the table behind her, the sound of it made Donghae startled and she felt her heart would come out anytime soon, she felt fear now towards this guy who used to be gentle once he was. This was what she anxious about since the first time they met again. She’s really afraid that Kibum would turn out like this, but like she said earlier, she’s sure that Kibum wasn’t a murderer.
“Don’t play ass with me… I know you want to reject me and don’t want to come back to me!!” he yelled as he grabbed Donghae’s shoulder roughly made her hissed in pain, “why don’t you just told me earlier!!”
Donghae tried to push him away with her strength and Kibum backed up a little, “Kibum, what are you doing?”. Now she grabbed her arms with so much force and Donghae scream because it was really hurt , “please Kibum..!”
“You’re mine, Hae!! Doesn’t everybody say that to you? Don’t you remember, we never broke up, you just went to God knows where without telling me!!”
His eyes, full of anger. Donghae couldn’t help it but frightened inside. This is not Kibum, she kept on chanting those words inside her head, hoping this guy wasn’t Kibum she used to know before. “Kibum, don’t do this.. I’m so—“
“DON’T SAY YOU’RE SORRY!!” he screamed in front of Donghae’s face. Her whole body was shaking now and kept praying that Kibum would end all of this. Donghae turned her head to the side and let her tears flowing down her cheek. Kibum forced her head to face him with his hand grabbed her jaw tightly and kissed her with the same force.
Donghae groaned inside her throat when Kibum’s teeth pulling at her lower lip and caused blood to flow. She had an opportunity to push him again when his hand move to her neck. Donghae pushed with all of her power until Kibum fall to the ground. She ran, aiming to the door so she could get out of her apartment, but Kibum was fast, he caught her body and pushed her against the wall. Without words, he started to kiss her again harder this time and ripped her shirt on the way to slip his tounge inside her warm cavern. Donghae could make it when Kibum opened her shirt all the way and ran to the telephone, but Kibum throw her telephone away and threw her to the couch. Donghae tried to get up but Kibum slapped her cheek. Donghae and Kibum stopped in their track, Kibum’s breathing heavily above her while Donghae stared deep into his eyes, searching for something that could explain the situation, but his eyes just full of anger and lust. For a moment, nobody tried to lash or to struggle against. The end up staring into each other eyes, just searching what they wanted to find, but there’s nothing.
Donghae tried to get up but Kibum held her down again, she thought it was over, “Kibum, please!”
“NO!! you’re mine!! I don’t care who he is that you love now, you’re always mine..!” and he started to attack her neck, trapped both her hands with his above her head while he opened his shirt. He ripped her bra also, leaving her topless and Donghae was disgusting to herself right now, he couldn’t do anything now. Tears flooded all over her face and Kibum didn’t seem to notice her plead and just continued attacking Donghae.
“I’ll make you mine all over again with my way!” he murmured between her breast and right there she spotted her high heels upon the coffee table beside them. If only her hands didn’t trapped… and suddenly, Kibum released her hands to opened his own shirt when his mouth kept ravaging her body. Donghae reached for the heels quickly then without hesitation she hit his head with the tip of her heels and he screamed in pain until he felt the world spinning and fell from the couch.
Donghae quickly ran to the door after swoop her abandoned shirt. She ran out from her apartment, glanced back every now and then, afraid that Kibum would chase after her again. Donghae just ran without particular destination but what her heart told her too, to someone he thought of during Kibum’s assault just now.
***
Eunhyuk was in the middle of pouring his second cup of coffee when someone banged on his door. He sighed, he hated this kind of guest that kept banging on his door when there’s a bell already. “Wait a second, aish!!”
He opened the door to a surprise, “Donghae?!” his surprise turned into a shocked and worried expression when he saw that Donghae’s long hair was messy, there’s also dry tears on her face and blood on her lower lip, the button on her shirt was lost so she used her hand to pull it to cover her body, “Hae, what’s—“
He didn’t continue his words when suddenly he felt Donghae hugged him with one hand and she cried into his chest. Eunhyuk embraced her tighter to make her sure that she’s safe now from whatever she had gone through earlier. He let Donghae like that, put all of her emotion and her pain outdside until there was just sob that heard. Eunhyuk gently carried Donghae to his couch and let her take a seat while he searched for his shirt and water for Donghae.
“Put this on!” Eunhyuk said when he gave the plaid shirt and Donghae turned around so Eunhyuk couldn’t see her. Eunhyuk also turned away from her so she could have some privacy when changing.
After Donghae done with the changing, he handed her a glass of water. Silence filled the room, no one dared to make a move or to be the first one to talk. Donghae then finally gulped down her water carelessly so some of the water trailing down her chin and damped Eunhyuk’s shirt. Eunhyuk saw that and sighed, he lowered the glass and grabbed a tissue to wipe Donghae’s chin. Donghae looked at his eyes and their gaze met. She didn’t know what comes to her mind so she started to sob again.
“Donghae, just tell me what’s wrong? Did someone hurt you?” Eunhyuk turned to panic mode as Donghae’s tears flowed down her cheeks. Eunhyuk pulled her into his arms when she cried louder. He never saw Donghae this way because she never showed her weak side to everyone, she wasn’t weak after all. The problem must be very complicated and little Eunhyuk knows that maybe one of them was because of him.
Eunhyuk leaned back on his couch and brought Donghae along. He let Donghae cried on his chest again until only sob heard and then there was nothing, “you ready to talk now?” he asked as he caressed her hair lovingly. He still in love with this woman and she knows it after all.
Donghae just nodded weakly then said, “can I talk to you about this?”
“You know you can talk to me about everything…”
The two of them paused for a moment before Donghae broke the silence, “it’s Kibum.”
Eunhyuk frowned because he tried to digest the name in his head and then come to a conclusion, “your ex?” and Donghae nodded again. She got up from Eunhyuk’s embrace and looked at him as she spoke.
“He’s not really my ex… he’s right, I never broke up with him. What I never know is he said he still love me. He tried to rape me today.” She explained and it made Eunhyuk gasped in shock.
“Why would he rape you? He hurt you, didn’t he?” he asked in panic once again, pointing to her lower lip that torn slightly.
“No, I’m okay, I’m not injured, and he didn’t get to do me anything, don’t worry!” Donghae smiled at him and it made Eunhyuk’d sighed in relief, but he couldn’t deny that he felt anger towards that man named Kibum. How could he say that he still love Donghae but on the other side hurting her?
“I just… shock and dissapointed but on the other side I regret for not knowing how he really feels.” Donghae continued, “he hurts, but I really can’t do anything about it… I only can feel sorry for him, it was my fault after all that he become like this.”
Donghae buried her face on her palms and Eunhyuk reached to caress the top of her head, “Hae, I don’t think it was your fault… it’s him who make his life that way, a man should let go what has gone.”
She stared at Eunhyuk’s eyes once more, sure there was love in there. How she never found out all this time was really her stupidity and now she had to be faced with the truth that he had been suffered for ten years just because she only want him as a friend. It couldn’t be just friendship though, what she felt at the past and what she saw in herself plus what she realized now that Eunhyuk, her Hyukjae, is the only man for her.
“Hyuk, did you hurt also? Because it seems that everyone is hurt because of my decision.” She asked, still looked at his eyes.
Eunhyuk just smiled sincerely and shook his head, “you would never be able to hurt me, Hae!” he said as he traced lines on her face with his fingertips and ended up cupping her right cheek with his hand, “because if I hurted by you, I would end up thinking that I’m the one hurting you. Because if I hurt, who will bring you in and heal your wound when you hurt.” It’s the truth, how could he end up hating Donghae or did something cruel to her eventhough she had hurt him badly.
“Hyukjae…”
Eunhyuk leaned forward and kissed her forehead. He saw Donghae’s eyes brimming with tears when he pulled away, “thank you, Hyuk..!” and she hugged her bestfriend again.
“Why are you crying a lot today, Hae..?”
“I don’t know, it’s just… it’s like all the things I did was wrong and I don’t know how to fix it.”
“Shhh… everything’s gonna be fine, I promise!”
Donghae pulled away from Eunhyuk and glared at him, “why are you promising? This is my problem!”
“Hey… listen! I can promise you everything as long as you stay with me. I will try to fix you however ruined you are because I’m your best friend and… because I love you!” he said gently and carefully.
Donghae bit her lower lip to prevent herself from saying it out loud and stared at her hands nervously, “I love you too, Hyuk.” Couldn’t bear the thumping in her heart again as Eunhyuk said those words one more time to her, she said it unknowingly.
“W-what?”
Donghae, audaciously looked up to see Eunhyuk’s confused face, “I said… I love you… as like love that you said to me the previous day.” She exhaled a long breath.
Eunhyuk froze in his place, not knowing to react or to say. It surprised him really, Donghae loves him just like he became a Prince of Persia that wouldn’t come true. But now here she was, telling him that she also loves him with the exact love he felt towards her.
“I’m sorry… I realize it just when you said it, but after I look back to the past I know that it was also love… and I think—“
Donghae didn’t have a chance to finish her sentence because Eunhyuk had just claimed her lips passionately. Donghae had nothing but to accept the kiss and forgot everything because it’s just Donghae and Eunhyuk that exist this time. How he always dreamt of this day to come, Donghae loved him back and he could kiss her without being afraid that he just kissed his best friend of 20 years. Friend didn’t kiss and also didn’t do what they would do next.
***
Stay with me until I fall asleep
Don’t let your gentle hand go
Because I just like a little kid that had became lost…
2010/03/27
[Oneshot] Hatred for the one you love
Title: Hatred for the one you love
Pairing: Kibum/Sungmin
Rating: R (for fighting)
Summary: Hatred for the one you love.
Warning: Violence
Words Count: 1,594
What I’m Listening To : After School – With U
He sees him standing there without hesitance. His body’s steady and very confident, but in his eyes this man still beautiful. He was his, they had each other, but Kibum don’t want it all just as a past, for this second he still feels that he owns this man who stand in front of him with a sturdy expression.
“oh, you come.. thank’s very much.” He says flatly. Kibum can see a smirk forming in his little lips eventhough this alley have not much light in the evening.
Kibum just returned that smirk with a smile and remove his hands which from the first he get out of his house he stucked at his jacket pocket then cross it in front of his chest, “I thought you’d never call, Sungmin…”
Sungmin imitate what he does and then shifts his weight to on of his foot, “you’ve got your warranty now…”
They walk closer to each other until close enough to be able to look each others eyes, “thank you… so should we start the game ?”
Sungmin frowns as he chuckles, “oh, and here I thought you didn’t like this kind of game, did you ?”
“yes I didn’t… I don’t either… if I can’t be sure that I’ll win the game.”
“coward!”
“I was...” Kibum reaches his hand to touch the beautiful man’s face in front of him. Oh, how he misses Sungmin. It’s not like all this years they don’t meet each other, they just can’t be this close. From the first time he saw Sungmin 5 years ago, he fell in love to this man easily, it was like Sungmin is meant for him, so then he can’t love another person again even when Sungmin had to leave him a year later. That man who did Kung Fu stole him from Kibum, how much Kibum would like very much to win Sungmin, he wouldn’t have him or he would have Sungmin’s dead body. So he gave up. Kibum does boxing for 3 years and he heard that Sungmin does martial arts. He knows that it’s for they sake, maybe someday Kibum can steal Sungmin again or Sungmin can knock his husband and be with him again. Obviously, the latter do it first. But when Kibum waited for Sungmin’s return, he never, and that time no one knows where Sungmin is. One year later, he got phonecall from Sungmin and he wants to fight.
Before Kibum can reach for Sungmin’s cheek, the latter has him pinned against the wall, “you were ? and I don’t know whether you still or not..”
“no I’m not…”
“then show me..!”
Sungmin step back from him, and before Kibum can do something to him, Sungmin has extended his leg using the force to propel him into a roundhouse kick towards his shoulder. Kibum falls to the ground and then feels his kicked shoulder. He looks up at Sungmin, and there’s no joking in his face, this is not a game.
As Kibum stands up again, Sungmin swings a punch. Kibum waves it aside and Sungmin failed to notice a leg makes fierce contact with his stomach. It hard till Sungmin thrown up to the other side of the wall. For a moment Sungmin tries to catch his breath before steadying his form again, “that’s a good beginning… let’s start this!”
Sungmin’s fist makes powerful contact with Kibum’s jaw. He heard a crack as Kibum falls to the ground. Kibum takes no time to stand up again and grabbed Sungmin’s arms and flips him towards the wall, but Sungmin can spin out of his hold and reversing it so he had Kibum’s arm twist back. Before Kibum sent to the wall again, he kicks the wall and pushes Sungmin backwards then his elbow hits Sungmin on his right cheek.
Sungmin falls with al loud thud on the ground. Kibum doesn’t give him chance to stand because he straddles Sungmin’s hip and pins his hands above his head, “you must have been very confident about winning this game…” Sungmin said and that smirk forms again.
Kibum just chuckles, “I think this position prove you right…”
“not anymore…” Sungmin used his free knee to kick Kibum’s back. Kibum is too surprise so he loosen his hold on Sungmin’s hands so Sungmin can push him away and punch his cheek again. When it will come to the second punch, Kibum step aside and tackles Sungmin to the ground again. He falls face first beside Kibum, and he takes this chance to lock Sungmin.
“I do wrestle too, you know…” Kibum said. Sungmin looks over his shoulder with narrowed eyes.
“but you forgot something…” Sungmin smirks again, “what ?” Kibum asked.
Sungmin uses his free hand to pull Kibum’s head hard so he once again loosen his hold, and now Kibum is the one who lay on the ground with Sungmin on top of him, “I’m flexible..”
From that moment, they come to catch their breaths again. They don’t say anything and just look each other’s face. Kibum can see that Sungmin’s cheekbone start to bleed due to his elbow’s force and Sungmin can see the blood on Kibum’s lips and bruise on his jaw. Sungmin grabs Kibum’s collar and crumples it up, so hard until Kibum can feel the hard tug on his chest.
“why you do this ?” Kibum asked.
Sungmin looks him in the eyes, “you make me…” and Kibum falls silent.
“was I that weak for you ?”
“you are… don’t you have a courage to bring me back to you ? you could have win, could have me again!!” Sungmin feels his tears betray him and ready to flow. He can’t cry after what he’s done to Kibum, the one he love.
“I could have… but I choose to not, I could have you again but just your body!”
“what do you mean ?!”
“I could have your dead body if I go against him..!”
Sungmin jerks at Kibum’s words. He doesn’t know all this things. What he knows is Kibum just leave until he knows that Sungmin forced to get married with another man, “so you choose to have me get all the torture from him and for letting you go ?”
“I choose to wait and gather all my strength to go against your husband, but it seems I’m late, although I’m ready already since the second year I’m not with you..” Kibum smiles up at him and Sungmin’s tears flow freely. Kibum wipes it away, “I’m here, you don’t have to worry anymore..”
“I’m sorry…”
“don’t be.. my fault for waiting too long! However, you did a good job, killed your own husband.”
Sungmin smiles wholeheartedly for the first time this night, Kibum can’t be happier than this. He pulls Sungmin towards him and collide their lips together. He can taste blood from it, but it doesn’t matter as long as they can be this close after 3 years be apart.
They pull away as they need air, “can we bring this inside ?” Kibum asked.
“what ?”
“your place or mine.”
Sungmin smile again before answering, “your place seems great compared to my gangster house.”
***
They made it to Kibum’s apartment. It really cozy and Sungmin can’t stop admiring this side of Kibum who likes simple and clean things. He missed this, he can’t have this kind of thing at his husband house.
Sungmin immediately searches for the bathroom so he can clean himself from this blood and dirt, but Kibum has led him to his bedroom and the bathroom inside. They clean each other under the shower and reveal their longing for each other. Kibum kisses him passionately as he hold him really close and Sungmin’s arms found their place behind Kibum’s neck.
“I miss you…” Kibum whispered on Sungmin’s ear then bites his earlobe eliciting a moan from Sungmin’s mouth as he did so.
Sungmin turns off the faucet and led Kibum to the bedroom despite their wet state. He lays on the bed and pulls Kibum on top of him. They kisses again this time more pasionate and be damned with patient. Kibum’s mouth makes contact with Sungmin’s jaw, neck and chest and soon Sungmin’s mind swims in pleasure.
They can’t be happier than to be able making love again. Their love becomes one again with their body tangling together like this. They can feel each other heartbeat to be in this closeness. They can feel the familiar warmth, the one that only it can make their live complete. Their moans swallow by each other mouth when the feeling of fullness comes to them. Kibum fills Sungmin with his uncounted love, trust, gentleness and sincerity. Nothing can compare the love they have for each other. Even many years apart, even death throws them apart next.
“I love you, Lee Sungmin…” he whispered as he feels their body will explode soon and Sungmin can’t help it, he burst into tears as he lets his pleasures take him. Not soon after, Kibum follows him into a great bliss.
Sungmin not letting Kibum go even when Kibum rolls to his side. He wraps his arms and legs on Kibum’s body and lays his head on Kibum’s chest, “I love you too, Kim Kibum…”
They sleep on each other’s embrace and nothing can separate them anymore beside death.
***
A/N this is my first time writing fighting scene. forgive me please...!
Pairing: Kibum/Sungmin
Rating: R (for fighting)
Summary: Hatred for the one you love.
Warning: Violence
Words Count: 1,594
What I’m Listening To : After School – With U
He sees him standing there without hesitance. His body’s steady and very confident, but in his eyes this man still beautiful. He was his, they had each other, but Kibum don’t want it all just as a past, for this second he still feels that he owns this man who stand in front of him with a sturdy expression.
“oh, you come.. thank’s very much.” He says flatly. Kibum can see a smirk forming in his little lips eventhough this alley have not much light in the evening.
Kibum just returned that smirk with a smile and remove his hands which from the first he get out of his house he stucked at his jacket pocket then cross it in front of his chest, “I thought you’d never call, Sungmin…”
Sungmin imitate what he does and then shifts his weight to on of his foot, “you’ve got your warranty now…”
They walk closer to each other until close enough to be able to look each others eyes, “thank you… so should we start the game ?”
Sungmin frowns as he chuckles, “oh, and here I thought you didn’t like this kind of game, did you ?”
“yes I didn’t… I don’t either… if I can’t be sure that I’ll win the game.”
“coward!”
“I was...” Kibum reaches his hand to touch the beautiful man’s face in front of him. Oh, how he misses Sungmin. It’s not like all this years they don’t meet each other, they just can’t be this close. From the first time he saw Sungmin 5 years ago, he fell in love to this man easily, it was like Sungmin is meant for him, so then he can’t love another person again even when Sungmin had to leave him a year later. That man who did Kung Fu stole him from Kibum, how much Kibum would like very much to win Sungmin, he wouldn’t have him or he would have Sungmin’s dead body. So he gave up. Kibum does boxing for 3 years and he heard that Sungmin does martial arts. He knows that it’s for they sake, maybe someday Kibum can steal Sungmin again or Sungmin can knock his husband and be with him again. Obviously, the latter do it first. But when Kibum waited for Sungmin’s return, he never, and that time no one knows where Sungmin is. One year later, he got phonecall from Sungmin and he wants to fight.
Before Kibum can reach for Sungmin’s cheek, the latter has him pinned against the wall, “you were ? and I don’t know whether you still or not..”
“no I’m not…”
“then show me..!”
Sungmin step back from him, and before Kibum can do something to him, Sungmin has extended his leg using the force to propel him into a roundhouse kick towards his shoulder. Kibum falls to the ground and then feels his kicked shoulder. He looks up at Sungmin, and there’s no joking in his face, this is not a game.
As Kibum stands up again, Sungmin swings a punch. Kibum waves it aside and Sungmin failed to notice a leg makes fierce contact with his stomach. It hard till Sungmin thrown up to the other side of the wall. For a moment Sungmin tries to catch his breath before steadying his form again, “that’s a good beginning… let’s start this!”
Sungmin’s fist makes powerful contact with Kibum’s jaw. He heard a crack as Kibum falls to the ground. Kibum takes no time to stand up again and grabbed Sungmin’s arms and flips him towards the wall, but Sungmin can spin out of his hold and reversing it so he had Kibum’s arm twist back. Before Kibum sent to the wall again, he kicks the wall and pushes Sungmin backwards then his elbow hits Sungmin on his right cheek.
Sungmin falls with al loud thud on the ground. Kibum doesn’t give him chance to stand because he straddles Sungmin’s hip and pins his hands above his head, “you must have been very confident about winning this game…” Sungmin said and that smirk forms again.
Kibum just chuckles, “I think this position prove you right…”
“not anymore…” Sungmin used his free knee to kick Kibum’s back. Kibum is too surprise so he loosen his hold on Sungmin’s hands so Sungmin can push him away and punch his cheek again. When it will come to the second punch, Kibum step aside and tackles Sungmin to the ground again. He falls face first beside Kibum, and he takes this chance to lock Sungmin.
“I do wrestle too, you know…” Kibum said. Sungmin looks over his shoulder with narrowed eyes.
“but you forgot something…” Sungmin smirks again, “what ?” Kibum asked.
Sungmin uses his free hand to pull Kibum’s head hard so he once again loosen his hold, and now Kibum is the one who lay on the ground with Sungmin on top of him, “I’m flexible..”
From that moment, they come to catch their breaths again. They don’t say anything and just look each other’s face. Kibum can see that Sungmin’s cheekbone start to bleed due to his elbow’s force and Sungmin can see the blood on Kibum’s lips and bruise on his jaw. Sungmin grabs Kibum’s collar and crumples it up, so hard until Kibum can feel the hard tug on his chest.
“why you do this ?” Kibum asked.
Sungmin looks him in the eyes, “you make me…” and Kibum falls silent.
“was I that weak for you ?”
“you are… don’t you have a courage to bring me back to you ? you could have win, could have me again!!” Sungmin feels his tears betray him and ready to flow. He can’t cry after what he’s done to Kibum, the one he love.
“I could have… but I choose to not, I could have you again but just your body!”
“what do you mean ?!”
“I could have your dead body if I go against him..!”
Sungmin jerks at Kibum’s words. He doesn’t know all this things. What he knows is Kibum just leave until he knows that Sungmin forced to get married with another man, “so you choose to have me get all the torture from him and for letting you go ?”
“I choose to wait and gather all my strength to go against your husband, but it seems I’m late, although I’m ready already since the second year I’m not with you..” Kibum smiles up at him and Sungmin’s tears flow freely. Kibum wipes it away, “I’m here, you don’t have to worry anymore..”
“I’m sorry…”
“don’t be.. my fault for waiting too long! However, you did a good job, killed your own husband.”
Sungmin smiles wholeheartedly for the first time this night, Kibum can’t be happier than this. He pulls Sungmin towards him and collide their lips together. He can taste blood from it, but it doesn’t matter as long as they can be this close after 3 years be apart.
They pull away as they need air, “can we bring this inside ?” Kibum asked.
“what ?”
“your place or mine.”
Sungmin smile again before answering, “your place seems great compared to my gangster house.”
***
They made it to Kibum’s apartment. It really cozy and Sungmin can’t stop admiring this side of Kibum who likes simple and clean things. He missed this, he can’t have this kind of thing at his husband house.
Sungmin immediately searches for the bathroom so he can clean himself from this blood and dirt, but Kibum has led him to his bedroom and the bathroom inside. They clean each other under the shower and reveal their longing for each other. Kibum kisses him passionately as he hold him really close and Sungmin’s arms found their place behind Kibum’s neck.
“I miss you…” Kibum whispered on Sungmin’s ear then bites his earlobe eliciting a moan from Sungmin’s mouth as he did so.
Sungmin turns off the faucet and led Kibum to the bedroom despite their wet state. He lays on the bed and pulls Kibum on top of him. They kisses again this time more pasionate and be damned with patient. Kibum’s mouth makes contact with Sungmin’s jaw, neck and chest and soon Sungmin’s mind swims in pleasure.
They can’t be happier than to be able making love again. Their love becomes one again with their body tangling together like this. They can feel each other heartbeat to be in this closeness. They can feel the familiar warmth, the one that only it can make their live complete. Their moans swallow by each other mouth when the feeling of fullness comes to them. Kibum fills Sungmin with his uncounted love, trust, gentleness and sincerity. Nothing can compare the love they have for each other. Even many years apart, even death throws them apart next.
“I love you, Lee Sungmin…” he whispered as he feels their body will explode soon and Sungmin can’t help it, he burst into tears as he lets his pleasures take him. Not soon after, Kibum follows him into a great bliss.
Sungmin not letting Kibum go even when Kibum rolls to his side. He wraps his arms and legs on Kibum’s body and lays his head on Kibum’s chest, “I love you too, Kim Kibum…”
They sleep on each other’s embrace and nothing can separate them anymore beside death.
***
A/N this is my first time writing fighting scene. forgive me please...!
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